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尼克·卡拉韦回顾父亲关于“不要轻易评判别人”的忠告,并介绍自己从中西部来到纽约东部学习债券业务、租住西卵的经历。他到东卵拜访表妹黛西和她的丈夫汤姆·布坎南,并认识职业高尔夫球手乔丹·贝克。晚餐中,汤姆表现出粗暴、自负和种族主义倾向,乔丹又告诉尼克,汤姆在纽约有情妇。黛西向尼克坦白自己对婚姻与世界的失望,并说希望女儿成为“一个漂亮的小傻瓜”。夜里回到西卵后,尼克第一次看见邻居盖茨比;盖茨比独自站在黑暗中,向海湾另一端一盏遥远的绿灯伸出双臂。

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作品写于二十世纪二十年代美国社会语境,涉及财富、阶级、婚姻、种族偏见、禁酒时代与爵士时代文化,应结合历史背景理解人物语言和社会观念。

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In my younger and more vulnerable years my father gave me some advice that I’ve been turning over in my mind ever since.

“Whenever you feel like criticizing anyone,” he told me, “just remember that all the people in this world haven’t had the advantages that you’ve had.”

He didn’t say any more, but we’ve always been unusually communicative in a reserved way, and I understood that he meant a great deal more than that. In consequence, I’m inclined to reserve all judgements, a habit that has opened up many curious natures to me and also made me the victim of not a few veteran bores. The abnormal mind is quick to detect and attach itself to this quality when it appears in a normal person, and so it came about that in college I was unjustly accused of being a politician, because I was privy to the secret griefs of wild, unknown men. Most of the confidences were unsought—frequently I have feigned sleep, preoccupation, or a hostile levity when I realized by some unmistakable sign that an intimate revelation was quivering on the horizon; for the intimate revelations of young men, or at least the terms in which they express them, are usually plagiaristic and marred by obvious suppressions. Reserving judgements is a matter of infinite hope. I am still a little afraid of missing something if I forget that, as my father snobbishly suggested, and I snobbishly repeat, a sense of the fundamental decencies is parcelled out unequally at birth.

And, after boasting this way of my tolerance, I come to the admission that it has a limit. Conduct may be founded on the hard rock or the wet marshes, but after a certain point I don’t care what it’s founded on. When I came back from the East last autumn I felt that I wanted the world to be in uniform and at a sort of moral attention forever; I wanted no more riotous excursions with privileged glimpses into the human heart. Only Gatsby, the man who gives his name to this book, was exempt from my reaction—Gatsby, who represented everything for which I have an unaffected scorn. If personality is an unbroken series of successful gestures, then there was something gorgeous about him, some heightened sensitivity to the promises of life, as if he were related to one of those intricate machines that register earthquakes ten thousand miles away. This responsiveness had nothing to do with that flabby impressionability which is dignified under the name of the “creative temperament”—it was an extraordinary gift for hope, a romantic readiness such as I have never found in any other person and which it is not likely I shall ever find again. No—Gatsby turned out all right at the end; it is what preyed on Gatsby, what foul dust floated in the wake of his dreams that temporarily closed out my interest in the abortive sorrows and short-winded elations of men.

My family have been prominent, well-to-do people in this Middle Western city for three generations. The Carraways are something of a clan, and we have a tradition that we’re descended from the Dukes of Buccleuch, but the actual founder of my line was my grandfather’s brother, who came here in fifty-one, sent a substitute to the Civil War, and started the wholesale hardware business that my father carries on today.

I never saw this great-uncle, but I’m supposed to look like him—with special reference to the rather hard-boiled painting that hangs in father’s office. I graduated from New Haven in 1915, just a quarter of a century after my father, and a little later I participated in that delayed Teutonic migration known as the Great War. I enjoyed the counter-raid so thoroughly that I came back restless. Instead of being the warm centre of the world, the Middle West now seemed like the ragged edge of the universe—so I decided to go East and learn the bond business. Everybody I knew was in the bond business, so I supposed it could support one more single man. All my aunts and uncles talked it over as if they were choosing a prep school for me, and finally said, “Why—ye-es,” with very grave, hesitant faces. Father agreed to finance me for a year, and after various delays I came East, permanently, I thought, in the spring of twenty-two.

The practical thing was to find rooms in the city, but it was a warm season, and I had just left a country of wide lawns and friendly trees, so when a young man at the office suggested that we take a house together in a commuting town, it sounded like a great idea. He found the house, a weather-beaten cardboard bungalow at eighty a month, but at the last minute the firm ordered him to Washington, and I went out to the country alone. I had a dog—at least I had him for a few days until he ran away—and an old Dodge and a Finnish woman, who made my bed and cooked breakfast and muttered Finnish wisdom to herself over the electric stove.

It was lonely for a day or so until one morning some man, more recently arrived than I, stopped me on the road.

“How do you get to West Egg village?” he asked helplessly.

I told him. And as I walked on I was lonely no longer. I was a guide, a pathfinder, an original settler. He had casually conferred on me the freedom of the neighbourhood.

And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees, just as things grow in fast movies, I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer.

There was so much to read, for one thing, and so much fine health to be pulled down out of the young breath-giving air. I bought a dozen volumes on banking and credit and investment securities, and they stood on my shelf in red and gold like new money from the mint, promising to unfold the shining secrets that only Midas and Morgan and Maecenas knew. And I had the high intention of reading many other books besides. I was rather literary in college—one year I wrote a series of very solemn and obvious editorials for the Yale News—and now I was going to bring back all such things into my life and become again that most limited of all specialists, the “well-rounded man.” This isn’t just an epigram—life is much more successfully looked at from a single window, after all.

It was a matter of chance that I should have rented a house in one of the strangest communities in North America. It was on that slender riotous island which extends itself due east of New York—and where there are, among other natural curiosities, two unusual formations of land. Twenty miles from the city a pair of enormous eggs, identical in contour and separated only by a courtesy bay, jut out into the most domesticated body of salt water in the Western hemisphere, the great wet barnyard of Long Island Sound. They are not perfect ovals—like the egg in the Columbus story, they are both crushed flat at the contact end—but their physical resemblance must be a source of perpetual wonder to the gulls that fly overhead. To the wingless a more interesting phenomenon is their dissimilarity in every particular except shape and size.

I lived at West Egg, the—well, the less fashionable of the two, though this is a most superficial tag to express the bizarre and not a little sinister contrast between them. My house was at the very tip of the egg, only fifty yards from the Sound, and squeezed between two huge places that rented for twelve or fifteen thousand a season. The one on my right was a colossal affair by any standard—it was a factual imitation of some Hôtel de Ville in Normandy, with a tower on one side, spanking new under a thin beard of raw ivy, and a marble swimming pool, and more than forty acres of lawn and garden. It was Gatsby’s mansion. Or, rather, as I didn’t know Mr. Gatsby, it was a mansion inhabited by a gentleman of that name. My own house was an eyesore, but it was a small eyesore, and it had been overlooked, so I had a view of the water, a partial view of my neighbour’s lawn, and the consoling proximity of millionaires—all for eighty dollars a month.

Across the courtesy bay the white palaces of fashionable East Egg glittered along the water, and the history of the summer really begins on the evening I drove over there to have dinner with the Tom Buchanans. Daisy was my second cousin once removed, and I’d known Tom in college. And just after the war I spent two days with them in Chicago.

Her husband, among various physical accomplishments, had been one of the most powerful ends that ever played football at New Haven—a national figure in a way, one of those men who reach such an acute limited excellence at twenty-one that everything afterward savours of anticlimax. His family were enormously wealthy—even in college his freedom with money was a matter for reproach—but now he’d left Chicago and come East in a fashion that rather took your breath away: for instance, he’d brought down a string of polo ponies from Lake Forest. It was hard to realize that a man in my own generation was wealthy enough to do that.

Why they came East I don’t know. They had spent a year in France for no particular reason, and then drifted here and there unrestfully wherever people played polo and were rich together. This was a permanent move, said Daisy over the telephone, but I didn’t believe it—I had no sight into Daisy’s heart, but I felt that Tom would drift on forever seeking, a little wistfully, for the dramatic turbulence of some irrecoverable football game.

And so it happened that on a warm windy evening I drove over to East Egg to see two old friends whom I scarcely knew at all. Their house was even more elaborate than I expected, a cheerful red-and-white Georgian Colonial mansion, overlooking the bay. The lawn started at the beach and ran towards the front door for a quarter of a mile, jumping over sundials and brick walks and burning gardens—finally when it reached the house drifting up the side in bright vines as though from the momentum of its run. The front was broken by a line of French windows, glowing now with reflected gold and wide open to the warm windy afternoon, and Tom Buchanan in riding clothes was standing with his legs apart on the front porch.

He had changed since his New Haven years. Now he was a sturdy straw-haired man of thirty, with a rather hard mouth and a supercilious manner. Two shining arrogant eyes had established dominance over his face and gave him the appearance of always leaning aggressively forward. Not even the effeminate swank of his riding clothes could hide the enormous power of that body—he seemed to fill those glistening boots until he strained the top lacing, and you could see a great pack of muscle shifting when his shoulder moved under his thin coat. It was a body capable of enormous leverage—a cruel body.

His speaking voice, a gruff husky tenor, added to the impression of fractiousness he conveyed. There was a touch of paternal contempt in it, even toward people he liked—and there were men at New Haven who had hated his guts.

“Now, don’t think my opinion on these matters is final,” he seemed to say, “just because I’m stronger and more of a man than you are.” We were in the same senior society, and while we were never intimate I always had the impression that he approved of me and wanted me to like him with some harsh, defiant wistfulness of his own.

We talked for a few minutes on the sunny porch.

“I’ve got a nice place here,” he said, his eyes flashing about restlessly.

Turning me around by one arm, he moved a broad flat hand along the front vista, including in its sweep a sunken Italian garden, a half acre of deep, pungent roses, and a snub-nosed motorboat that bumped the tide offshore.

“It belonged to Demaine, the oil man.” He turned me around again, politely and abruptly. “We’ll go inside.”

We walked through a high hallway into a bright rosy-coloured space, fragilely bound into the house by French windows at either end. The windows were ajar and gleaming white against the fresh grass outside that seemed to grow a little way into the house. A breeze blew through the room, blew curtains in at one end and out the other like pale flags, twisting them up toward the frosted wedding-cake of the ceiling, and then rippled over the wine-coloured rug, making a shadow on it as wind does on the sea.

The only completely stationary object in the room was an enormous couch on which two young women were buoyed up as though upon an anchored balloon. They were both in white, and their dresses were rippling and fluttering as if they had just been blown back in after a short flight around the house. I must have stood for a few moments listening to the whip and snap of the curtains and the groan of a picture on the wall. Then there was a boom as Tom Buchanan shut the rear windows and the caught wind died out about the room, and the curtains and the rugs and the two young women ballooned slowly to the floor.

The younger of the two was a stranger to me. She was extended full length at her end of the divan, completely motionless, and with her chin raised a little, as if she were balancing something on it which was quite likely to fall. If she saw me out of the corner of her eyes she gave no hint of it—indeed, I was almost surprised into murmuring an apology for having disturbed her by coming in.

The other girl, Daisy, made an attempt to rise—she leaned slightly forward with a conscientious expression—then she laughed, an absurd, charming little laugh, and I laughed too and came forward into the room.

“I’m p-paralysed with happiness.”

She laughed again, as if she said something very witty, and held my hand for a moment, looking up into my face, promising that there was no one in the world she so much wanted to see. That was a way she had. She hinted in a murmur that the surname of the balancing girl was Baker. (I’ve heard it said that Daisy’s murmur was only to make people lean toward her; an irrelevant criticism that made it no less charming.)

At any rate, Miss Baker’s lips fluttered, she nodded at me almost imperceptibly, and then quickly tipped her head back again—the object she was balancing had obviously tottered a little and given her something of a fright. Again a sort of apology arose to my lips. Almost any exhibition of complete self-sufficiency draws a stunned tribute from me.

I looked back at my cousin, who began to ask me questions in her low, thrilling voice. It was the kind of voice that the ear follows up and down, as if each speech is an arrangement of notes that will never be played again. Her face was sad and lovely with bright things in it, bright eyes and a bright passionate mouth, but there was an excitement in her voice that men who had cared for her found difficult to forget: a singing compulsion, a whispered “Listen,” a promise that she had done gay, exciting things just a while since and that there were gay, exciting things hovering in the next hour.

I told her how I had stopped off in Chicago for a day on my way East, and how a dozen people had sent their love through me.

“Do they miss me?” she cried ecstatically.

“The whole town is desolate. All the cars have the left rear wheel painted black as a mourning wreath, and there’s a persistent wail all night along the north shore.”

“How gorgeous! Let’s go back, Tom. Tomorrow!” Then she added irrelevantly: “You ought to see the baby.”

“I’d like to.”

“She’s asleep. She’s three years old. Haven’t you ever seen her?”

“Never.”

“Well, you ought to see her. She’s—”

Tom Buchanan, who had been hovering restlessly about the room, stopped and rested his hand on my shoulder.

“What you doing, Nick?”

“I’m a bond man.”

“Who with?”

I told him.

“Never heard of them,” he remarked decisively.

This annoyed me.

“You will,” I answered shortly. “You will if you stay in the East.”

“Oh, I’ll stay in the East, don’t you worry,” he said, glancing at Daisy and then back at me, as if he were alert for something more. “I’d be a God damned fool to live anywhere else.”

At this point Miss Baker said: “Absolutely!” with such suddenness that I started—it was the first word she had uttered since I came into the room. Evidently it surprised her as much as it did me, for she yawned and with a series of rapid, deft movements stood up into the room.

“I’m stiff,” she complained, “I’ve been lying on that sofa for as long as I can remember.”

“Don’t look at me,” Daisy retorted, “I’ve been trying to get you to New York all afternoon.”

“No, thanks,” said Miss Baker to the four cocktails just in from the pantry. “I’m absolutely in training.”

Her host looked at her incredulously.

“You are!” He took down his drink as if it were a drop in the bottom of a glass. “How you ever get anything done is beyond me.”

I looked at Miss Baker, wondering what it was she “got done.” I enjoyed looking at her. She was a slender, small-breasted girl, with an erect carriage, which she accentuated by throwing her body backward at the shoulders like a young cadet. Her grey sun-strained eyes looked back at me with polite reciprocal curiosity out of a wan, charming, discontented face. It occurred to me now that I had seen her, or a picture of her, somewhere before.

“You live in West Egg,” she remarked contemptuously. “I know somebody there.”

“I don’t know a single—”

“You must know Gatsby.”

“Gatsby?” demanded Daisy. “What Gatsby?”

Before I could reply that he was my neighbour dinner was announced; wedging his tense arm imperatively under mine, Tom Buchanan compelled me from the room as though he were moving a checker to another square.

Slenderly, languidly, their hands set lightly on their hips, the two young women preceded us out on to a rosy-coloured porch, open toward the sunset, where four candles flickered on the table in the diminished wind.

“Why candles?” objected Daisy, frowning. She snapped them out with her fingers. “In two weeks it’ll be the longest day in the year.” She looked at us all radiantly. “Do you always watch for the longest day of the year and then miss it? I always watch for the longest day in the year and then miss it.”

“We ought to plan something,” yawned Miss Baker, sitting down at the table as if she were getting into bed.

“All right,” said Daisy. “What’ll we plan?” She turned to me helplessly: “What do people plan?”

Before I could answer her eyes fastened with an awed expression on her little finger.

“Look!” she complained; “I hurt it.”

We all looked—the knuckle was black and blue.

“You did it, Tom,” she said accusingly. “I know you didn’t mean to, but you did do it. That’s what I get for marrying a brute of a man, a great, big, hulking physical specimen of a—”

“I hate that word ‘hulking,’ ” objected Tom crossly, “even in kidding.”

“Hulking,” insisted Daisy.

Sometimes she and Miss Baker talked at once, unobtrusively and with a bantering inconsequence that was never quite chatter, that was as cool as their white dresses and their impersonal eyes in the absence of all desire. They were here, and they accepted Tom and me, making only a polite pleasant effort to entertain or to be entertained. They knew that presently dinner would be over and a little later the evening too would be over and casually put away. It was sharply different from the West, where an evening was hurried from phase to phase towards its close, in a continually disappointed anticipation or else in sheer nervous dread of the moment itself.

“You make me feel uncivilized, Daisy,” I confessed on my second glass of corky but rather impressive claret. “Can’t you talk about crops or something?”

I meant nothing in particular by this remark, but it was taken up in an unexpected way.

“Civilization’s going to pieces,” broke out Tom violently. “I’ve gotten to be a terrible pessimist about things. Have you read The Rise of the Coloured Empires by this man Goddard?”

“Why, no,” I answered, rather surprised by his tone.

“Well, it’s a fine book, and everybody ought to read it. The idea is if we don’t look out the white race will be—will be utterly submerged. It’s all scientific stuff; it’s been proved.”

“Tom’s getting very profound,” said Daisy, with an expression of unthoughtful sadness. “He reads deep books with long words in them. What was that word we—”

“Well, these books are all scientific,” insisted Tom, glancing at her impatiently. “This fellow has worked out the whole thing. It’s up to us, who are the dominant race, to watch out or these other races will have control of things.”

“We’ve got to beat them down,” whispered Daisy, winking ferociously toward the fervent sun.

“You ought to live in California—” began Miss Baker, but Tom interrupted her by shifting heavily in his chair.

“This idea is that we’re Nordics. I am, and you are, and you are, and—” After an infinitesimal hesitation he included Daisy with a slight nod, and she winked at me again. “—And we’ve produced all the things that go to make civilization—oh, science and art, and all that. Do you see?”

There was something pathetic in his concentration, as if his complacency, more acute than of old, was not enough to him any more. When, almost immediately, the telephone rang inside and the butler left the porch Daisy seized upon the momentary interruption and leaned towards me.

“I’ll tell you a family secret,” she whispered enthusiastically. “It’s about the butler’s nose. Do you want to hear about the butler’s nose?”

“That’s why I came over tonight.”

“Well, he wasn’t always a butler; he used to be the silver polisher for some people in New York that had a silver service for two hundred people. He had to polish it from morning till night, until finally it began to affect his nose—”

“Things went from bad to worse,” suggested Miss Baker.

“Yes. Things went from bad to worse, until finally he had to give up his position.”

For a moment the last sunshine fell with romantic affection upon her glowing face; her voice compelled me forward breathlessly as I listened—then the glow faded, each light deserting her with lingering regret, like children leaving a pleasant street at dusk.

The butler came back and murmured something close to Tom’s ear, whereupon Tom frowned, pushed back his chair, and without a word went inside. As if his absence quickened something within her, Daisy leaned forward again, her voice glowing and singing.

“I love to see you at my table, Nick. You remind me of a—of a rose, an absolute rose. Doesn’t he?” She turned to Miss Baker for confirmation: “An absolute rose?”

This was untrue. I am not even faintly like a rose. She was only extemporizing, but a stirring warmth flowed from her, as if her heart was trying to come out to you concealed in one of those breathless, thrilling words. Then suddenly she threw her napkin on the table and excused herself and went into the house.

Miss Baker and I exchanged a short glance consciously devoid of meaning. I was about to speak when she sat up alertly and said “Sh!” in a warning voice. A subdued impassioned murmur was audible in the room beyond, and Miss Baker leaned forward unashamed, trying to hear. The murmur trembled on the verge of coherence, sank down, mounted excitedly, and then ceased altogether.

“This Mr. Gatsby you spoke of is my neighbour—” I began.

“Don’t talk. I want to hear what happens.”

“Is something happening?” I inquired innocently.

“You mean to say you don’t know?” said Miss Baker, honestly surprised. “I thought everybody knew.”

“I don’t.”

“Why—” she said hesitantly. “Tom’s got some woman in New York.”

“Got some woman?” I repeated blankly.

Miss Baker nodded.

“She might have the decency not to telephone him at dinner time. Don’t you think?”

Almost before I had grasped her meaning there was the flutter of a dress and the crunch of leather boots, and Tom and Daisy were back at the table.

“It couldn’t be helped!” cried Daisy with tense gaiety.

She sat down, glanced searchingly at Miss Baker and then at me, and continued: “I looked outdoors for a minute, and it’s very romantic outdoors. There’s a bird on the lawn that I think must be a nightingale come over on the Cunard or White Star Line. He’s singing away—” Her voice sang: “It’s romantic, isn’t it, Tom?”

“Very romantic,” he said, and then miserably to me: “If it’s light enough after dinner, I want to take you down to the stables.”

The telephone rang inside, startlingly, and as Daisy shook her head decisively at Tom the subject of the stables, in fact all subjects, vanished into air. Among the broken fragments of the last five minutes at table I remember the candles being lit again, pointlessly, and I was conscious of wanting to look squarely at everyone, and yet to avoid all eyes. I couldn’t guess what Daisy and Tom were thinking, but I doubt if even Miss Baker, who seemed to have mastered a certain hardy scepticism, was able utterly to put this fifth guest’s shrill metallic urgency out of mind. To a certain temperament the situation might have seemed intriguing—my own instinct was to telephone immediately for the police.

The horses, needless to say, were not mentioned again. Tom and Miss Baker, with several feet of twilight between them, strolled back into the library, as if to a vigil beside a perfectly tangible body, while, trying to look pleasantly interested and a little deaf, I followed Daisy around a chain of connecting verandas to the porch in front. In its deep gloom we sat down side by side on a wicker settee.

Daisy took her face in her hands as if feeling its lovely shape, and her eyes moved gradually out into the velvet dusk. I saw that turbulent emotions possessed her, so I asked what I thought would be some sedative questions about her little girl.

“We don’t know each other very well, Nick,” she said suddenly. “Even if we are cousins. You didn’t come to my wedding.”

“I wasn’t back from the war.”

“That’s true.” She hesitated. “Well, I’ve had a very bad time, Nick, and I’m pretty cynical about everything.”

Evidently she had reason to be. I waited but she didn’t say any more, and after a moment I returned rather feebly to the subject of her daughter.

“I suppose she talks, and—eats, and everything.”

“Oh, yes.” She looked at me absently. “Listen, Nick; let me tell you what I said when she was born. Would you like to hear?”

“Very much.”

“It’ll show you how I’ve gotten to feel about—things. Well, she was less than an hour old and Tom was God knows where. I woke up out of the ether with an utterly abandoned feeling, and asked the nurse right away if it was a boy or a girl. She told me it was a girl, and so I turned my head away and wept. ‘All right,’ I said, ‘I’m glad it’s a girl. And I hope she’ll be a fool—that’s the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little fool.’

“You see I think everything’s terrible anyhow,” she went on in a convinced way. “Everybody thinks so—the most advanced people. And I know. I’ve been everywhere and seen everything and done everything.” Her eyes flashed around her in a defiant way, rather like Tom’s, and she laughed with thrilling scorn. “Sophisticated—God, I’m sophisticated!”

The instant her voice broke off, ceasing to compel my attention, my belief, I felt the basic insincerity of what she had said. It made me uneasy, as though the whole evening had been a trick of some sort to exact a contributory emotion from me. I waited, and sure enough, in a moment she looked at me with an absolute smirk on her lovely face, as if she had asserted her membership in a rather distinguished secret society to which she and Tom belonged.

Inside, the crimson room bloomed with light. Tom and Miss Baker sat at either end of the long couch and she read aloud to him from the Saturday Evening Post—the words, murmurous and uninflected, running together in a soothing tune. The lamplight, bright on his boots and dull on the autumn-leaf yellow of her hair, glinted along the paper as she turned a page with a flutter of slender muscles in her arms.

When we came in she held us silent for a moment with a lifted hand.

“To be continued,” she said, tossing the magazine on the table, “in our very next issue.”

Her body asserted itself with a restless movement of her knee, and she stood up.

“Ten o’clock,” she remarked, apparently finding the time on the ceiling. “Time for this good girl to go to bed.”

“Jordan’s going to play in the tournament tomorrow,” explained Daisy, “over at Westchester.”

“Oh—you’re Jordan Baker.”

I knew now why her face was familiar—its pleasing contemptuous expression had looked out at me from many rotogravure pictures of the sporting life at Asheville and Hot Springs and Palm Beach. I had heard some story of her too, a critical, unpleasant story, but what it was I had forgotten long ago.

“Good night,” she said softly. “Wake me at eight, won’t you.”

“If you’ll get up.”

“I will. Good night, Mr. Carraway. See you anon.”

“Of course you will,” confirmed Daisy. “In fact I think I’ll arrange a marriage. Come over often, Nick, and I’ll sort of—oh—fling you together. You know—lock you up accidentally in linen closets and push you out to sea in a boat, and all that sort of thing—”

“Good night,” called Miss Baker from the stairs. “I haven’t heard a word.”

“She’s a nice girl,” said Tom after a moment. “They oughtn’t to let her run around the country this way.”

“Who oughtn’t to?” inquired Daisy coldly.

“Her family.”

“Her family is one aunt about a thousand years old. Besides, Nick’s going to look after her, aren’t you, Nick? She’s going to spend lots of weekends out here this summer. I think the home influence will be very good for her.”

Daisy and Tom looked at each other for a moment in silence.

“Is she from New York?” I asked quickly.

“From Louisville. Our white girlhood was passed together there. Our beautiful white—”

“Did you give Nick a little heart to heart talk on the veranda?” demanded Tom suddenly.

“Did I?” She looked at me. “I can’t seem to remember, but I think we talked about the Nordic race. Yes, I’m sure we did. It sort of crept up on us and first thing you know—”

“Don’t believe everything you hear, Nick,” he advised me.

I said lightly that I had heard nothing at all, and a few minutes later I got up to go home. They came to the door with me and stood side by side in a cheerful square of light. As I started my motor Daisy peremptorily called: “Wait!

“I forgot to ask you something, and it’s important. We heard you were engaged to a girl out West.”

“That’s right,” corroborated Tom kindly. “We heard that you were engaged.”

“It’s a libel. I’m too poor.”

“But we heard it,” insisted Daisy, surprising me by opening up again in a flower-like way. “We heard it from three people, so it must be true.”

Of course I knew what they were referring to, but I wasn’t even vaguely engaged. The fact that gossip had published the banns was one of the reasons I had come East. You can’t stop going with an old friend on account of rumours, and on the other hand I had no intention of being rumoured into marriage.

Their interest rather touched me and made them less remotely rich—nevertheless, I was confused and a little disgusted as I drove away. It seemed to me that the thing for Daisy to do was to rush out of the house, child in arms—but apparently there were no such intentions in her head. As for Tom, the fact that he “had some woman in New York” was really less surprising than that he had been depressed by a book. Something was making him nibble at the edge of stale ideas as if his sturdy physical egotism no longer nourished his peremptory heart.

Already it was deep summer on roadhouse roofs and in front of wayside garages, where new red petrol-pumps sat out in pools of light, and when I reached my estate at West Egg I ran the car under its shed and sat for a while on an abandoned grass roller in the yard. The wind had blown off, leaving a loud, bright night, with wings beating in the trees and a persistent organ sound as the full bellows of the earth blew the frogs full of life. The silhouette of a moving cat wavered across the moonlight, and, turning my head to watch it, I saw that I was not alone—fifty feet away a figure had emerged from the shadow of my neighbour’s mansion and was standing with his hands in his pockets regarding the silver pepper of the stars. Something in his leisurely movements and the secure position of his feet upon the lawn suggested that it was Mr. Gatsby himself, come out to determine what share was his of our local heavens.

I decided to call to him. Miss Baker had mentioned him at dinner, and that would do for an introduction. But I didn’t call to him, for he gave a sudden intimation that he was content to be alone—he stretched out his arms toward the dark water in a curious way, and, far as I was from him, I could have sworn he was trembling. Involuntarily I glanced seaward—and distinguished nothing except a single green light, minute and far away, that might have been the end of a dock. When I looked once more for Gatsby he had vanished, and I was alone again in the unquiet darkness.

中文

在我更年轻、也更容易受伤的那些年里,父亲给过我一句忠告,从此我一直把它放在心里反复琢磨。

“每当你想批评别人时,”他对我说,“只要记住,这个世界上的人,并不是人人都拥有过你拥有的那些条件。”

他没有再多说什么,不过我们父子一向以一种克制的方式保持着异乎寻常的沟通,所以我明白,他这句话包含的意思远不止表面这些。因此,我习惯保留判断。这种习惯让我接触到许多奇特性格,也让我成了不少资深无聊人物的受害者。一个不正常的心灵,只要发现正常人身上有这种品质,就会迅速察觉并黏上来;于是大学时代,我曾被不公平地指责成“政客”,因为那些狂放而陌生的男人会把秘密的痛苦告诉我。多数倾诉并不是我主动求来的——有时,一看到某种明确迹象,意识到一场私密告白就要出现,我就会假装睡着、装得心不在焉,或者摆出一种带敌意的轻浮态度;因为年轻人的隐私告白,至少他们表达这些事情时用的说法,通常带着明显模仿痕迹,而且总有刻意隐瞒。保留判断,需要无限的希望。我仍然有点害怕,如果忘记父亲那种带点势利的提醒——而我现在也同样势利地重复一遍——我就会错过什么:人们与生俱来的基本体面,并不是平均分配的。

说完自己多么宽容以后,我得承认,这种宽容也是有限度的。一个人的行为可以建立在坚硬岩石上,也可以建立在湿软沼泽里;可到了某个程度以后,我已经不在乎它的根基是什么。去年秋天我从东部回来时,只希望整个世界都穿上制服,永远立正站好,进入某种道德上的警戒状态;我再也不想经历那些放纵的远足,也不想拥有窥见人心秘密的特权。只有盖茨比——这个把名字给了这本书的人——不在我的反感之列。盖茨比代表的一切,本来正是我毫不掩饰地轻蔑的东西。如果一个人的性格,是由一连串连续不断、成功完成的姿态组成的,那么他身上确实有某种华美的东西,有一种对生命承诺异常敏锐的感受力,仿佛他同那些能记录一万英里外地震的精密仪器相连。这种敏感和那种被冠以“创造性气质”美名的软弱易感毫无关系——它是一种非凡的希望天赋,一种浪漫的准备状态;我从未在别人身上见过,以后大概也不会再见到。不——盖茨比本人最终并没有坏掉;真正让我暂时对人类那些失败的悲伤和短促的兴奋失去兴趣的,是吞噬盖茨比的东西,是他梦想尾迹中漂浮的肮脏尘埃。

我的家族在中西部这座城市里显赫而富有,已经延续三代。卡拉韦一家多少算一个家族集团,我们还有一种说法,说自己是巴克卢公爵的后裔;不过我们这一支真正的奠基人,是我祖父的兄弟。他在一八五一年来到这里,南北战争时花钱雇人代替自己参战,后来创办了父亲至今仍在经营的五金批发公司。

我从没见过这位伯祖父,不过据说我长得像他——尤其像父亲办公室里挂着的那幅神情强硬的肖像。一九一五年,我从纽黑文毕业,正好比父亲晚二十五年;不久以后,我参加了那场姗姗来迟的日耳曼民族大迁徙,也就是第一次世界大战。我非常喜欢那次反攻,以至于回来以后始终坐立不安。中西部不再是世界温暖的中心,反而像宇宙破破烂烂的边缘;于是我决定去东部学习债券业务。我认识的人都在做债券,所以我想,这一行大概还能再养活一个单身汉。叔叔婶婶们讨论这件事时,就像在替我挑一所预科学校;最后,他们神情严肃而迟疑地说:“嗯——好吧。”父亲同意资助我一年。经过种种拖延,一九二二年春天,我来到东部;当时我以为这是永久性的迁移。

最实际的做法,本来是在城里找房间住;可当时天气暖和,我刚离开一片拥有宽阔草坪和友善树木的地方,所以办公室里有个年轻人提议,我们一起在通勤小镇租房时,我觉得主意很好。他找到了房子——一间风吹雨打、纸板盒一样的平房,每月八十美元——可最后一刻,公司派他去了华盛顿,于是我只好独自搬到郊外。我有一条狗——至少养了几天,直到它跑掉——还有一辆旧道奇汽车,以及一个芬兰女人。她替我铺床、做早餐,还会一边站在电炉前,一边低声对自己嘟囔芬兰式的人生智慧。

我孤单了一两天。一天早晨,一个比我来得还晚的男人在路上叫住我。

“去西卵村怎么走?”他无助地问。

我告诉了他。继续往前走时,我已经不再孤单。我成了向导、开路人、最早的定居者。他随随便便就赋予了我这个社区居民的资格。

于是,在阳光和树上突然爆发的大片新叶之中——万物像快进电影里那样迅速生长——我再次产生那种熟悉的感觉:随着夏天到来,人生也正在重新开始。

首先,有那么多东西可以读;而年轻、让人恢复生气的空气里,也有那么多健康可以吸收。我买了十来本讲银行、信贷和投资证券的书,它们红红金金地站在书架上,像造币厂刚铸出的新钱,承诺向我揭开只有迈达斯、摩根和梅塞纳斯才知道的闪亮秘密。除此之外,我还雄心勃勃地准备读很多别的书。大学时代我多少有点文学爱好——有一年还给《耶鲁新闻》写过一系列一本正经、观点明显的社论——如今我准备把这些东西重新带回生活,重新成为那种最受限制的专家:“全面发展的人”。这并不只是一句机巧话——归根结底,从一扇固定窗口看人生,往往看得更成功。

我偶然在北美最奇怪的社区之一租下房子。这地方位于一座狭长、躁动不安、从纽约向正东伸出的岛上;那里除了其他自然奇观之外,还有两块不同寻常的地形。距离城市二十英里,两只巨大鸡蛋形状的陆地,轮廓相同,只隔着一个礼貌性的海湾,一同伸进西半球最驯服的一片咸水——长岛海峡这座巨大的湿漉漉牲口场。它们并非完美椭圆;就像哥伦布故事里的鸡蛋,两只“蛋”在彼此接触的一端都被压扁。不过对飞过上空的海鸥来说,它们外形如此相像,想必永远令人惊奇;而对没有翅膀的人而言,更有意思的是:除了形状和大小之外,两地每一点都截然不同。

我住在西卵,也就是——怎么说呢——两者中不那么时髦的那一个,虽然这个标签太表面,无法真正表达两地之间古怪而多少有些阴森的差异。我的房子在“蛋”的最尖端,距海峡只有五十码,被夹在两座巨宅之间,它们一个夏季的租金要一万二到一万五千美元。右边那一座,无论用什么标准看都庞大得惊人——它是诺曼底某座市政厅的真实仿制品,一侧有塔楼,新得发亮,只覆盖着一层稀薄的嫩常春藤;还有一座大理石游泳池,以及四十多英亩草坪和花园。那就是盖茨比的豪宅。或者更准确地说,因为当时我还不认识盖茨比先生,那是一座由某位姓盖茨比的绅士居住的豪宅。我自己的房子很碍眼,但只是一个小小的碍眼东西,又恰好被忽视了;于是我既能看见海面,也能看见邻居部分草坪,还能从百万富翁的近在咫尺中获得安慰——这一切,每月只要八十美元。

礼貌海湾对面,时髦的东卵沿岸排列着闪闪发亮的白色宫殿。这个夏天的故事,真正开始于一个晚上:我开车过去,和汤姆·布坎南夫妇吃晚饭。黛西是我的远房表妹,汤姆则是大学旧识。战争刚结束时,我还曾在芝加哥同他们住过两天。

她的丈夫除了其他体育成就以外,曾是纽黑文橄榄球队历史上最强悍的边锋之一;某种意义上,他还是全国知名人物——那种二十一岁时就达到尖锐而有限的巅峰,以后人生中一切都显得像余兴节目的人。他家极其富有;即使大学时代,他花钱的阔绰也常被人非议。如今,他离开芝加哥来到东部,排场大得让人吃惊:比如,他从莱克福里斯特运来整整一队马球马匹。很难想象,一个和我同代的人竟然富有到可以这样做。

我不知道他们为什么来东部。他们曾毫无特别理由地在法国住了一年,之后又四处漂泊,只要那里有人打马球、富人聚在一起,他们就去哪里。黛西在电话里说,这次是永久搬迁,可我不相信——我看不透黛西的内心,却觉得汤姆会永远漂流下去,带着一点惆怅,不断寻找某场再也回不来的橄榄球比赛里那种戏剧性的骚动。

于是,在一个温暖而多风的夜晚,我开车去东卵拜访这两个几乎已经陌生的老朋友。他们的房子比我想象中还要奢华,是一座欢乐的红白色乔治亚殖民风格宅邸,俯瞰海湾。草坪从海滩开始,一路延伸四分之一英里,越过日晷、砖砌小路和燃烧般鲜艳的花园,最终抵达房屋时,又像借着奔跑惯性一样,以明亮藤蔓爬上墙面。正面一排落地窗把立面分开,映着金色余晖,向温暖多风的下午大大敞开。汤姆·布坎南穿着骑马装,双腿分开,站在前廊上。

同纽黑文时代相比,他已经变了。如今他三十岁,身材结实,头发草黄色,嘴角显得冷硬,举止傲慢。两只闪亮而自负的眼睛统治着整张脸,让他总像带着攻击性向前倾。即使骑马服带着一点女性化的炫耀,也掩不住那具身体巨大的力量——闪亮长靴仿佛被小腿撑到顶端鞋带都快绷断;薄外套下面,肩膀一动,就能看见大团肌肉滑动。那是一具有巨大杠杆力量的身体——一具残酷的身体。

他说话的声音粗哑低沉,更强化了他给人的暴躁印象。即使对喜欢的人,他语气里也带着一点父亲般的轻蔑;在纽黑文,有些人恨他入骨。

他的神态仿佛在说:“别因为我比你强壮、比你更像个男人,就觉得我对这些事的意见是最终结论。”我们大学时同属一个高年级社团;虽然从不亲密,我始终感觉他认可我,也带着一种自己特有的强硬、挑衅而又带点渴望的态度,希望我喜欢他。

我们在阳光照着的前廊聊了几分钟。

“我这地方不错吧,”他说,眼睛焦躁地四处扫动。

他抓住我一只胳膊把我转过身,宽大平坦的手掌沿着眼前景色一扫,把下沉式意大利花园、半英亩香气浓烈的玫瑰,还有一艘在近岸潮水上颠簸的短鼻摩托艇全都包括进去。

“以前属于那个石油商德曼。”他又一次礼貌而突然地把我转回去,“进去吧。”

我们穿过高高的门厅,进入一个明亮、带玫瑰色调的房间。房间两端都是落地窗,像脆弱地连接在房屋主体上。窗户微微敞开,在外面新鲜草地背景上亮得发白,那片草仿佛一直长进了屋里。微风穿过房间,从一端把窗帘吹进来,又从另一端吹出去,像苍白旗帜一样飘动,把它们卷向天花板那片磨砂婚礼蛋糕般的装饰;随后风又掠过酒红色地毯,像海风在海面上一样留下阴影。

房间里唯一完全静止的东西,是一张巨大沙发;两个年轻女人像漂浮在系锚气球上一样躺在上面。她们都穿白衣,裙子起伏飘动,仿佛刚刚绕房子飞了一圈,又被风吹回来。我大概站了几秒,只听见窗帘抽打的声音和墙上一幅画发出的呻吟。接着“砰”的一声,汤姆·布坎南关上后窗,困在屋里的风死去,窗帘、地毯和两个年轻女人也像气球一样慢慢落回地面。

两个女人中较年轻的那个,我不认识。她在长沙发另一端伸直身体,一动不动,下巴微微抬起,仿佛正平衡着某样很可能掉下来的东西。如果她用眼角看见了我,也没有任何表示——事实上,我差点低声向她道歉,好像自己的到来打扰了她。

另一个女孩,黛西,试着站起来——她神情认真地微微前倾——随后笑了,那是一阵荒唐而迷人的小笑声。我也跟着笑,走进房间。

“我高兴得都——动不了了。”

她又笑起来,像自己刚说了非常机智的话,然后握住我的手片刻,仰头看着我的脸,仿佛承诺世界上没有任何人比我更让她想见。这就是她的方式。她低声暗示,那个保持平衡姿势的姑娘姓贝克。有人说,黛西轻声说话只是为了让别人不得不向她靠近;这种批评完全无关紧要,也丝毫不减她的魅力。

不管怎样,贝克小姐的嘴唇微微动了一下,她几乎看不出来地点点头,随后又迅速把头向后仰去——显然,她正在平衡的东西刚刚晃动了一下,把她吓了一跳。我的嘴边再次冒出一种想道歉的冲动。几乎任何完全自足的表现,都会让我产生一种震惊般的敬意。

我转头看表妹,她开始用低沉而令人激动的声音问我问题。那是一种耳朵会不由自主追随着上下起伏的声音,仿佛每一句话都是一组再也不会演奏第二次的音符。她的脸忧伤而美丽,里面有许多明亮的东西:明亮的眼睛,明亮而充满激情的嘴唇;可她声音中有一种兴奋,让那些爱过她的男人很难忘记——一种歌唱般的吸引力,一声低语的“听我说”,仿佛承诺她刚刚经历过快乐刺激的事情,而下一个小时里,也还有更多快乐刺激正在等待。

我告诉她,自己来东部途中曾在芝加哥停留一天,有十来个人托我向她问好。

“他们想我吗?”她欣喜若狂地喊。

“整座城市都荒凉了。所有汽车左后轮都涂成黑色,像哀悼花圈;北岸整夜都响着不停的哭号。”

“太棒了!我们回去吧,汤姆。明天就走!”随后她毫无关联地补了一句,“你应该看看孩子。”

“我很想看。”

“她睡着了。已经三岁。你还没见过她吗?”

“从来没有。”

“那你真该看看她。她——”

一直焦躁地在房间里走动的汤姆·布坎南停下来,把手放到我肩上。

“你现在做什么,尼克?”

“做债券。”

“在哪家公司?”

我告诉了他。

“没听说过。”他斩钉截铁地说。

这让我很恼火。

“你会听说的,”我简短回答,“只要你继续住在东部。”

“哦,我会留在东部,别担心。”他说着看了黛西一眼,又回头看我,仿佛正在警惕更多什么事情,“住别的地方才是他妈的傻瓜。”

就在这时,贝克小姐突然说了一声:“完全正确!”声音太突然,把我吓了一跳——这是我进屋以后她说的第一个词。显然,她自己也同样意外,因为她打了个哈欠,又用一连串迅速、灵巧的动作从沙发上站起来。

“我都僵了,”她抱怨,“感觉自己在那张沙发上躺了一辈子。”

“别看我,”黛西反驳,“我整个下午都在想办法让你去纽约。”

“不了,谢谢。”贝克小姐对刚从餐具室端来的四杯鸡尾酒说,“我正在严格训练。”

男主人难以置信地看着她。

“你还训练!”他像喝杯底最后一滴一样一口喝掉酒,“你到底怎么做成任何事的,我真想不明白。”

我看着贝克小姐,心里想她究竟“做成”了什么。我喜欢看她。她身材纤细,胸部平坦,站姿笔直;她会把肩膀向后收,像个年轻军校生一样,更强调这种挺拔。被阳光晒得发灰的眼睛,也带着礼貌而对等的好奇看着我;那张苍白、迷人而不满的脸,让我忽然想起自己以前在什么地方见过她,或者至少见过她的照片。

“你住在西卵。”她轻蔑地说,“我在那里认识一个人。”

“我一个人也不认——”

“你一定认识盖茨比。”

“盖茨比?”黛西追问,“哪个盖茨比?”

我还没来得及回答说他是我的邻居,晚餐已经宣布开始。汤姆·布坎南把紧绷的手臂强硬地插进我臂弯,像移动棋子一样把我从房间里带走。

两个年轻女人纤细而懒洋洋地走在前面,双手轻轻搭在腰间。我们来到一个朝向落日、带玫瑰色调的露台,微风已经减弱,桌上四支蜡烛摇曳着。

“为什么要点蜡烛?”黛西皱眉反对。她用手指把它们一一掐灭。“再过两个星期就是一年中白昼最长的一天。”她灿烂地望着我们所有人,“你们是不是也总惦记着一年中最长的那一天,结果最后又错过?我每年都惦记,然后每年都错过。”

“我们应该计划点什么。”贝克小姐打着哈欠,在桌边坐下,姿势像钻进床里一样。

“好啊,”黛西说,“计划什么?”她无助地转向我,“人们一般都计划什么?”

我还没回答,她忽然带着敬畏神情盯住自己的小手指。

“看!”她抱怨,“我把它弄伤了。”

我们都看过去——指关节青紫了一片。

“是你弄的,汤姆,”她指责说,“我知道你不是故意,可确实是你。这就是嫁给野蛮男人的下场,嫁给一个又大又壮、块头惊人的——”

“我讨厌‘块头惊人’这个词,”汤姆不高兴地打断,“开玩笑也不行。”

“块头惊人。”黛西坚持。

有时,她和贝克小姐会同时说话,语气不显眼,带着一种打趣式的无意义,却又不能简单叫作闲聊;那种感觉和她们的白裙、无欲无求的眼神一样清凉。她们就在这里,接受汤姆和我,只做出礼貌而愉快的努力去招待别人,或者接受别人的招待。她们知道晚餐马上会结束,再过一会儿,夜晚也会结束,然后被随手收起来。这和西部截然不同;在那里,一个夜晚总被匆匆从一个阶段推向下一个阶段,奔向结束,不是在不断落空的期待里,就是在对当下时刻本身的神经质恐惧里。

喝到第二杯带点木塞味、却颇有气势的红葡萄酒时,我坦白说:“黛西,你让我觉得自己很不文明。你们不能谈点庄稼之类的吗?”

我本来没什么特别意思,没想到这句话却以意外方式被接了过去。

“文明正在崩溃。”汤姆突然激烈地说,“我对这些事情已经悲观得不得了。你看过那个戈达德写的《有色帝国的崛起》吗?”

“没有。”我有些吃惊地回答。

“那是本好书,每个人都该读。它的意思是,如果我们不小心,白人种族就会——就会彻底被淹没。全是科学,有证明的。”

“汤姆变得很深刻了。”黛西带着一种不加思索的忧伤说,“他读那些字很长的深奥书。我们刚才说的那个词是什么来着——”

“这些书全是科学的。”汤姆坚持,烦躁地看她一眼,“这个人已经把整件事都研究透了。我们这些占统治地位的种族必须提高警惕,否则其他种族会控制一切。”

“我们得把他们压下去。”黛西低声说,同时朝灼热的太阳凶狠地眨眼。

“你应该住到加利福尼亚——”贝克小姐刚开口,汤姆笨重地挪动椅子,打断了她。

“他的理论是,我们是北欧人种。我是,你也是,你也是,还有——”他极短地迟疑了一下,然后轻轻点头把黛西也包括进去,她又朝我眨眼,“——而创造文明的一切东西,都是我们造出来的——科学、艺术等等。明白吗?”

他这种全神贯注的样子多少有点可怜,仿佛过去那种自满如今已经不够用了。几乎就在这时,屋里的电话响起,男管家离开露台。黛西立刻抓住这个短暂空档,向我靠过来。

“告诉你一个家庭秘密。”她兴奋地低声说,“是关于男管家鼻子的。你想听男管家鼻子的故事吗?”

“我今晚就是为这个来的。”

“他以前不总是男管家;过去给纽约一户人家擦银器,那家人的银餐具够两百人用。他从早擦到晚,最后终于影响了鼻子——”

“情况越来越糟。”贝克小姐补充。

“对。越来越糟,最后他只好辞掉工作。”

最后一束阳光带着浪漫爱意落在她发亮的脸上;我屏住呼吸听着,她的声音逼着我不断向前倾——随后光辉消失了,每一点光都恋恋不舍地离开她,像黄昏时孩子们离开一条愉快的街道。

男管家回来,在汤姆耳边低声说了什么。汤姆皱起眉,推开椅子,一句话没说便进屋。仿佛他的离开激活了黛西体内某样东西,她又向前倾,声音重新发亮、歌唱起来。

“尼克,我真喜欢看你坐在我的餐桌旁。你让我想起一朵——一朵玫瑰,一朵真正的玫瑰。是不是?”她转向贝克小姐寻求确认,“像朵真正的玫瑰?”

这完全不是真的。我一点也不像玫瑰。她只是在即兴发挥,可一股令人激动的暖意仍从她身上流出,仿佛她的心正试图藏在那些令人喘不过气、让人激动的话语里,向你走来。突然,她把餐巾扔在桌上,道了声失陪,走进屋里。

贝克小姐和我交换了一个短暂眼神,刻意装得毫无意义。我正要说话,她忽然警觉地坐直,低声说:“嘘!”隔壁房间里传来压低而激动的低语。贝克小姐毫不掩饰地向前倾,试图听清。那低语在几乎能辨清内容的边缘颤动,随后沉下去,又激动地升高,最后完全消失。

“你刚才提到的盖茨比先生就是我的邻居——”我开口。

“别说话。我想听听会发生什么。”

“发生什么事了吗?”我天真地问。

“你的意思是你不知道?”贝克小姐真正吃惊了,“我以为所有人都知道。”

“我不知道。”

“嗯——”她迟疑了一下,“汤姆在纽约有个女人。”

“有个女人?”我茫然地重复。

贝克小姐点点头。

“她至少该有点分寸,别在晚餐时间给他打电话。你不觉得吗?”

几乎还没等我理解她话里的意思,就传来裙摆掠动声和皮靴踩地的咯吱声,汤姆和黛西已经回到桌边。

“没办法嘛!”黛西带着紧绷的欢快喊道。

她坐下来,仔细看了贝克小姐一眼,又看我一眼,继续说道:“我刚才出去看了一会儿,外面真浪漫。草坪上有一只鸟,我觉得一定是夜莺,是坐冠达号或者白星航运的船过来的。它一直唱——”她的声音也唱起来,“很浪漫,对吧,汤姆?”

“非常浪漫。”他说,随后又闷闷不乐地对我说,“吃完饭如果还够亮,我想带你去看看马厩。”

屋里电话又突然响起,吓了大家一跳。黛西坚决地朝汤姆摇头,于是马厩这个话题——实际上所有话题——都消失在空气里。餐桌上最后五分钟的破碎片段中,我记得蜡烛又毫无意义地点了起来;我意识到自己既想直视每一个人,又想避开所有人的眼睛。我猜不出黛西和汤姆在想什么;即使贝克小姐看起来已经练就一种坚硬的怀疑态度,我也不相信她能完全把第五位客人那尖锐、金属般急迫的存在从脑中赶走。对某种性格的人来说,这情形也许很有趣;而我的本能反应,是立刻打电话叫警察。

马匹当然没有再被提起。汤姆和贝克小姐之间隔着几英尺暮色,一同走回书房,仿佛去守着一具完全真实可见的尸体;我则努力装出愉快而有兴趣、同时又有点听不清的样子,跟着黛西穿过一连串相通的游廊,到前廊坐下。深深的昏暗里,我们并肩坐在一张藤编长椅上。

黛西双手托住脸,仿佛在感受自己美丽脸庞的形状;她的目光慢慢移向天鹅绒般的暮色。我看出激烈情绪正在控制她,于是问起她的小女儿,希望问题能让她平静一点。

“我们其实不太了解彼此,尼克,”她突然说,“就算我们是亲戚。你都没来参加我的婚礼。”

“我那时还没从战争回来。”

“也是。”她迟疑了一下,“嗯,我这些年过得很糟,尼克,我现在看什么都很讽刺。”

显然,她确实有理由这样。我等着,可她没有继续;过了一会儿,我有些笨拙地又把话题拉回女儿。

“我想她会说话,也会——吃东西什么的吧。”

“哦,当然。”她心不在焉地看着我,“听着,尼克;我告诉你她出生时我说过什么。想听吗?”

“非常想。”

“这能让你知道我怎么看待——这些事情。她出生还不到一个小时,汤姆却不知道跑到哪里去了。我从麻醉里醒来,感到彻底被抛弃,马上问护士是男孩还是女孩。她告诉我是女孩,我便转过头哭了起来。‘好吧,’我说,‘我很高兴是个女孩。我希望她会是个傻瓜——这是这个世界上一个女孩能成为的最好东西,一个漂亮的小傻瓜。’”

“你看,不管怎样,我觉得一切都糟透了。”她用一种确信的语气继续,“每个人都这样想——最先进的人也是。我知道。我到过所有地方,看过所有东西,也做过所有事情。”她的眼睛像汤姆一样带着挑衅扫过周围,然后带着令人兴奋的轻蔑笑起来,“成熟老练——天哪,我可真成熟老练!”

她的声音一停,不再强迫我注意、相信,我立刻感觉到她刚才那些话根本上并不真诚。这让我不安,仿佛整个夜晚都是一场圈套,目的只是从我这里榨取一点共同情绪。我等待着,果然片刻以后,她美丽脸上露出完全的得意微笑,好像刚刚宣布自己加入了一个相当高贵的秘密会社,而她和汤姆都是会员。

屋里深红色房间开满灯光。汤姆和贝克小姐坐在长沙发两端,她正在给他朗读《星期六晚邮报》;那些词低低流动,没有抑扬顿挫,合在一起像一首安抚人的曲子。灯光照亮汤姆的靴子,却落在她秋叶黄色的头发上显得柔暗;她翻动书页时,手臂纤细肌肉一动,纸面便闪过光。

我们进来时,她举起一只手,让我们安静了一会儿。

“欲知后事如何,”她把杂志扔到桌上,“请看下一期。”

她膝盖不安地动了一下,整个身体跟着起身。

“十点了。”她说,仿佛时间写在天花板上,“好女孩该上床睡觉了。”

“乔丹明天要参加比赛,”黛西解释,“在韦斯特切斯特。”

“哦——原来你就是乔丹·贝克。”

我终于明白为什么觉得她面熟——那种迷人而轻蔑的表情,曾从许多关于体育生活的图片里看着我,那些照片拍于阿什维尔、温泉城和棕榈滩。我也听说过她的某个故事,一个批评性很强、令人不愉快的故事,可具体是什么,我早就忘了。

“晚安。”她轻声说,“八点叫醒我,好吗?”

“只要你肯起床。”

“我会的。晚安,卡拉韦先生。回头见。”

“当然会见。”黛西确认,“事实上,我觉得应该安排一桩婚事。尼克,你要常来,我会想办法——哦——把你们俩扔到一起。比如不小心把你们锁进亚麻布柜子里,再把你们放到船上推到海里去,诸如此类——”

“晚安。”贝克小姐从楼梯上喊,“我一个字都没听见。”

“她是个好女孩。”过了一会儿汤姆说,“她家里不该让她这样全国到处跑。”

“谁不该?”黛西冷冷问。

“她家人。”

“她家里只剩一个大概一千岁的姨妈。再说,尼克会照顾她,对吧,尼克?这个夏天她会经常来这里过周末。我觉得家庭影响对她会很有帮助。”

黛西和汤姆沉默着互相看了一会儿。

“她是纽约人吗?”我赶紧问。

“路易斯维尔人。我们洁白的少女时代一起在那里度过。我们美丽洁白的——”

“你刚才在游廊上跟尼克谈心了吗?”汤姆突然问。

“有吗?”她看着我,“记不清了,不过我想我们谈了北欧人种。对,我确定谈过。这个话题就那么慢慢爬过来,等你意识到时——”

“别什么都信,尼克。”他劝我。

我轻描淡写地说自己什么也没听见;几分钟以后,我起身告辞。他们陪我走到门口,并肩站在一块明亮而快乐的方形灯光里。我发动汽车时,黛西命令般地喊:“等等!”

“我忘了问你一件事,而且很重要。我们听说你和西部的一个姑娘订婚了。”

“没错,”汤姆善意地附和,“我们听说你订婚了。”

“这是诽谤。我太穷了。”

“可我们听说了。”黛西坚持,她像花朵重新开放一样让我吃惊,“有三个人都这么说,所以一定是真的。”

我当然知道他们说的是谁,不过我连差一点订婚都算不上。流言已经替我发布婚约,正是我来东部的原因之一。你不能因为传闻就不再和一个老朋友来往;另一方面,我也完全不打算被传闻硬推着结婚。

他们的关心多少让我感动,也使他们显得不那么遥远富有;不过开车离开时,我仍然困惑,又有点厌恶。在我看来,黛西应该抱着孩子冲出那座房子——可显然她脑中完全没有这种打算。至于汤姆,他“在纽约有个女人”其实还不如他被一本书弄得忧心忡忡来得令人意外。有什么东西让他开始啃食过时思想的边缘,仿佛他那强壮肉体中的自我中心,已经不再足够喂饱那颗强硬霸道的心。

路边旅店屋顶和公路旁车库前,已经是一派盛夏。新的红色汽油泵站在一池池灯光中。我回到西卵住所,把汽车停进棚里,又在院子一台废弃的草坪滚筒上坐了一会儿。风已经停了,留下一个喧闹而明亮的夜晚;树上有翅膀拍动,远处持续传来风琴般声音,仿佛大地鼓起全部风箱,让青蛙获得生命。一只移动的猫影在月光下摇晃,我转头看它时,才发现自己并不孤单——五十英尺外,一个人影从邻居豪宅阴影里走出来,双手插袋,站在那里望着群星散落如银色胡椒的天空。他悠闲的动作,以及双脚稳稳站在草坪上的姿态,都让我觉得那正是盖茨比先生本人,出来判断本地天空究竟有多少属于他。

我决定喊他一声。贝克小姐晚餐时提过他,这足够当作介绍。但我没有喊,因为他突然表现出一种满足于独处的姿态——他以一种奇怪方式朝黑暗水面伸出双臂;虽然离得很远,我几乎可以发誓他正在发抖。我不由自主地望向海面——什么也没有,只看见一盏孤独的绿灯,小而遥远,也许就在某座码头尽头。我再回头找盖茨比时,他已经消失,我又独自站在不安的黑暗里。

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在我更年轻、也更容易受伤的那些年里,父亲给过我一句忠告,从此我一直把它放在心里反复琢磨。

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“每当你想批评别人时,”他对我说,“只要记住,这个世界上的人,并不是人人都拥有过你拥有的那些条件。”

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他没有再多说什么,不过我们父子一向以一种克制的方式保持着异乎寻常的沟通,所以我明白,他这句话包含的意思远不止表面这些。因此,我习惯保留判断。这种习惯让我接触到许多奇特性格,也让我成了不少资深无聊人物的受害者。一个不正常的心灵,只要发现正常人身上有这种品质,就会迅速察觉并黏上来;于是大学时代,我曾被不公平地指责成“政客”,因为那些狂放而陌生的男人会把秘密的痛苦告诉我。多数倾诉并不是我主动求来的——有时,一看到某种明确迹象,意识到一场私密告白就要出现,我就会假装睡着、装得心不在焉,或者摆出一种带敌意的轻浮态度;因为年轻人的隐私告白,至少他们表达这些事情时用的说法,通常带着明显模仿痕迹,而且总有刻意隐瞒。保留判断,需要无限的希望。我仍然有点害怕,如果忘记父亲那种带点势利的提醒——而我现在也同样势利地重复一遍——我就会错过什么:人们与生俱来的基本体面,并不是平均分配的。

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说完自己多么宽容以后,我得承认,这种宽容也是有限度的。一个人的行为可以建立在坚硬岩石上,也可以建立在湿软沼泽里;可到了某个程度以后,我已经不在乎它的根基是什么。去年秋天我从东部回来时,只希望整个世界都穿上制服,永远立正站好,进入某种道德上的警戒状态;我再也不想经历那些放纵的远足,也不想拥有窥见人心秘密的特权。只有盖茨比——这个把名字给了这本书的人——不在我的反感之列。盖茨比代表的一切,本来正是我毫不掩饰地轻蔑的东西。如果一个人的性格,是由一连串连续不断、成功完成的姿态组成的,那么他身上确实有某种华美的东西,有一种对生命承诺异常敏锐的感受力,仿佛他同那些能记录一万英里外地震的精密仪器相连。这种敏感和那种被冠以“创造性气质”美名的软弱易感毫无关系——它是一种非凡的希望天赋,一种浪漫的准备状态;我从未在别人身上见过,以后大概也不会再见到。不——盖茨比本人最终并没有坏掉;真正让我暂时对人类那些失败的悲伤和短促的兴奋失去兴趣的,是吞噬盖茨比的东西,是他梦想尾迹中漂浮的肮脏尘埃。

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我的家族在中西部这座城市里显赫而富有,已经延续三代。卡拉韦一家多少算一个家族集团,我们还有一种说法,说自己是巴克卢公爵的后裔;不过我们这一支真正的奠基人,是我祖父的兄弟。他在一八五一年来到这里,南北战争时花钱雇人代替自己参战,后来创办了父亲至今仍在经营的五金批发公司。

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我从没见过这位伯祖父,不过据说我长得像他——尤其像父亲办公室里挂着的那幅神情强硬的肖像。一九一五年,我从纽黑文毕业,正好比父亲晚二十五年;不久以后,我参加了那场姗姗来迟的日耳曼民族大迁徙,也就是第一次世界大战。我非常喜欢那次反攻,以至于回来以后始终坐立不安。中西部不再是世界温暖的中心,反而像宇宙破破烂烂的边缘;于是我决定去东部学习债券业务。我认识的人都在做债券,所以我想,这一行大概还能再养活一个单身汉。叔叔婶婶们讨论这件事时,就像在替我挑一所预科学校;最后,他们神情严肃而迟疑地说:“嗯——好吧。”父亲同意资助我一年。经过种种拖延,一九二二年春天,我来到东部;当时我以为这是永久性的迁移。

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最实际的做法,本来是在城里找房间住;可当时天气暖和,我刚离开一片拥有宽阔草坪和友善树木的地方,所以办公室里有个年轻人提议,我们一起在通勤小镇租房时,我觉得主意很好。他找到了房子——一间风吹雨打、纸板盒一样的平房,每月八十美元——可最后一刻,公司派他去了华盛顿,于是我只好独自搬到郊外。我有一条狗——至少养了几天,直到它跑掉——还有一辆旧道奇汽车,以及一个芬兰女人。她替我铺床、做早餐,还会一边站在电炉前,一边低声对自己嘟囔芬兰式的人生智慧。

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我孤单了一两天。一天早晨,一个比我来得还晚的男人在路上叫住我。

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“去西卵村怎么走?”他无助地问。

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我告诉了他。继续往前走时,我已经不再孤单。我成了向导、开路人、最早的定居者。他随随便便就赋予了我这个社区居民的资格。

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于是,在阳光和树上突然爆发的大片新叶之中——万物像快进电影里那样迅速生长——我再次产生那种熟悉的感觉:随着夏天到来,人生也正在重新开始。

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首先,有那么多东西可以读;而年轻、让人恢复生气的空气里,也有那么多健康可以吸收。我买了十来本讲银行、信贷和投资证券的书,它们红红金金地站在书架上,像造币厂刚铸出的新钱,承诺向我揭开只有迈达斯、摩根和梅塞纳斯才知道的闪亮秘密。除此之外,我还雄心勃勃地准备读很多别的书。大学时代我多少有点文学爱好——有一年还给《耶鲁新闻》写过一系列一本正经、观点明显的社论——如今我准备把这些东西重新带回生活,重新成为那种最受限制的专家:“全面发展的人”。这并不只是一句机巧话——归根结底,从一扇固定窗口看人生,往往看得更成功。

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我偶然在北美最奇怪的社区之一租下房子。这地方位于一座狭长、躁动不安、从纽约向正东伸出的岛上;那里除了其他自然奇观之外,还有两块不同寻常的地形。距离城市二十英里,两只巨大鸡蛋形状的陆地,轮廓相同,只隔着一个礼貌性的海湾,一同伸进西半球最驯服的一片咸水——长岛海峡这座巨大的湿漉漉牲口场。它们并非完美椭圆;就像哥伦布故事里的鸡蛋,两只“蛋”在彼此接触的一端都被压扁。不过对飞过上空的海鸥来说,它们外形如此相像,想必永远令人惊奇;而对没有翅膀的人而言,更有意思的是:除了形状和大小之外,两地每一点都截然不同。

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我住在西卵,也就是——怎么说呢——两者中不那么时髦的那一个,虽然这个标签太表面,无法真正表达两地之间古怪而多少有些阴森的差异。我的房子在“蛋”的最尖端,距海峡只有五十码,被夹在两座巨宅之间,它们一个夏季的租金要一万二到一万五千美元。右边那一座,无论用什么标准看都庞大得惊人——它是诺曼底某座市政厅的真实仿制品,一侧有塔楼,新得发亮,只覆盖着一层稀薄的嫩常春藤;还有一座大理石游泳池,以及四十多英亩草坪和花园。那就是盖茨比的豪宅。或者更准确地说,因为当时我还不认识盖茨比先生,那是一座由某位姓盖茨比的绅士居住的豪宅。我自己的房子很碍眼,但只是一个小小的碍眼东西,又恰好被忽视了;于是我既能看见海面,也能看见邻居部分草坪,还能从百万富翁的近在咫尺中获得安慰——这一切,每月只要八十美元。

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礼貌海湾对面,时髦的东卵沿岸排列着闪闪发亮的白色宫殿。这个夏天的故事,真正开始于一个晚上:我开车过去,和汤姆·布坎南夫妇吃晚饭。黛西是我的远房表妹,汤姆则是大学旧识。战争刚结束时,我还曾在芝加哥同他们住过两天。

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她的丈夫除了其他体育成就以外,曾是纽黑文橄榄球队历史上最强悍的边锋之一;某种意义上,他还是全国知名人物——那种二十一岁时就达到尖锐而有限的巅峰,以后人生中一切都显得像余兴节目的人。他家极其富有;即使大学时代,他花钱的阔绰也常被人非议。如今,他离开芝加哥来到东部,排场大得让人吃惊:比如,他从莱克福里斯特运来整整一队马球马匹。很难想象,一个和我同代的人竟然富有到可以这样做。

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我不知道他们为什么来东部。他们曾毫无特别理由地在法国住了一年,之后又四处漂泊,只要那里有人打马球、富人聚在一起,他们就去哪里。黛西在电话里说,这次是永久搬迁,可我不相信——我看不透黛西的内心,却觉得汤姆会永远漂流下去,带着一点惆怅,不断寻找某场再也回不来的橄榄球比赛里那种戏剧性的骚动。

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于是,在一个温暖而多风的夜晚,我开车去东卵拜访这两个几乎已经陌生的老朋友。他们的房子比我想象中还要奢华,是一座欢乐的红白色乔治亚殖民风格宅邸,俯瞰海湾。草坪从海滩开始,一路延伸四分之一英里,越过日晷、砖砌小路和燃烧般鲜艳的花园,最终抵达房屋时,又像借着奔跑惯性一样,以明亮藤蔓爬上墙面。正面一排落地窗把立面分开,映着金色余晖,向温暖多风的下午大大敞开。汤姆·布坎南穿着骑马装,双腿分开,站在前廊上。

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同纽黑文时代相比,他已经变了。如今他三十岁,身材结实,头发草黄色,嘴角显得冷硬,举止傲慢。两只闪亮而自负的眼睛统治着整张脸,让他总像带着攻击性向前倾。即使骑马服带着一点女性化的炫耀,也掩不住那具身体巨大的力量——闪亮长靴仿佛被小腿撑到顶端鞋带都快绷断;薄外套下面,肩膀一动,就能看见大团肌肉滑动。那是一具有巨大杠杆力量的身体——一具残酷的身体。

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他说话的声音粗哑低沉,更强化了他给人的暴躁印象。即使对喜欢的人,他语气里也带着一点父亲般的轻蔑;在纽黑文,有些人恨他入骨。

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他的神态仿佛在说:“别因为我比你强壮、比你更像个男人,就觉得我对这些事的意见是最终结论。”我们大学时同属一个高年级社团;虽然从不亲密,我始终感觉他认可我,也带着一种自己特有的强硬、挑衅而又带点渴望的态度,希望我喜欢他。

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我们在阳光照着的前廊聊了几分钟。

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“我这地方不错吧,”他说,眼睛焦躁地四处扫动。

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他抓住我一只胳膊把我转过身,宽大平坦的手掌沿着眼前景色一扫,把下沉式意大利花园、半英亩香气浓烈的玫瑰,还有一艘在近岸潮水上颠簸的短鼻摩托艇全都包括进去。

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“以前属于那个石油商德曼。”他又一次礼貌而突然地把我转回去,“进去吧。”

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我们穿过高高的门厅,进入一个明亮、带玫瑰色调的房间。房间两端都是落地窗,像脆弱地连接在房屋主体上。窗户微微敞开,在外面新鲜草地背景上亮得发白,那片草仿佛一直长进了屋里。微风穿过房间,从一端把窗帘吹进来,又从另一端吹出去,像苍白旗帜一样飘动,把它们卷向天花板那片磨砂婚礼蛋糕般的装饰;随后风又掠过酒红色地毯,像海风在海面上一样留下阴影。

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房间里唯一完全静止的东西,是一张巨大沙发;两个年轻女人像漂浮在系锚气球上一样躺在上面。她们都穿白衣,裙子起伏飘动,仿佛刚刚绕房子飞了一圈,又被风吹回来。我大概站了几秒,只听见窗帘抽打的声音和墙上一幅画发出的呻吟。接着“砰”的一声,汤姆·布坎南关上后窗,困在屋里的风死去,窗帘、地毯和两个年轻女人也像气球一样慢慢落回地面。

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两个女人中较年轻的那个,我不认识。她在长沙发另一端伸直身体,一动不动,下巴微微抬起,仿佛正平衡着某样很可能掉下来的东西。如果她用眼角看见了我,也没有任何表示——事实上,我差点低声向她道歉,好像自己的到来打扰了她。

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另一个女孩,黛西,试着站起来——她神情认真地微微前倾——随后笑了,那是一阵荒唐而迷人的小笑声。我也跟着笑,走进房间。

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“我高兴得都——动不了了。”

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她又笑起来,像自己刚说了非常机智的话,然后握住我的手片刻,仰头看着我的脸,仿佛承诺世界上没有任何人比我更让她想见。这就是她的方式。她低声暗示,那个保持平衡姿势的姑娘姓贝克。有人说,黛西轻声说话只是为了让别人不得不向她靠近;这种批评完全无关紧要,也丝毫不减她的魅力。

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不管怎样,贝克小姐的嘴唇微微动了一下,她几乎看不出来地点点头,随后又迅速把头向后仰去——显然,她正在平衡的东西刚刚晃动了一下,把她吓了一跳。我的嘴边再次冒出一种想道歉的冲动。几乎任何完全自足的表现,都会让我产生一种震惊般的敬意。

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我转头看表妹,她开始用低沉而令人激动的声音问我问题。那是一种耳朵会不由自主追随着上下起伏的声音,仿佛每一句话都是一组再也不会演奏第二次的音符。她的脸忧伤而美丽,里面有许多明亮的东西:明亮的眼睛,明亮而充满激情的嘴唇;可她声音中有一种兴奋,让那些爱过她的男人很难忘记——一种歌唱般的吸引力,一声低语的“听我说”,仿佛承诺她刚刚经历过快乐刺激的事情,而下一个小时里,也还有更多快乐刺激正在等待。

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我告诉她,自己来东部途中曾在芝加哥停留一天,有十来个人托我向她问好。

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“他们想我吗?”她欣喜若狂地喊。

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“整座城市都荒凉了。所有汽车左后轮都涂成黑色,像哀悼花圈;北岸整夜都响着不停的哭号。”

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“太棒了!我们回去吧,汤姆。明天就走!”随后她毫无关联地补了一句,“你应该看看孩子。”

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“我很想看。”

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“她睡着了。已经三岁。你还没见过她吗?”

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“从来没有。”

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“那你真该看看她。她——”

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一直焦躁地在房间里走动的汤姆·布坎南停下来,把手放到我肩上。

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“你现在做什么,尼克?”

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“做债券。”

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“在哪家公司?”

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我告诉了他。

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“没听说过。”他斩钉截铁地说。

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这让我很恼火。

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“你会听说的,”我简短回答,“只要你继续住在东部。”

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“哦,我会留在东部,别担心。”他说着看了黛西一眼,又回头看我,仿佛正在警惕更多什么事情,“住别的地方才是他妈的傻瓜。”

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就在这时,贝克小姐突然说了一声:“完全正确!”声音太突然,把我吓了一跳——这是我进屋以后她说的第一个词。显然,她自己也同样意外,因为她打了个哈欠,又用一连串迅速、灵巧的动作从沙发上站起来。

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“我都僵了,”她抱怨,“感觉自己在那张沙发上躺了一辈子。”

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“别看我,”黛西反驳,“我整个下午都在想办法让你去纽约。”

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“不了,谢谢。”贝克小姐对刚从餐具室端来的四杯鸡尾酒说,“我正在严格训练。”

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男主人难以置信地看着她。

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“你还训练!”他像喝杯底最后一滴一样一口喝掉酒,“你到底怎么做成任何事的,我真想不明白。”

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我看着贝克小姐,心里想她究竟“做成”了什么。我喜欢看她。她身材纤细,胸部平坦,站姿笔直;她会把肩膀向后收,像个年轻军校生一样,更强调这种挺拔。被阳光晒得发灰的眼睛,也带着礼貌而对等的好奇看着我;那张苍白、迷人而不满的脸,让我忽然想起自己以前在什么地方见过她,或者至少见过她的照片。

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“你住在西卵。”她轻蔑地说,“我在那里认识一个人。”

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“我一个人也不认——”

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“你一定认识盖茨比。”

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“盖茨比?”黛西追问,“哪个盖茨比?”

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我还没来得及回答说他是我的邻居,晚餐已经宣布开始。汤姆·布坎南把紧绷的手臂强硬地插进我臂弯,像移动棋子一样把我从房间里带走。

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两个年轻女人纤细而懒洋洋地走在前面,双手轻轻搭在腰间。我们来到一个朝向落日、带玫瑰色调的露台,微风已经减弱,桌上四支蜡烛摇曳着。

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“为什么要点蜡烛?”黛西皱眉反对。她用手指把它们一一掐灭。“再过两个星期就是一年中白昼最长的一天。”她灿烂地望着我们所有人,“你们是不是也总惦记着一年中最长的那一天,结果最后又错过?我每年都惦记,然后每年都错过。”

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“我们应该计划点什么。”贝克小姐打着哈欠,在桌边坐下,姿势像钻进床里一样。

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“好啊,”黛西说,“计划什么?”她无助地转向我,“人们一般都计划什么?”

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我还没回答,她忽然带着敬畏神情盯住自己的小手指。

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“看!”她抱怨,“我把它弄伤了。”

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我们都看过去——指关节青紫了一片。

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“是你弄的,汤姆,”她指责说,“我知道你不是故意,可确实是你。这就是嫁给野蛮男人的下场,嫁给一个又大又壮、块头惊人的——”

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“我讨厌‘块头惊人’这个词,”汤姆不高兴地打断,“开玩笑也不行。”

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“块头惊人。”黛西坚持。

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有时,她和贝克小姐会同时说话,语气不显眼,带着一种打趣式的无意义,却又不能简单叫作闲聊;那种感觉和她们的白裙、无欲无求的眼神一样清凉。她们就在这里,接受汤姆和我,只做出礼貌而愉快的努力去招待别人,或者接受别人的招待。她们知道晚餐马上会结束,再过一会儿,夜晚也会结束,然后被随手收起来。这和西部截然不同;在那里,一个夜晚总被匆匆从一个阶段推向下一个阶段,奔向结束,不是在不断落空的期待里,就是在对当下时刻本身的神经质恐惧里。

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喝到第二杯带点木塞味、却颇有气势的红葡萄酒时,我坦白说:“黛西,你让我觉得自己很不文明。你们不能谈点庄稼之类的吗?”

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我本来没什么特别意思,没想到这句话却以意外方式被接了过去。

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“文明正在崩溃。”汤姆突然激烈地说,“我对这些事情已经悲观得不得了。你看过那个戈达德写的《有色帝国的崛起》吗?”

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“没有。”我有些吃惊地回答。

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“那是本好书,每个人都该读。它的意思是,如果我们不小心,白人种族就会——就会彻底被淹没。全是科学,有证明的。”

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“汤姆变得很深刻了。”黛西带着一种不加思索的忧伤说,“他读那些字很长的深奥书。我们刚才说的那个词是什么来着——”

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“这些书全是科学的。”汤姆坚持,烦躁地看她一眼,“这个人已经把整件事都研究透了。我们这些占统治地位的种族必须提高警惕,否则其他种族会控制一切。”

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“我们得把他们压下去。”黛西低声说,同时朝灼热的太阳凶狠地眨眼。

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“你应该住到加利福尼亚——”贝克小姐刚开口,汤姆笨重地挪动椅子,打断了她。

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“他的理论是,我们是北欧人种。我是,你也是,你也是,还有——”他极短地迟疑了一下,然后轻轻点头把黛西也包括进去,她又朝我眨眼,“——而创造文明的一切东西,都是我们造出来的——科学、艺术等等。明白吗?”

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他这种全神贯注的样子多少有点可怜,仿佛过去那种自满如今已经不够用了。几乎就在这时,屋里的电话响起,男管家离开露台。黛西立刻抓住这个短暂空档,向我靠过来。

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“告诉你一个家庭秘密。”她兴奋地低声说,“是关于男管家鼻子的。你想听男管家鼻子的故事吗?”

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“我今晚就是为这个来的。”

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“他以前不总是男管家;过去给纽约一户人家擦银器,那家人的银餐具够两百人用。他从早擦到晚,最后终于影响了鼻子——”

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“情况越来越糟。”贝克小姐补充。

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“对。越来越糟,最后他只好辞掉工作。”

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最后一束阳光带着浪漫爱意落在她发亮的脸上;我屏住呼吸听着,她的声音逼着我不断向前倾——随后光辉消失了,每一点光都恋恋不舍地离开她,像黄昏时孩子们离开一条愉快的街道。

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男管家回来,在汤姆耳边低声说了什么。汤姆皱起眉,推开椅子,一句话没说便进屋。仿佛他的离开激活了黛西体内某样东西,她又向前倾,声音重新发亮、歌唱起来。

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“尼克,我真喜欢看你坐在我的餐桌旁。你让我想起一朵——一朵玫瑰,一朵真正的玫瑰。是不是?”她转向贝克小姐寻求确认,“像朵真正的玫瑰?”

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这完全不是真的。我一点也不像玫瑰。她只是在即兴发挥,可一股令人激动的暖意仍从她身上流出,仿佛她的心正试图藏在那些令人喘不过气、让人激动的话语里,向你走来。突然,她把餐巾扔在桌上,道了声失陪,走进屋里。

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贝克小姐和我交换了一个短暂眼神,刻意装得毫无意义。我正要说话,她忽然警觉地坐直,低声说:“嘘!”隔壁房间里传来压低而激动的低语。贝克小姐毫不掩饰地向前倾,试图听清。那低语在几乎能辨清内容的边缘颤动,随后沉下去,又激动地升高,最后完全消失。

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“你刚才提到的盖茨比先生就是我的邻居——”我开口。

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“别说话。我想听听会发生什么。”

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“发生什么事了吗?”我天真地问。

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“你的意思是你不知道?”贝克小姐真正吃惊了,“我以为所有人都知道。”

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“我不知道。”

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“嗯——”她迟疑了一下,“汤姆在纽约有个女人。”

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“有个女人?”我茫然地重复。

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贝克小姐点点头。

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“她至少该有点分寸,别在晚餐时间给他打电话。你不觉得吗?”

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几乎还没等我理解她话里的意思,就传来裙摆掠动声和皮靴踩地的咯吱声,汤姆和黛西已经回到桌边。

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“没办法嘛!”黛西带着紧绷的欢快喊道。

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她坐下来,仔细看了贝克小姐一眼,又看我一眼,继续说道:“我刚才出去看了一会儿,外面真浪漫。草坪上有一只鸟,我觉得一定是夜莺,是坐冠达号或者白星航运的船过来的。它一直唱——”她的声音也唱起来,“很浪漫,对吧,汤姆?”

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“非常浪漫。”他说,随后又闷闷不乐地对我说,“吃完饭如果还够亮,我想带你去看看马厩。”

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屋里电话又突然响起,吓了大家一跳。黛西坚决地朝汤姆摇头,于是马厩这个话题——实际上所有话题——都消失在空气里。餐桌上最后五分钟的破碎片段中,我记得蜡烛又毫无意义地点了起来;我意识到自己既想直视每一个人,又想避开所有人的眼睛。我猜不出黛西和汤姆在想什么;即使贝克小姐看起来已经练就一种坚硬的怀疑态度,我也不相信她能完全把第五位客人那尖锐、金属般急迫的存在从脑中赶走。对某种性格的人来说,这情形也许很有趣;而我的本能反应,是立刻打电话叫警察。

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马匹当然没有再被提起。汤姆和贝克小姐之间隔着几英尺暮色,一同走回书房,仿佛去守着一具完全真实可见的尸体;我则努力装出愉快而有兴趣、同时又有点听不清的样子,跟着黛西穿过一连串相通的游廊,到前廊坐下。深深的昏暗里,我们并肩坐在一张藤编长椅上。

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黛西双手托住脸,仿佛在感受自己美丽脸庞的形状;她的目光慢慢移向天鹅绒般的暮色。我看出激烈情绪正在控制她,于是问起她的小女儿,希望问题能让她平静一点。

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“我们其实不太了解彼此,尼克,”她突然说,“就算我们是亲戚。你都没来参加我的婚礼。”

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“我那时还没从战争回来。”

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“也是。”她迟疑了一下,“嗯,我这些年过得很糟,尼克,我现在看什么都很讽刺。”

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显然,她确实有理由这样。我等着,可她没有继续;过了一会儿,我有些笨拙地又把话题拉回女儿。

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“我想她会说话,也会——吃东西什么的吧。”

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“哦,当然。”她心不在焉地看着我,“听着,尼克;我告诉你她出生时我说过什么。想听吗?”

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“非常想。”

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“这能让你知道我怎么看待——这些事情。她出生还不到一个小时,汤姆却不知道跑到哪里去了。我从麻醉里醒来,感到彻底被抛弃,马上问护士是男孩还是女孩。她告诉我是女孩,我便转过头哭了起来。‘好吧,’我说,‘我很高兴是个女孩。我希望她会是个傻瓜——这是这个世界上一个女孩能成为的最好东西,一个漂亮的小傻瓜。’”

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“你看,不管怎样,我觉得一切都糟透了。”她用一种确信的语气继续,“每个人都这样想——最先进的人也是。我知道。我到过所有地方,看过所有东西,也做过所有事情。”她的眼睛像汤姆一样带着挑衅扫过周围,然后带着令人兴奋的轻蔑笑起来,“成熟老练——天哪,我可真成熟老练!”

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她的声音一停,不再强迫我注意、相信,我立刻感觉到她刚才那些话根本上并不真诚。这让我不安,仿佛整个夜晚都是一场圈套,目的只是从我这里榨取一点共同情绪。我等待着,果然片刻以后,她美丽脸上露出完全的得意微笑,好像刚刚宣布自己加入了一个相当高贵的秘密会社,而她和汤姆都是会员。

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屋里深红色房间开满灯光。汤姆和贝克小姐坐在长沙发两端,她正在给他朗读《星期六晚邮报》;那些词低低流动,没有抑扬顿挫,合在一起像一首安抚人的曲子。灯光照亮汤姆的靴子,却落在她秋叶黄色的头发上显得柔暗;她翻动书页时,手臂纤细肌肉一动,纸面便闪过光。

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我们进来时,她举起一只手,让我们安静了一会儿。

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“欲知后事如何,”她把杂志扔到桌上,“请看下一期。”

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她膝盖不安地动了一下,整个身体跟着起身。

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“十点了。”她说,仿佛时间写在天花板上,“好女孩该上床睡觉了。”

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“乔丹明天要参加比赛,”黛西解释,“在韦斯特切斯特。”

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“哦——原来你就是乔丹·贝克。”

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我终于明白为什么觉得她面熟——那种迷人而轻蔑的表情,曾从许多关于体育生活的图片里看着我,那些照片拍于阿什维尔、温泉城和棕榈滩。我也听说过她的某个故事,一个批评性很强、令人不愉快的故事,可具体是什么,我早就忘了。

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“晚安。”她轻声说,“八点叫醒我,好吗?”

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“只要你肯起床。”

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“我会的。晚安,卡拉韦先生。回头见。”

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“当然会见。”黛西确认,“事实上,我觉得应该安排一桩婚事。尼克,你要常来,我会想办法——哦——把你们俩扔到一起。比如不小心把你们锁进亚麻布柜子里,再把你们放到船上推到海里去,诸如此类——”

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“晚安。”贝克小姐从楼梯上喊,“我一个字都没听见。”

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“她是个好女孩。”过了一会儿汤姆说,“她家里不该让她这样全国到处跑。”

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“谁不该?”黛西冷冷问。

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“她家人。”

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“她家里只剩一个大概一千岁的姨妈。再说,尼克会照顾她,对吧,尼克?这个夏天她会经常来这里过周末。我觉得家庭影响对她会很有帮助。”

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黛西和汤姆沉默着互相看了一会儿。

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“她是纽约人吗?”我赶紧问。

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“路易斯维尔人。我们洁白的少女时代一起在那里度过。我们美丽洁白的——”

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“你刚才在游廊上跟尼克谈心了吗?”汤姆突然问。

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“有吗?”她看着我,“记不清了,不过我想我们谈了北欧人种。对,我确定谈过。这个话题就那么慢慢爬过来,等你意识到时——”

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“别什么都信,尼克。”他劝我。

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我轻描淡写地说自己什么也没听见;几分钟以后,我起身告辞。他们陪我走到门口,并肩站在一块明亮而快乐的方形灯光里。我发动汽车时,黛西命令般地喊:“等等!”

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“我忘了问你一件事,而且很重要。我们听说你和西部的一个姑娘订婚了。”

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“没错,”汤姆善意地附和,“我们听说你订婚了。”

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“这是诽谤。我太穷了。”

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“可我们听说了。”黛西坚持,她像花朵重新开放一样让我吃惊,“有三个人都这么说,所以一定是真的。”

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我当然知道他们说的是谁,不过我连差一点订婚都算不上。流言已经替我发布婚约,正是我来东部的原因之一。你不能因为传闻就不再和一个老朋友来往;另一方面,我也完全不打算被传闻硬推着结婚。

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他们的关心多少让我感动,也使他们显得不那么遥远富有;不过开车离开时,我仍然困惑,又有点厌恶。在我看来,黛西应该抱着孩子冲出那座房子——可显然她脑中完全没有这种打算。至于汤姆,他“在纽约有个女人”其实还不如他被一本书弄得忧心忡忡来得令人意外。有什么东西让他开始啃食过时思想的边缘,仿佛他那强壮肉体中的自我中心,已经不再足够喂饱那颗强硬霸道的心。

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路边旅店屋顶和公路旁车库前,已经是一派盛夏。新的红色汽油泵站在一池池灯光中。我回到西卵住所,把汽车停进棚里,又在院子一台废弃的草坪滚筒上坐了一会儿。风已经停了,留下一个喧闹而明亮的夜晚;树上有翅膀拍动,远处持续传来风琴般声音,仿佛大地鼓起全部风箱,让青蛙获得生命。一只移动的猫影在月光下摇晃,我转头看它时,才发现自己并不孤单——五十英尺外,一个人影从邻居豪宅阴影里走出来,双手插袋,站在那里望着群星散落如银色胡椒的天空。他悠闲的动作,以及双脚稳稳站在草坪上的姿态,都让我觉得那正是盖茨比先生本人,出来判断本地天空究竟有多少属于他。

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我决定喊他一声。贝克小姐晚餐时提过他,这足够当作介绍。但我没有喊,因为他突然表现出一种满足于独处的姿态——他以一种奇怪方式朝黑暗水面伸出双臂;虽然离得很远,我几乎可以发誓他正在发抖。我不由自主地望向海面——什么也没有,只看见一盏孤独的绿灯,小而遥远,也许就在某座码头尽头。我再回头找盖茨比时,他已经消失,我又独自站在不安的黑暗里。

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