Chapter VI
The Great Gatsby. English-only reading by default; you can also choose two-column reading in English and Chinese.
Chapter summary
This is Chapter VI of The Great Gatsby from Project Gutenberg eBook #64317.
Modern reader note
English
About this time an ambitious young reporter from New York arrived one morning at Gatsby’s door and asked him if he had anything to say.
“Anything to say about what?” inquired Gatsby politely.
“Why—any statement to give out.”
It transpired after a confused five minutes that the man had heard Gatsby’s name around his office in a connection which he either wouldn’t reveal or didn’t fully understand. This was his day off and with laudable initiative he had hurried out “to see.”
It was a random shot, and yet the reporter’s instinct was right. Gatsby’s notoriety, spread about by the hundreds who had accepted his hospitality and so become authorities upon his past, had increased all summer until he fell just short of being news. Contemporary legends such as the “underground pipeline to Canada” attached themselves to him, and there was one persistent story that he didn’t live in a house at all, but in a boat that looked like a house and was moved secretly up and down the Long Island shore. Just why these inventions were a source of satisfaction to James Gatz of North Dakota, isn’t easy to say.
James Gatz—that was really, or at least legally, his name. He had changed it at the age of seventeen and at the specific moment that witnessed the beginning of his career—when he saw Dan Cody’s yacht drop anchor over the most insidious flat on Lake Superior. It was James Gatz who had been loafing along the beach that afternoon in a torn green jersey and a pair of canvas pants, but it was already Jay Gatsby who borrowed a rowboat, pulled out to the Tuolomee, and informed Cody that a wind might catch him and break him up in half an hour.
I suppose he’d had the name ready for a long time, even then. His parents were shiftless and unsuccessful farm people—his imagination had never really accepted them as his parents at all. The truth was that Jay Gatsby of West Egg, Long Island, sprang from his Platonic conception of himself. He was a son of God—a phrase which, if it means anything, means just that—and he must be about His Father’s business, the service of a vast, vulgar, and meretricious beauty. So he invented just the sort of Jay Gatsby that a seventeen-year-old boy would be likely to invent, and to this conception he was faithful to the end.
For over a year he had been beating his way along the south shore of Lake Superior as a clam-digger and a salmon-fisher or in any other capacity that brought him food and bed. His brown, hardening body lived naturally through the half-fierce, half-lazy work of the bracing days. He knew women early, and since they spoiled him he became contemptuous of them, of young virgins because they were ignorant, of the others because they were hysterical about things which in his overwhelming self-absorption he took for granted.
But his heart was in a constant, turbulent riot. The most grotesque and fantastic conceits haunted him in his bed at night. A universe of ineffable gaudiness spun itself out in his brain while the clock ticked on the washstand and the moon soaked with wet light his tangled clothes upon the floor. Each night he added to the pattern of his fancies until drowsiness closed down upon some vivid scene with an oblivious embrace. For a while these reveries provided an outlet for his imagination; they were a satisfactory hint of the unreality of reality, a promise that the rock of the world was founded securely on a fairy’s wing.
An instinct toward his future glory had led him, some months before, to the small Lutheran College of St. Olaf’s in southern Minnesota. He stayed there two weeks, dismayed at its ferocious indifference to the drums of his destiny, to destiny itself, and despising the janitor’s work with which he was to pay his way through. Then he drifted back to Lake Superior, and he was still searching for something to do on the day that Dan Cody’s yacht dropped anchor in the shallows alongshore.
Cody was fifty years old then, a product of the Nevada silver fields, of the Yukon, of every rush for metal since seventy-five. The transactions in Montana copper that made him many times a millionaire found him physically robust but on the verge of soft-mindedness, and, suspecting this, an infinite number of women tried to separate him from his money. The none too savoury ramifications by which Ella Kaye, the newspaper woman, played Madame de Maintenon to his weakness and sent him to sea in a yacht, were common property of the turgid journalism in 1902. He had been coasting along all too hospitable shores for five years when he turned up as James Gatz’s destiny in Little Girl Bay.
To young Gatz, resting on his oars and looking up at the railed deck, that yacht represented all the beauty and glamour in the world. I suppose he smiled at Cody—he had probably discovered that people liked him when he smiled. At any rate Cody asked him a few questions (one of them elicited the brand new name) and found that he was quick and extravagantly ambitious. A few days later he took him to Duluth and bought him a blue coat, six pairs of white duck trousers, and a yachting cap. And when the Tuolomee left for the West Indies and the Barbary Coast, Gatsby left too.
He was employed in a vague personal capacity—while he remained with Cody he was in turn steward, mate, skipper, secretary, and even jailor, for Dan Cody sober knew what lavish doings Dan Cody drunk might soon be about, and he provided for such contingencies by reposing more and more trust in Gatsby. The arrangement lasted five years, during which the boat went three times around the Continent. It might have lasted indefinitely except for the fact that Ella Kaye came on board one night in Boston and a week later Dan Cody inhospitably died.
I remember the portrait of him up in Gatsby’s bedroom, a grey, florid man with a hard, empty face—the pioneer debauchee, who during one phase of American life brought back to the Eastern seaboard the savage violence of the frontier brothel and saloon. It was indirectly due to Cody that Gatsby drank so little. Sometimes in the course of gay parties women used to rub champagne into his hair; for himself he formed the habit of letting liquor alone.
And it was from Cody that he inherited money—a legacy of twenty-five thousand dollars. He didn’t get it. He never understood the legal device that was used against him, but what remained of the millions went intact to Ella Kaye. He was left with his singularly appropriate education; the vague contour of Jay Gatsby had filled out to the substantiality of a man.
He told me all this very much later, but I’ve put it down here with the idea of exploding those first wild rumours about his antecedents, which weren’t even faintly true. Moreover he told it to me at a time of confusion, when I had reached the point of believing everything and nothing about him. So I take advantage of this short halt, while Gatsby, so to speak, caught his breath, to clear this set of misconceptions away.
It was a halt, too, in my association with his affairs. For several weeks I didn’t see him or hear his voice on the phone—mostly I was in New York, trotting around with Jordan and trying to ingratiate myself with her senile aunt—but finally I went over to his house one Sunday afternoon. I hadn’t been there two minutes when somebody brought Tom Buchanan in for a drink. I was startled, naturally, but the really surprising thing was that it hadn’t happened before.
They were a party of three on horseback—Tom and a man named Sloane and a pretty woman in a brown riding-habit, who had been there previously.
“I’m delighted to see you,” said Gatsby, standing on his porch. “I’m delighted that you dropped in.”
As though they cared!
“Sit right down. Have a cigarette or a cigar.” He walked around the room quickly, ringing bells. “I’ll have something to drink for you in just a minute.”
He was profoundly affected by the fact that Tom was there. But he would be uneasy anyhow until he had given them something, realizing in a vague way that that was all they came for. Mr. Sloane wanted nothing. A lemonade? No, thanks. A little champagne? Nothing at all, thanks … I’m sorry—
“Did you have a nice ride?”
“Very good roads around here.”
“I suppose the automobiles—”
“Yeah.”
Moved by an irresistible impulse, Gatsby turned to Tom, who had accepted the introduction as a stranger.
“I believe we’ve met somewhere before, Mr. Buchanan.”
“Oh, yes,” said Tom, gruffly polite, but obviously not remembering. “So we did. I remember very well.”
“About two weeks ago.”
“That’s right. You were with Nick here.”
“I know your wife,” continued Gatsby, almost aggressively.
“That so?”
Tom turned to me.
“You live near here, Nick?”
“Next door.”
“That so?”
Mr. Sloane didn’t enter into the conversation, but lounged back haughtily in his chair; the woman said nothing either—until unexpectedly, after two highballs, she became cordial.
“We’ll all come over to your next party, Mr. Gatsby,” she suggested. “What do you say?”
“Certainly; I’d be delighted to have you.”
“Be ver’ nice,” said Mr. Sloane, without gratitude. “Well—think ought to be starting home.”
“Please don’t hurry,” Gatsby urged them. He had control of himself now, and he wanted to see more of Tom. “Why don’t you—why don’t you stay for supper? I wouldn’t be surprised if some other people dropped in from New York.”
“You come to supper with me,” said the lady enthusiastically. “Both of you.”
This included me. Mr. Sloane got to his feet.
“Come along,” he said—but to her only.
“I mean it,” she insisted. “I’d love to have you. Lots of room.”
Gatsby looked at me questioningly. He wanted to go and he didn’t see that Mr. Sloane had determined he shouldn’t.
“I’m afraid I won’t be able to,” I said.
“Well, you come,” she urged, concentrating on Gatsby.
Mr. Sloane murmured something close to her ear.
“We won’t be late if we start now,” she insisted aloud.
“I haven’t got a horse,” said Gatsby. “I used to ride in the army, but I’ve never bought a horse. I’ll have to follow you in my car. Excuse me for just a minute.”
The rest of us walked out on the porch, where Sloane and the lady began an impassioned conversation aside.
“My God, I believe the man’s coming,” said Tom. “Doesn’t he know she doesn’t want him?”
“She says she does want him.”
“She has a big dinner party and he won’t know a soul there.” He frowned. “I wonder where in the devil he met Daisy. By God, I may be old-fashioned in my ideas, but women run around too much these days to suit me. They meet all kinds of crazy fish.”
Suddenly Mr. Sloane and the lady walked down the steps and mounted their horses.
“Come on,” said Mr. Sloane to Tom, “we’re late. We’ve got to go.” And then to me: “Tell him we couldn’t wait, will you?”
Tom and I shook hands, the rest of us exchanged a cool nod, and they trotted quickly down the drive, disappearing under the August foliage just as Gatsby, with hat and light overcoat in hand, came out the front door.
Tom was evidently perturbed at Daisy’s running around alone, for on the following Saturday night he came with her to Gatsby’s party. Perhaps his presence gave the evening its peculiar quality of oppressiveness—it stands out in my memory from Gatsby’s other parties that summer. There were the same people, or at least the same sort of people, the same profusion of champagne, the same many-coloured, many-keyed commotion, but I felt an unpleasantness in the air, a pervading harshness that hadn’t been there before. Or perhaps I had merely grown used to it, grown to accept West Egg as a world complete in itself, with its own standards and its own great figures, second to nothing because it had no consciousness of being so, and now I was looking at it again, through Daisy’s eyes. It is invariably saddening to look through new eyes at things upon which you have expended your own powers of adjustment.
They arrived at twilight, and, as we strolled out among the sparkling hundreds, Daisy’s voice was playing murmurous tricks in her throat.
“These things excite me so,” she whispered. “If you want to kiss me any time during the evening, Nick, just let me know and I’ll be glad to arrange it for you. Just mention my name. Or present a green card. I’m giving out green—”
“Look around,” suggested Gatsby.
“I’m looking around. I’m having a marvellous—”
“You must see the faces of many people you’ve heard about.”
Tom’s arrogant eyes roamed the crowd.
“We don’t go around very much,” he said; “in fact, I was just thinking I don’t know a soul here.”
“Perhaps you know that lady.” Gatsby indicated a gorgeous, scarcely human orchid of a woman who sat in state under a white-plum tree. Tom and Daisy stared, with that peculiarly unreal feeling that accompanies the recognition of a hitherto ghostly celebrity of the movies.
“She’s lovely,” said Daisy.
“The man bending over her is her director.”
He took them ceremoniously from group to group:
“Mrs. Buchanan … and Mr. Buchanan—” After an instant’s hesitation he added: “the polo player.”
“Oh no,” objected Tom quickly, “not me.”
But evidently the sound of it pleased Gatsby for Tom remained “the polo player” for the rest of the evening.
“I’ve never met so many celebrities,” Daisy exclaimed. “I liked that man—what was his name?—with the sort of blue nose.”
Gatsby identified him, adding that he was a small producer.
“Well, I liked him anyhow.”
“I’d a little rather not be the polo player,” said Tom pleasantly, “I’d rather look at all these famous people in—in oblivion.”
Daisy and Gatsby danced. I remember being surprised by his graceful, conservative foxtrot—I had never seen him dance before. Then they sauntered over to my house and sat on the steps for half an hour, while at her request I remained watchfully in the garden. “In case there’s a fire or a flood,” she explained, “or any act of God.”
Tom appeared from his oblivion as we were sitting down to supper together. “Do you mind if I eat with some people over here?” he said. “A fellow’s getting off some funny stuff.”
“Go ahead,” answered Daisy genially, “and if you want to take down any addresses here’s my little gold pencil.” … She looked around after a moment and told me the girl was “common but pretty,” and I knew that except for the half-hour she’d been alone with Gatsby she wasn’t having a good time.
We were at a particularly tipsy table. That was my fault—Gatsby had been called to the phone, and I’d enjoyed these same people only two weeks before. But what had amused me then turned septic on the air now.
“How do you feel, Miss Baedeker?”
The girl addressed was trying, unsuccessfully, to slump against my shoulder. At this inquiry she sat up and opened her eyes.
“Wha’?”
A massive and lethargic woman, who had been urging Daisy to play golf with her at the local club tomorrow, spoke in Miss Baedeker’s defence:
“Oh, she’s all right now. When she’s had five or six cocktails she always starts screaming like that. I tell her she ought to leave it alone.”
“I do leave it alone,” affirmed the accused hollowly.
“We heard you yelling, so I said to Doc Civet here: ‘There’s somebody that needs your help, Doc.’ ”
“She’s much obliged, I’m sure,” said another friend, without gratitude, “but you got her dress all wet when you stuck her head in the pool.”
“Anything I hate is to get my head stuck in a pool,” mumbled Miss Baedeker. “They almost drowned me once over in New Jersey.”
“Then you ought to leave it alone,” countered Doctor Civet.
“Speak for yourself!” cried Miss Baedeker violently. “Your hand shakes. I wouldn’t let you operate on me!”
It was like that. Almost the last thing I remember was standing with Daisy and watching the moving-picture director and his Star. They were still under the white-plum tree and their faces were touching except for a pale, thin ray of moonlight between. It occurred to me that he had been very slowly bending toward her all evening to attain this proximity, and even while I watched I saw him stoop one ultimate degree and kiss at her cheek.
“I like her,” said Daisy, “I think she’s lovely.”
But the rest offended her—and inarguably because it wasn’t a gesture but an emotion. She was appalled by West Egg, this unprecedented “place” that Broadway had begotten upon a Long Island fishing village—appalled by its raw vigour that chafed under the old euphemisms and by the too obtrusive fate that herded its inhabitants along a shortcut from nothing to nothing. She saw something awful in the very simplicity she failed to understand.
I sat on the front steps with them while they waited for their car. It was dark here in front; only the bright door sent ten square feet of light volleying out into the soft black morning. Sometimes a shadow moved against a dressing-room blind above, gave way to another shadow, an indefinite procession of shadows, who rouged and powdered in an invisible glass.
“Who is this Gatsby anyhow?” demanded Tom suddenly. “Some big bootlegger?”
“Where’d you hear that?” I inquired.
“I didn’t hear it. I imagined it. A lot of these newly rich people are just big bootleggers, you know.”
“Not Gatsby,” I said shortly.
He was silent for a moment. The pebbles of the drive crunched under his feet.
“Well, he certainly must have strained himself to get this menagerie together.”
A breeze stirred the grey haze of Daisy’s fur collar.
“At least they are more interesting than the people we know,” she said with an effort.
“You didn’t look so interested.”
“Well, I was.”
Tom laughed and turned to me.
“Did you notice Daisy’s face when that girl asked her to put her under a cold shower?”
Daisy began to sing with the music in a husky, rhythmic whisper, bringing out a meaning in each word that it had never had before and would never have again. When the melody rose her voice broke up sweetly, following it, in a way contralto voices have, and each change tipped out a little of her warm human magic upon the air.
“Lots of people come who haven’t been invited,” she said suddenly. “That girl hadn’t been invited. They simply force their way in and he’s too polite to object.”
“I’d like to know who he is and what he does,” insisted Tom. “And I think I’ll make a point of finding out.”
“I can tell you right now,” she answered. “He owned some drugstores, a lot of drugstores. He built them up himself.”
The dilatory limousine came rolling up the drive.
“Good night, Nick,” said Daisy.
Her glance left me and sought the lighted top of the steps, where “Three O’Clock in the Morning,” a neat, sad little waltz of that year, was drifting out the open door. After all, in the very casualness of Gatsby’s party there were romantic possibilities totally absent from her world. What was it up there in the song that seemed to be calling her back inside? What would happen now in the dim, incalculable hours? Perhaps some unbelievable guest would arrive, a person infinitely rare and to be marvelled at, some authentically radiant young girl who with one fresh glance at Gatsby, one moment of magical encounter, would blot out those five years of unwavering devotion.
I stayed late that night. Gatsby asked me to wait until he was free, and I lingered in the garden until the inevitable swimming party had run up, chilled and exalted, from the black beach, until the lights were extinguished in the guestrooms overhead. When he came down the steps at last the tanned skin was drawn unusually tight on his face, and his eyes were bright and tired.
“She didn’t like it,” he said immediately.
“Of course she did.”
“She didn’t like it,” he insisted. “She didn’t have a good time.”
He was silent, and I guessed at his unutterable depression.
“I feel far away from her,” he said. “It’s hard to make her understand.”
“You mean about the dance?”
“The dance?” He dismissed all the dances he had given with a snap of his fingers. “Old sport, the dance is unimportant.”
He wanted nothing less of Daisy than that she should go to Tom and say: “I never loved you.” After she had obliterated four years with that sentence they could decide upon the more practical measures to be taken. One of them was that, after she was free, they were to go back to Louisville and be married from her house—just as if it were five years ago.
“And she doesn’t understand,” he said. “She used to be able to understand. We’d sit for hours—”
He broke off and began to walk up and down a desolate path of fruit rinds and discarded favours and crushed flowers.
“I wouldn’t ask too much of her,” I ventured. “You can’t repeat the past.”
“Can’t repeat the past?” he cried incredulously. “Why of course you can!”
He looked around him wildly, as if the past were lurking here in the shadow of his house, just out of reach of his hand.
“I’m going to fix everything just the way it was before,” he said, nodding determinedly. “She’ll see.”
He talked a lot about the past, and I gathered that he wanted to recover something, some idea of himself perhaps, that had gone into loving Daisy. His life had been confused and disordered since then, but if he could once return to a certain starting place and go over it all slowly, he could find out what that thing was …
… One autumn night, five years before, they had been walking down the street when the leaves were falling, and they came to a place where there were no trees and the sidewalk was white with moonlight. They stopped here and turned toward each other. Now it was a cool night with that mysterious excitement in it which comes at the two changes of the year. The quiet lights in the houses were humming out into the darkness and there was a stir and bustle among the stars. Out of the corner of his eye Gatsby saw that the blocks of the sidewalks really formed a ladder and mounted to a secret place above the trees—he could climb to it, if he climbed alone, and once there he could suck on the pap of life, gulp down the incomparable milk of wonder.
His heart beat faster as Daisy’s white face came up to his own. He knew that when he kissed this girl, and forever wed his unutterable visions to her perishable breath, his mind would never romp again like the mind of God. So he waited, listening for a moment longer to the tuning-fork that had been struck upon a star. Then he kissed her. At his lips’ touch she blossomed for him like a flower and the incarnation was complete.
Through all he said, even through his appalling sentimentality, I was reminded of something—an elusive rhythm, a fragment of lost words, that I had heard somewhere a long time ago. For a moment a phrase tried to take shape in my mouth and my lips parted like a dumb man’s, as though there was more struggling upon them than a wisp of startled air. But they made no sound, and what I had almost remembered was uncommunicable forever.
中文
大约就在这时,一名雄心勃勃的纽约年轻记者一天早晨来到盖茨比门前,问他有没有什么话要发表。
“要谈什么?”盖茨比礼貌地问。
“嗯——有没有什么声明可以公布。”
混乱交谈五分钟以后,事情才弄清楚:这个人在办公室里听见过盖茨比的名字,同某件事有关,可那件事他要么不肯透露,要么自己也没有完全弄明白。那天正好休假,他怀着值得赞扬的主动精神,匆忙赶来“看看”。
这只是随意放出的一枪,可记者的直觉是正确的。盖茨比的名声由那些接受过他款待、因而自认有资格解释他过去的几百个人传播开来,整个夏天不断增长,已经只差一点就能成为新闻。“通往加拿大的地下管道”这类当代传奇开始附着在他身上;还有一个经久不衰的说法,说他根本不住在房子里,而是住在一艘看起来像房子的船上,那艘船会秘密地沿长岛海岸来回移动。为什么这些杜撰会给北达科他州的詹姆斯·盖茨带来满足,并不容易解释。
詹姆斯·盖茨——这才是他真正的名字,至少法律上如此。他十七岁时改了名字,而且恰好是在事业开始的那个具体时刻——他看见丹·科迪的游艇停泊在苏必利尔湖最危险的浅滩上。那天下午,沿海滩闲逛、穿破旧绿色运动衫和帆布裤的是詹姆斯·盖茨;可借来一条划艇、划向“图奥洛米号”,告诉科迪风一起来半小时内就可能把船撞碎的人,已经是杰伊·盖茨比。
我想,即使在那时候,他也早已把这个名字准备了很久。他的父母是懒散而失败的农民——他的想象从来没有真正承认他们是自己的父母。事实是,长岛西卵的杰伊·盖茨比,诞生于他对自身的柏拉图式构想。他是上帝之子——如果这个说法有任何意义,意义也正是如此——他必须从事天父的事业,为一种巨大、粗俗而闪亮的美服务。于是,他创造出一个十七岁男孩很可能创造出来的杰伊·盖茨比形象,并对这个形象忠诚到最后。
一年多以来,他沿苏必利尔湖南岸讨生活,挖蛤蜊、捕鲑鱼,或者做任何能换来食物和床铺的工作。棕色身体在那些既猛烈又懒散、令人振奋的日子里,自然而然地变得坚硬。他很早就了解女人;因为女人宠坏了他,他开始轻视她们——轻视年轻处女,因为她们无知;也轻视其他女人,因为她们会为一些事情歇斯底里,而这些事情在他压倒一切的自我专注中,本来被他视作理所当然。
可他的心始终处于持续而狂乱的骚动中。夜里躺在床上时,最怪诞、最幻想化的念头不断缠绕他。盥洗台上的钟滴答作响,月光把他扔在地板上的凌乱衣服浸得湿亮;与此同时,一个难以言说、华丽过度的宇宙在脑海中旋转展开。每个夜晚,他都在幻想图案上继续添加,直到困意用遗忘的拥抱覆盖某个鲜明场景。有一阵子,这些白日梦替想象力找到出口;它们令人满意地暗示现实本身并不真实,也承诺这个世界的岩石其实牢牢建立在仙女翅膀上。
几个月前,对未来荣耀的本能曾把他带到明尼苏达南部圣奥拉夫的一所小型路德宗学院。他在那里只待了两个星期,因学院对他命运鼓声、甚至对命运本身的凶狠漠视而灰心;他也鄙视那份用来支付学费的清洁工工作。随后,他又漂回苏必利尔湖。丹·科迪的游艇在岸边浅水区抛锚那天,他仍在寻找可以做的事情。
当时科迪五十岁,是内华达银矿、育空地区,以及一八七五年以来每一场金属淘金热共同制造出来的人。蒙大拿铜矿交易使他成为数倍百万富翁;他的身体仍然强健,精神却已经接近衰弱边缘。无数女人察觉这一点,试图把他和金钱分开。女记者埃拉·凯如何扮演曼特农夫人,利用他的弱点,把他赶上游艇出海,这些不太体面的枝节,在一九〇二年那些浮夸新闻里早已尽人皆知。他沿过分好客的海岸航行五年以后,出现在小姑娘湾,成为詹姆斯·盖茨的命运。
对那个靠在桨上、仰望有栏杆甲板的年轻盖茨来说,游艇代表世上一切美丽与魅力。我猜他朝科迪笑了笑——大概早已发现,自己微笑时别人喜欢他。不管怎样,科迪问了几个问题,其中一个问出了那个全新的名字;他发现这个年轻人反应快,而且野心得近乎奢侈。几天后,他把盖茨带到德卢斯,给他买了一件蓝外套、六条白帆布裤和一顶游艇帽。“图奥洛米号”驶向西印度群岛和巴巴里海岸时,盖茨也跟着离开。
他的职位说不清楚。跟着科迪时,他先后当过管家、大副、船长、秘书,甚至看守人;因为清醒的丹·科迪知道醉酒后的丹·科迪很快可能做出怎样奢侈荒唐的事,于是不断把更多信任交给盖茨,让他处理这些意外。这种安排持续五年,游艇绕大陆航行三次。如果不是某一晚埃拉·凯在波士顿登船,而一个星期以后丹·科迪很不客气地死去,这种生活也许会无限持续下去。
我记得盖茨比卧室里挂着科迪的肖像:一个灰头发、面色红润、脸孔坚硬空洞的男人——一位拓荒时代的纵欲者,在美国历史某个阶段,把边疆妓院和酒馆的野蛮暴力带回东海岸。盖茨比很少喝酒,间接原因正是科迪。欢乐宴会中,女人有时会把香槟抹进他头发里;可他本人养成了远离烈酒的习惯。
盖茨比也从科迪那里继承过一笔钱——两万五千美元遗产。可他没有拿到。他始终不明白别人用什么法律手段对付自己;剩下的几百万美元完整落到埃拉·凯手中。他只得到一场格外合适的教育;杰伊·盖茨比原本模糊的轮廓,终于充实成一个真正的男人。
他是在很久以后才告诉我这些事的;不过我把它们放在这里,是为了戳破最初那些关于他出身的疯狂传言,那些传言连一点真实影子都没有。再说,他告诉我这些时,正处在一段混乱时期;那时我已经到了关于他什么都相信、又什么都不信的阶段。因此我利用这段短暂停顿——仿佛盖茨比正在喘息——把这组误解清理掉。
这也成了我参与他那些事情的一段停顿。好几个星期,我没有见到他,也没有在电话里听见他的声音——大部分时间我待在纽约,和乔丹四处奔走,努力讨好她年迈的姨妈。最后,一个星期日下午,我去了他家。我到那里还不到两分钟,就有人领汤姆·布坎南进来喝一杯。我当然吃惊;不过真正令人惊讶的是,这种事以前竟然从未发生。
他们是三人骑马同行——汤姆、一个叫斯隆的男人,还有一个穿棕色骑马服的漂亮女人;她以前来过这里。
“见到你们真高兴。”盖茨比站在前廊说,“真高兴你们顺路进来。”
仿佛他们真的在意!
“请坐。抽烟还是雪茄?”他飞快地在房间里走来走去,不断按铃,“我马上给你们拿喝的。”
汤姆在这里这件事深深影响了他。不过不管是谁来,他在端出东西前都会坐立不安,因为他模糊地认为,人们来这里就是为了得到这些。斯隆先生什么也不要。柠檬水?不用,谢谢。来一点香槟?什么都不要,谢谢……抱歉——
“骑得愉快吗?”
“附近道路非常好。”
“我想那些汽车——”
“是啊。”
盖茨比被一种无法抗拒的冲动推动,转向汤姆;汤姆接受介绍时,把他当成了陌生人。
“布坎南先生,我想我们以前在什么地方见过。”
“哦,是的。”汤姆带着粗鲁的礼貌说道,显然完全不记得,“确实见过。我记得很清楚。”
“大约两个星期前。”
“对。你当时和尼克在一起。”
“我认识你太太。”盖茨比继续说道,语气几乎带着挑衅。
“是吗?”
汤姆转向我。
“尼克,你住在附近?”
“就在隔壁。”
“是吗?”
斯隆先生没有加入谈话,只傲慢地向后靠在椅子上;那个女人起初也不说话——直到两杯高杯酒下肚,她忽然变得亲切起来。
“我们下次都会来参加你的宴会,盖茨比先生。”她提议,“你觉得怎么样?”
“当然;你们能来我会非常高兴。”
“会很不错。”斯隆先生毫无感激地说,“嗯——我想我们该回家了。”
“别急着走。”盖茨比劝道。他现在已经控制住自己,而且想多观察汤姆一会儿。“你们为什么不——为什么不留下来吃晚饭?说不定还有其他人从纽约顺路过来。”
“你们和我一起去吃晚饭吧。”那个女人热情地说,“你们两个都来。”
她也包括了我。斯隆先生站起身来。
“走吧。”他说——但只对她一个人。
“我是认真的。”她坚持说,“我真希望你们来。地方多得很。”
盖茨比疑惑地看着我。他想去,而且没看出斯隆先生已经决定不让他去。
“恐怕我去不了。”我说。
“那你来吧。”她把注意力集中在盖茨比身上,再次劝道。
斯隆先生贴近她耳边低声说了什么。
“我们现在出发就不会迟。”她大声坚持。
“我没有马。”盖茨比说,“我在军队里骑过马,可一直没买过。我得开车跟着你们。请稍等一下。”
我们其余人走到前廊,斯隆先生和那个女人站到一旁,开始一场激烈的私下谈话。
“我的上帝,我看这家伙真要去。”汤姆说,“他难道看不出她根本不希望他去?”
“她明明说希望他去。”
“她家有一场大型晚宴,他在那里一个人也不认识。”汤姆皱起眉,“真不知道他到底从哪儿认识黛西。上帝作证,我也许观念老派,可现在的女人到处乱跑得太厉害了。她们什么疯子怪人都能认识。”
斯隆先生和那个女人突然走下台阶,翻身上马。
“走吧。”斯隆先生对汤姆说,“我们迟到了,必须走。”随后又对我说,“麻烦告诉他,我们等不了,好吗?”
汤姆和我握了手,其他人冷淡地点头告别;他们迅速沿车道小跑离开,刚消失在八月树叶下,盖茨比便拿着帽子和浅色外套从前门出来。
汤姆显然因为黛西独自四处活动而感到不安,所以下一个星期六晚上,他陪她一起来参加盖茨比的宴会。也许正是他的出现,使那一夜带上一种特别压抑的气质——在我对那个夏天其他宴会的记忆中,它格外突出。来的是同样的人,或者至少是同一类人;香槟依旧泛滥,各种颜色、各种音调的喧闹也依旧存在,可空气里有一种不快,一种以前没有的、无处不在的粗粝。也许只是我已经习惯了西卵,把它当作一个自成体系、有自己标准和伟大人物的世界;因为它根本不知道自己低人一等,所以也不承认低人一等。如今我却透过黛西的眼睛重新看它。人一旦用新的眼睛去看自己费力适应过的东西,总会感到悲伤。
他们在黄昏时到达;我们走进那几百张闪耀面孔之间时,黛西的声音在喉咙里低低玩弄着各种花样。
“这些事情让我太兴奋了。”她低声说,“今晚你什么时候想吻我,尼克,只要告诉我,我很乐意替你安排。只要报我的名字,或者出示一张绿卡。我正在发绿——”
“看看四周。”盖茨比建议。
“我正在看。我玩得太美——”
“你一定会看见许多只听说过的名人面孔。”
汤姆傲慢的目光扫过人群。
“我们不太出来应酬。”他说,“事实上,我刚才还在想,这里一个人也不认识。”
“也许你认识那位女士。”盖茨比指向一位华丽得几乎不像真人的兰花般女人;她庄严地坐在一棵白李树下。汤姆和黛西盯着她看,带着一种认出过去只在电影幽灵中存在的名人时才会产生的奇异不真实感。
“她真漂亮。”黛西说。
“俯身和她说话的男人是她的导演。”
盖茨比郑重地领着他们从一群人走到另一群人:
“布坎南太太……还有布坎南先生——”他短暂迟疑后补充,“那位马球选手。”
“哦,不。”汤姆立刻反对,“别这样叫我。”
可显然这个称呼让盖茨比感到满意,因此那天晚上剩下的时间里,汤姆一直是“那位马球选手”。
“我从来没见过这么多名人。”黛西惊叹,“我喜欢刚才那个男人——他叫什么来着?——鼻子有点蓝的那个。”
盖茨比说出他的名字,又补充说,他是一位小制片人。
“反正我喜欢他。”
“我宁愿不当那个马球选手。”汤姆愉快地说,“我更愿意默默地看这些名人,不让人注意。”
黛西和盖茨比跳了舞。我记得自己很惊讶,他跳狐步舞时竟如此优雅而保守——我以前从未见过他跳舞。随后,他们慢慢走到我家,在台阶上坐了半小时;按黛西要求,我一直警觉地留在花园里。“以防发生火灾、洪水,”她解释,“或者任何天灾。”
我们正一起坐下吃晚饭时,汤姆从他的“默默无闻”中出现。“我到那边和几个人一起吃,你介意吗?”他说,“有个人正在讲些挺有趣的东西。”
“去吧。”黛西和善地回答,“要是你想记下任何地址,这里有我的小金铅笔。”……过了一会儿,她环顾四周,对我说那个姑娘“俗气但漂亮”;我知道,除了和盖茨比单独相处的那半小时,她一点也没有玩得开心。
我们坐在一张醉意特别浓的桌边。这是我的错——盖茨比被叫去接电话,而两星期前,我还很喜欢这群人。可当时让我觉得有趣的东西,现在却在空气里发酵腐败。
“贝德克尔小姐,你感觉怎么样?”
被问的姑娘正徒劳地想瘫倒在我肩上。听见这句话,她坐直身体,睁开眼睛。
“什——么?”
一个身材高大、动作迟缓的女人一直劝黛西第二天和她去当地俱乐部打高尔夫;此时她替贝德克尔小姐辩护:
“哦,她现在没事了。每次喝到五六杯鸡尾酒,她都会这样开始尖叫。我总告诉她应该别喝。”
“我确实不喝了。”被告空洞地保证。
“我们听见你大喊,所以我对这里的西维特医生说:‘医生,那边有人需要你帮忙。’”
“我相信她会非常感激。”另一个朋友毫无感激地说,“不过你把她头按进游泳池时,把她裙子全弄湿了。”
“我最讨厌的就是别人把我的头按进游泳池。”贝德克尔小姐含糊地说,“有一次在新泽西,他们差点把我淹死。”
“那你就该别喝。”西维特医生反驳。
“你还是先管好自己吧!”贝德克尔小姐猛烈地喊,“你的手会发抖。我才不会让你给我做手术!”
事情就是这样。我最后几乎只记得,自己和黛西站在一起,看着那位电影导演和他的明星。两人仍在白李树下,脸贴得很近,只隔着一线苍白而细薄的月光。我忽然想到,他整个晚上都在非常缓慢地向她靠近,只为了达到这样的距离;就在我注视时,我看见他最后又俯低一点,吻了她的脸颊。
“我喜欢她。”黛西说,“我觉得她很可爱。”
可其余一切都冒犯了她——无可争辩,因为那不是姿态,而是情绪。她被西卵吓到了:这个前所未有的“地方”,是百老汇在一座长岛渔村上生出来的产物。她被那种在老式委婉说法下摩擦作响的原始活力吓到,也被那种过分显眼的命运吓到——它把这里的居民赶上一条从虚无到虚无的捷径。她在自己无法理解的简单之中看见了某种可怕东西。
他们等车时,我和他们坐在前门台阶上。这里前方很黑,只有明亮门口把十平方英尺的光射进柔软的黑色清晨。偶尔,楼上更衣室百叶窗后会移动一道影子,随后又被另一道影子替代;那是一列轮廓不清的影子,在看不见的镜子前涂胭脂、扑粉。
“这个盖茨比到底是什么人?”汤姆突然追问,“一个大私酒贩子?”
“你从哪儿听来的?”我问。
“不是听来的,是我猜的。你知道,很多这种暴发户都是大私酒贩子。”
“盖茨比不是。”我简短地说。
他沉默片刻,脚下石子发出咯吱声。
“嗯,他为了把这群动物园一样的人凑到一起,肯定费了不少劲。”
一阵风吹动黛西毛领周围灰色雾气般的绒毛。
“至少他们比我们认识的人有趣。”她勉强说道。
“你看起来可没那么有兴趣。”
“有,我有兴趣。”
汤姆笑了,转向我。
“那个姑娘叫人把她放进冷水淋浴时,你注意到黛西的脸了吗?”
黛西随着音乐开始唱歌,声音低哑,带着节奏般低语;每个词从她嘴里出来时,都获得过去从未有过、以后也不会再有的意义。旋律升高时,她的声音甜美地破开,像女低音通常会有的方式跟随音乐;每一次变化,都往空气里倾出一点她温暖的人类魔力。
“很多人根本没有受到邀请。”她突然说,“那个姑娘也没被邀请。他们就是硬闯进来,而他又太有礼貌,不好反对。”
“我很想知道他到底是谁,做什么的。”汤姆坚持说,“我想我会专门去查清楚。”
“我现在就能告诉你。”她回答,“他以前开药店,很多很多药店。都是他自己经营起来的。”
那辆姗姗来迟的豪华轿车滚上车道。
“晚安,尼克。”黛西说。
她的目光离开我,转向台阶顶端灯火明亮的地方。那一年一首整洁而忧伤的小圆舞曲《凌晨三点》正从敞开的门里飘出来。毕竟,在盖茨比宴会本身的随意之中,存在她那个世界里完全没有的浪漫可能。那首歌里究竟有什么,仿佛正在呼唤她回到屋里?在接下来昏暗而无法估量的几个小时里,又会发生什么?也许会来一个难以置信的客人,一个无限罕见、值得惊叹的人;也许会来一个真正光彩照人的年轻姑娘,她只要新鲜地看盖茨比一眼,只要同他有一瞬间魔法般相遇,就能抹去那五年从未动摇的忠诚。
那天夜里我留得很晚。盖茨比请我等到他有空,我便一直在花园里徘徊,直到那场必然发生的游泳聚会从黑色海滩上跑回来,浑身冰冷却情绪高昂;直到楼上客房灯光全部熄灭。最后,他走下台阶时,晒黑的皮肤异常紧绷地贴在脸上,眼睛明亮而疲惫。
“她不喜欢。”他立刻说。
“她当然喜欢。”
“她不喜欢。”他坚持,“她没有玩得开心。”
他沉默下来,我猜得到那种无法说出口的沮丧。
“我觉得离她很远。”他说,“很难让她明白。”
“你是说宴会吗?”
“宴会?”他打了个响指,把自己办过的所有宴会全都撇开,“老兄,宴会不重要。”
他对黛西的要求绝不只是普通选择。他要她走到汤姆面前说:“我从来没有爱过你。”等这句话抹掉四年以后,他们才能决定更实际的安排。其中之一,就是她恢复自由后,两人回到路易斯维尔,从她家里举行婚礼——就像五年前一样。
“而她不明白。”他说,“她以前明白的。我们会一坐好几个小时——”
他突然停下,开始沿一条荒凉小路来回走;路上满是水果皮、被丢弃的宴会小礼物和被踩烂的花。
“我觉得你不该对她要求太多。”我试探地说,“过去不可能重演。”
“过去不能重演?”他难以置信地喊,“当然可以!”
他狂乱地环顾四周,仿佛过去正潜伏在房屋阴影里,只差一点便能被他的手抓住。
“我要把一切都恢复成从前的样子。”他坚定地点头,“她会明白的。”
他谈了很多过去的事情;我逐渐明白,他想找回某样东西,也许是那个在爱上黛西时投入进去的自我观念。从那以后,他的生活一直混乱失序;可如果能回到某个起点,再慢慢重新走过一遍,他也许就能弄清楚那究竟是什么……
……五年前一个秋夜,他们走在落叶街道上,来到一个没有树木、被月光照得雪白的人行道拐角。他们停下,转身面对彼此。那是个凉爽夜晚,带着一年两次季节交替时才有的神秘兴奋。房屋里安静灯光嗡嗡流入黑暗,星星之间有一种骚动和忙乱。盖茨比从眼角看见,人行道石块真的组成一架梯子,通向树梢上方一个秘密地方——只要他独自攀登,就能到达那里;到了那里,他便可以吮吸生命乳房,吞饮那无可比拟的惊奇之乳。
黛西白色脸庞靠近他时,他心跳加快。他知道,一旦吻这个姑娘,把自己无法言说的幻象永远同她短暂易逝的呼吸结合,自己的思想便再也不能像上帝的思想那样自由嬉游。因此他等待着,又听了一会儿那根在星星上敲响的音叉。随后他吻了她。他嘴唇一触,她便像花一样为他开放,道成肉身也就完成了。
他说这一切时,甚至越过他那种令人惊骇的多愁善感,我仿佛想起了什么——一种难以捉摸的节奏,一段失去的词语,很久以前曾在某处听过。有一瞬间,一句话试图在我嘴里形成;嘴唇像哑巴一样张开,仿佛在上面挣扎的不只是一丝受惊空气。可它们没有发出声音,而我几乎想起的东西,也永远无法传达出来。
English
About this time an ambitious young reporter from New York arrived one morning at Gatsby’s door and asked him if he had anything to say.
中文
大约就在这时,一名雄心勃勃的纽约年轻记者一天早晨来到盖茨比门前,问他有没有什么话要发表。
English
About this time an ambitious young reporter from New York arrived one morning at Gatsby’s door and asked him if he had anything to say.
中文
大约就在这时,一名雄心勃勃的纽约年轻记者一天早晨来到盖茨比门前,问他有没有什么话要发表。
English
“Anything to say about what?” inquired Gatsby politely.
中文
“要谈什么?”盖茨比礼貌地问。
English
“Anything to say about what?” inquired Gatsby politely.
中文
“要谈什么?”盖茨比礼貌地问。
English
“Why—any statement to give out.”
中文
“嗯——有没有什么声明可以公布。”
English
“Why—any statement to give out.”
中文
“嗯——有没有什么声明可以公布。”
English
It transpired after a confused five minutes that the man had heard Gatsby’s name around his office in a connection which he either wouldn’t reveal or didn’t fully understand. This was his day off and with laudable initiative he had hurried out “to see.”
中文
混乱交谈五分钟以后,事情才弄清楚:这个人在办公室里听见过盖茨比的名字,同某件事有关,可那件事他要么不肯透露,要么自己也没有完全弄明白。那天正好休假,他怀着值得赞扬的主动精神,匆忙赶来“看看”。
English
It transpired after a confused five minutes that the man had heard Gatsby’s name around his office in a connection which he either wouldn’t reveal or didn’t fully understand. This was his day off and with laudable initiative he had hurried out “to see.”
中文
混乱交谈五分钟以后,事情才弄清楚:这个人在办公室里听见过盖茨比的名字,同某件事有关,可那件事他要么不肯透露,要么自己也没有完全弄明白。那天正好休假,他怀着值得赞扬的主动精神,匆忙赶来“看看”。
English
It was a random shot, and yet the reporter’s instinct was right. Gatsby’s notoriety, spread about by the hundreds who had accepted his hospitality and so become authorities upon his past, had increased all summer until he fell just short of being news. Contemporary legends such as the “underground pipeline to Canada” attached themselves to him, and there was one persistent story that he didn’t live in a house at all, but in a boat that looked like a house and was moved secretly up and down the Long Island shore. Just why these inventions were a source of satisfaction to James Gatz of North Dakota, isn’t easy to say.
中文
这只是随意放出的一枪,可记者的直觉是正确的。盖茨比的名声由那些接受过他款待、因而自认有资格解释他过去的几百个人传播开来,整个夏天不断增长,已经只差一点就能成为新闻。“通往加拿大的地下管道”这类当代传奇开始附着在他身上;还有一个经久不衰的说法,说他根本不住在房子里,而是住在一艘看起来像房子的船上,那艘船会秘密地沿长岛海岸来回移动。为什么这些杜撰会给北达科他州的詹姆斯·盖茨带来满足,并不容易解释。
English
It was a random shot, and yet the reporter’s instinct was right. Gatsby’s notoriety, spread about by the hundreds who had accepted his hospitality and so become authorities upon his past, had increased all summer until he fell just short of being news. Contemporary legends such as the “underground pipeline to Canada” attached themselves to him, and there was one persistent story that he didn’t live in a house at all, but in a boat that looked like a house and was moved secretly up and down the Long Island shore. Just why these inventions were a source of satisfaction to James Gatz of North Dakota, isn’t easy to say.
中文
这只是随意放出的一枪,可记者的直觉是正确的。盖茨比的名声由那些接受过他款待、因而自认有资格解释他过去的几百个人传播开来,整个夏天不断增长,已经只差一点就能成为新闻。“通往加拿大的地下管道”这类当代传奇开始附着在他身上;还有一个经久不衰的说法,说他根本不住在房子里,而是住在一艘看起来像房子的船上,那艘船会秘密地沿长岛海岸来回移动。为什么这些杜撰会给北达科他州的詹姆斯·盖茨带来满足,并不容易解释。
English
James Gatz—that was really, or at least legally, his name. He had changed it at the age of seventeen and at the specific moment that witnessed the beginning of his career—when he saw Dan Cody’s yacht drop anchor over the most insidious flat on Lake Superior. It was James Gatz who had been loafing along the beach that afternoon in a torn green jersey and a pair of canvas pants, but it was already Jay Gatsby who borrowed a rowboat, pulled out to the Tuolomee, and informed Cody that a wind might catch him and break him up in half an hour.
中文
詹姆斯·盖茨——这才是他真正的名字,至少法律上如此。他十七岁时改了名字,而且恰好是在事业开始的那个具体时刻——他看见丹·科迪的游艇停泊在苏必利尔湖最危险的浅滩上。那天下午,沿海滩闲逛、穿破旧绿色运动衫和帆布裤的是詹姆斯·盖茨;可借来一条划艇、划向“图奥洛米号”,告诉科迪风一起来半小时内就可能把船撞碎的人,已经是杰伊·盖茨比。
English
James Gatz—that was really, or at least legally, his name. He had changed it at the age of seventeen and at the specific moment that witnessed the beginning of his career—when he saw Dan Cody’s yacht drop anchor over the most insidious flat on Lake Superior. It was James Gatz who had been loafing along the beach that afternoon in a torn green jersey and a pair of canvas pants, but it was already Jay Gatsby who borrowed a rowboat, pulled out to the Tuolomee, and informed Cody that a wind might catch him and break him up in half an hour.
中文
詹姆斯·盖茨——这才是他真正的名字,至少法律上如此。他十七岁时改了名字,而且恰好是在事业开始的那个具体时刻——他看见丹·科迪的游艇停泊在苏必利尔湖最危险的浅滩上。那天下午,沿海滩闲逛、穿破旧绿色运动衫和帆布裤的是詹姆斯·盖茨;可借来一条划艇、划向“图奥洛米号”,告诉科迪风一起来半小时内就可能把船撞碎的人,已经是杰伊·盖茨比。
English
I suppose he’d had the name ready for a long time, even then. His parents were shiftless and unsuccessful farm people—his imagination had never really accepted them as his parents at all. The truth was that Jay Gatsby of West Egg, Long Island, sprang from his Platonic conception of himself. He was a son of God—a phrase which, if it means anything, means just that—and he must be about His Father’s business, the service of a vast, vulgar, and meretricious beauty. So he invented just the sort of Jay Gatsby that a seventeen-year-old boy would be likely to invent, and to this conception he was faithful to the end.
中文
我想,即使在那时候,他也早已把这个名字准备了很久。他的父母是懒散而失败的农民——他的想象从来没有真正承认他们是自己的父母。事实是,长岛西卵的杰伊·盖茨比,诞生于他对自身的柏拉图式构想。他是上帝之子——如果这个说法有任何意义,意义也正是如此——他必须从事天父的事业,为一种巨大、粗俗而闪亮的美服务。于是,他创造出一个十七岁男孩很可能创造出来的杰伊·盖茨比形象,并对这个形象忠诚到最后。
English
I suppose he’d had the name ready for a long time, even then. His parents were shiftless and unsuccessful farm people—his imagination had never really accepted them as his parents at all. The truth was that Jay Gatsby of West Egg, Long Island, sprang from his Platonic conception of himself. He was a son of God—a phrase which, if it means anything, means just that—and he must be about His Father’s business, the service of a vast, vulgar, and meretricious beauty. So he invented just the sort of Jay Gatsby that a seventeen-year-old boy would be likely to invent, and to this conception he was faithful to the end.
中文
我想,即使在那时候,他也早已把这个名字准备了很久。他的父母是懒散而失败的农民——他的想象从来没有真正承认他们是自己的父母。事实是,长岛西卵的杰伊·盖茨比,诞生于他对自身的柏拉图式构想。他是上帝之子——如果这个说法有任何意义,意义也正是如此——他必须从事天父的事业,为一种巨大、粗俗而闪亮的美服务。于是,他创造出一个十七岁男孩很可能创造出来的杰伊·盖茨比形象,并对这个形象忠诚到最后。
English
For over a year he had been beating his way along the south shore of Lake Superior as a clam-digger and a salmon-fisher or in any other capacity that brought him food and bed. His brown, hardening body lived naturally through the half-fierce, half-lazy work of the bracing days. He knew women early, and since they spoiled him he became contemptuous of them, of young virgins because they were ignorant, of the others because they were hysterical about things which in his overwhelming self-absorption he took for granted.
中文
一年多以来,他沿苏必利尔湖南岸讨生活,挖蛤蜊、捕鲑鱼,或者做任何能换来食物和床铺的工作。棕色身体在那些既猛烈又懒散、令人振奋的日子里,自然而然地变得坚硬。他很早就了解女人;因为女人宠坏了他,他开始轻视她们——轻视年轻处女,因为她们无知;也轻视其他女人,因为她们会为一些事情歇斯底里,而这些事情在他压倒一切的自我专注中,本来被他视作理所当然。
English
For over a year he had been beating his way along the south shore of Lake Superior as a clam-digger and a salmon-fisher or in any other capacity that brought him food and bed. His brown, hardening body lived naturally through the half-fierce, half-lazy work of the bracing days. He knew women early, and since they spoiled him he became contemptuous of them, of young virgins because they were ignorant, of the others because they were hysterical about things which in his overwhelming self-absorption he took for granted.
中文
一年多以来,他沿苏必利尔湖南岸讨生活,挖蛤蜊、捕鲑鱼,或者做任何能换来食物和床铺的工作。棕色身体在那些既猛烈又懒散、令人振奋的日子里,自然而然地变得坚硬。他很早就了解女人;因为女人宠坏了他,他开始轻视她们——轻视年轻处女,因为她们无知;也轻视其他女人,因为她们会为一些事情歇斯底里,而这些事情在他压倒一切的自我专注中,本来被他视作理所当然。
English
But his heart was in a constant, turbulent riot. The most grotesque and fantastic conceits haunted him in his bed at night. A universe of ineffable gaudiness spun itself out in his brain while the clock ticked on the washstand and the moon soaked with wet light his tangled clothes upon the floor. Each night he added to the pattern of his fancies until drowsiness closed down upon some vivid scene with an oblivious embrace. For a while these reveries provided an outlet for his imagination; they were a satisfactory hint of the unreality of reality, a promise that the rock of the world was founded securely on a fairy’s wing.
中文
可他的心始终处于持续而狂乱的骚动中。夜里躺在床上时,最怪诞、最幻想化的念头不断缠绕他。盥洗台上的钟滴答作响,月光把他扔在地板上的凌乱衣服浸得湿亮;与此同时,一个难以言说、华丽过度的宇宙在脑海中旋转展开。每个夜晚,他都在幻想图案上继续添加,直到困意用遗忘的拥抱覆盖某个鲜明场景。有一阵子,这些白日梦替想象力找到出口;它们令人满意地暗示现实本身并不真实,也承诺这个世界的岩石其实牢牢建立在仙女翅膀上。
English
But his heart was in a constant, turbulent riot. The most grotesque and fantastic conceits haunted him in his bed at night. A universe of ineffable gaudiness spun itself out in his brain while the clock ticked on the washstand and the moon soaked with wet light his tangled clothes upon the floor. Each night he added to the pattern of his fancies until drowsiness closed down upon some vivid scene with an oblivious embrace. For a while these reveries provided an outlet for his imagination; they were a satisfactory hint of the unreality of reality, a promise that the rock of the world was founded securely on a fairy’s wing.
中文
可他的心始终处于持续而狂乱的骚动中。夜里躺在床上时,最怪诞、最幻想化的念头不断缠绕他。盥洗台上的钟滴答作响,月光把他扔在地板上的凌乱衣服浸得湿亮;与此同时,一个难以言说、华丽过度的宇宙在脑海中旋转展开。每个夜晚,他都在幻想图案上继续添加,直到困意用遗忘的拥抱覆盖某个鲜明场景。有一阵子,这些白日梦替想象力找到出口;它们令人满意地暗示现实本身并不真实,也承诺这个世界的岩石其实牢牢建立在仙女翅膀上。
English
An instinct toward his future glory had led him, some months before, to the small Lutheran College of St. Olaf’s in southern Minnesota. He stayed there two weeks, dismayed at its ferocious indifference to the drums of his destiny, to destiny itself, and despising the janitor’s work with which he was to pay his way through. Then he drifted back to Lake Superior, and he was still searching for something to do on the day that Dan Cody’s yacht dropped anchor in the shallows alongshore.
中文
几个月前,对未来荣耀的本能曾把他带到明尼苏达南部圣奥拉夫的一所小型路德宗学院。他在那里只待了两个星期,因学院对他命运鼓声、甚至对命运本身的凶狠漠视而灰心;他也鄙视那份用来支付学费的清洁工工作。随后,他又漂回苏必利尔湖。丹·科迪的游艇在岸边浅水区抛锚那天,他仍在寻找可以做的事情。
English
An instinct toward his future glory had led him, some months before, to the small Lutheran College of St. Olaf’s in southern Minnesota. He stayed there two weeks, dismayed at its ferocious indifference to the drums of his destiny, to destiny itself, and despising the janitor’s work with which he was to pay his way through. Then he drifted back to Lake Superior, and he was still searching for something to do on the day that Dan Cody’s yacht dropped anchor in the shallows alongshore.
中文
几个月前,对未来荣耀的本能曾把他带到明尼苏达南部圣奥拉夫的一所小型路德宗学院。他在那里只待了两个星期,因学院对他命运鼓声、甚至对命运本身的凶狠漠视而灰心;他也鄙视那份用来支付学费的清洁工工作。随后,他又漂回苏必利尔湖。丹·科迪的游艇在岸边浅水区抛锚那天,他仍在寻找可以做的事情。
English
Cody was fifty years old then, a product of the Nevada silver fields, of the Yukon, of every rush for metal since seventy-five. The transactions in Montana copper that made him many times a millionaire found him physically robust but on the verge of soft-mindedness, and, suspecting this, an infinite number of women tried to separate him from his money. The none too savoury ramifications by which Ella Kaye, the newspaper woman, played Madame de Maintenon to his weakness and sent him to sea in a yacht, were common property of the turgid journalism in 1902. He had been coasting along all too hospitable shores for five years when he turned up as James Gatz’s destiny in Little Girl Bay.
中文
当时科迪五十岁,是内华达银矿、育空地区,以及一八七五年以来每一场金属淘金热共同制造出来的人。蒙大拿铜矿交易使他成为数倍百万富翁;他的身体仍然强健,精神却已经接近衰弱边缘。无数女人察觉这一点,试图把他和金钱分开。女记者埃拉·凯如何扮演曼特农夫人,利用他的弱点,把他赶上游艇出海,这些不太体面的枝节,在一九〇二年那些浮夸新闻里早已尽人皆知。他沿过分好客的海岸航行五年以后,出现在小姑娘湾,成为詹姆斯·盖茨的命运。
English
Cody was fifty years old then, a product of the Nevada silver fields, of the Yukon, of every rush for metal since seventy-five. The transactions in Montana copper that made him many times a millionaire found him physically robust but on the verge of soft-mindedness, and, suspecting this, an infinite number of women tried to separate him from his money. The none too savoury ramifications by which Ella Kaye, the newspaper woman, played Madame de Maintenon to his weakness and sent him to sea in a yacht, were common property of the turgid journalism in 1902. He had been coasting along all too hospitable shores for five years when he turned up as James Gatz’s destiny in Little Girl Bay.
中文
当时科迪五十岁,是内华达银矿、育空地区,以及一八七五年以来每一场金属淘金热共同制造出来的人。蒙大拿铜矿交易使他成为数倍百万富翁;他的身体仍然强健,精神却已经接近衰弱边缘。无数女人察觉这一点,试图把他和金钱分开。女记者埃拉·凯如何扮演曼特农夫人,利用他的弱点,把他赶上游艇出海,这些不太体面的枝节,在一九〇二年那些浮夸新闻里早已尽人皆知。他沿过分好客的海岸航行五年以后,出现在小姑娘湾,成为詹姆斯·盖茨的命运。
English
To young Gatz, resting on his oars and looking up at the railed deck, that yacht represented all the beauty and glamour in the world. I suppose he smiled at Cody—he had probably discovered that people liked him when he smiled. At any rate Cody asked him a few questions (one of them elicited the brand new name) and found that he was quick and extravagantly ambitious. A few days later he took him to Duluth and bought him a blue coat, six pairs of white duck trousers, and a yachting cap. And when the Tuolomee left for the West Indies and the Barbary Coast, Gatsby left too.
中文
对那个靠在桨上、仰望有栏杆甲板的年轻盖茨来说,游艇代表世上一切美丽与魅力。我猜他朝科迪笑了笑——大概早已发现,自己微笑时别人喜欢他。不管怎样,科迪问了几个问题,其中一个问出了那个全新的名字;他发现这个年轻人反应快,而且野心得近乎奢侈。几天后,他把盖茨带到德卢斯,给他买了一件蓝外套、六条白帆布裤和一顶游艇帽。“图奥洛米号”驶向西印度群岛和巴巴里海岸时,盖茨也跟着离开。
English
To young Gatz, resting on his oars and looking up at the railed deck, that yacht represented all the beauty and glamour in the world. I suppose he smiled at Cody—he had probably discovered that people liked him when he smiled. At any rate Cody asked him a few questions (one of them elicited the brand new name) and found that he was quick and extravagantly ambitious. A few days later he took him to Duluth and bought him a blue coat, six pairs of white duck trousers, and a yachting cap. And when the Tuolomee left for the West Indies and the Barbary Coast, Gatsby left too.
中文
对那个靠在桨上、仰望有栏杆甲板的年轻盖茨来说,游艇代表世上一切美丽与魅力。我猜他朝科迪笑了笑——大概早已发现,自己微笑时别人喜欢他。不管怎样,科迪问了几个问题,其中一个问出了那个全新的名字;他发现这个年轻人反应快,而且野心得近乎奢侈。几天后,他把盖茨带到德卢斯,给他买了一件蓝外套、六条白帆布裤和一顶游艇帽。“图奥洛米号”驶向西印度群岛和巴巴里海岸时,盖茨也跟着离开。
English
He was employed in a vague personal capacity—while he remained with Cody he was in turn steward, mate, skipper, secretary, and even jailor, for Dan Cody sober knew what lavish doings Dan Cody drunk might soon be about, and he provided for such contingencies by reposing more and more trust in Gatsby. The arrangement lasted five years, during which the boat went three times around the Continent. It might have lasted indefinitely except for the fact that Ella Kaye came on board one night in Boston and a week later Dan Cody inhospitably died.
中文
他的职位说不清楚。跟着科迪时,他先后当过管家、大副、船长、秘书,甚至看守人;因为清醒的丹·科迪知道醉酒后的丹·科迪很快可能做出怎样奢侈荒唐的事,于是不断把更多信任交给盖茨,让他处理这些意外。这种安排持续五年,游艇绕大陆航行三次。如果不是某一晚埃拉·凯在波士顿登船,而一个星期以后丹·科迪很不客气地死去,这种生活也许会无限持续下去。
English
He was employed in a vague personal capacity—while he remained with Cody he was in turn steward, mate, skipper, secretary, and even jailor, for Dan Cody sober knew what lavish doings Dan Cody drunk might soon be about, and he provided for such contingencies by reposing more and more trust in Gatsby. The arrangement lasted five years, during which the boat went three times around the Continent. It might have lasted indefinitely except for the fact that Ella Kaye came on board one night in Boston and a week later Dan Cody inhospitably died.
中文
他的职位说不清楚。跟着科迪时,他先后当过管家、大副、船长、秘书,甚至看守人;因为清醒的丹·科迪知道醉酒后的丹·科迪很快可能做出怎样奢侈荒唐的事,于是不断把更多信任交给盖茨,让他处理这些意外。这种安排持续五年,游艇绕大陆航行三次。如果不是某一晚埃拉·凯在波士顿登船,而一个星期以后丹·科迪很不客气地死去,这种生活也许会无限持续下去。
English
I remember the portrait of him up in Gatsby’s bedroom, a grey, florid man with a hard, empty face—the pioneer debauchee, who during one phase of American life brought back to the Eastern seaboard the savage violence of the frontier brothel and saloon. It was indirectly due to Cody that Gatsby drank so little. Sometimes in the course of gay parties women used to rub champagne into his hair; for himself he formed the habit of letting liquor alone.
中文
我记得盖茨比卧室里挂着科迪的肖像:一个灰头发、面色红润、脸孔坚硬空洞的男人——一位拓荒时代的纵欲者,在美国历史某个阶段,把边疆妓院和酒馆的野蛮暴力带回东海岸。盖茨比很少喝酒,间接原因正是科迪。欢乐宴会中,女人有时会把香槟抹进他头发里;可他本人养成了远离烈酒的习惯。
English
I remember the portrait of him up in Gatsby’s bedroom, a grey, florid man with a hard, empty face—the pioneer debauchee, who during one phase of American life brought back to the Eastern seaboard the savage violence of the frontier brothel and saloon. It was indirectly due to Cody that Gatsby drank so little. Sometimes in the course of gay parties women used to rub champagne into his hair; for himself he formed the habit of letting liquor alone.
中文
我记得盖茨比卧室里挂着科迪的肖像:一个灰头发、面色红润、脸孔坚硬空洞的男人——一位拓荒时代的纵欲者,在美国历史某个阶段,把边疆妓院和酒馆的野蛮暴力带回东海岸。盖茨比很少喝酒,间接原因正是科迪。欢乐宴会中,女人有时会把香槟抹进他头发里;可他本人养成了远离烈酒的习惯。
English
And it was from Cody that he inherited money—a legacy of twenty-five thousand dollars. He didn’t get it. He never understood the legal device that was used against him, but what remained of the millions went intact to Ella Kaye. He was left with his singularly appropriate education; the vague contour of Jay Gatsby had filled out to the substantiality of a man.
中文
盖茨比也从科迪那里继承过一笔钱——两万五千美元遗产。可他没有拿到。他始终不明白别人用什么法律手段对付自己;剩下的几百万美元完整落到埃拉·凯手中。他只得到一场格外合适的教育;杰伊·盖茨比原本模糊的轮廓,终于充实成一个真正的男人。
English
And it was from Cody that he inherited money—a legacy of twenty-five thousand dollars. He didn’t get it. He never understood the legal device that was used against him, but what remained of the millions went intact to Ella Kaye. He was left with his singularly appropriate education; the vague contour of Jay Gatsby had filled out to the substantiality of a man.
中文
盖茨比也从科迪那里继承过一笔钱——两万五千美元遗产。可他没有拿到。他始终不明白别人用什么法律手段对付自己;剩下的几百万美元完整落到埃拉·凯手中。他只得到一场格外合适的教育;杰伊·盖茨比原本模糊的轮廓,终于充实成一个真正的男人。
English
He told me all this very much later, but I’ve put it down here with the idea of exploding those first wild rumours about his antecedents, which weren’t even faintly true. Moreover he told it to me at a time of confusion, when I had reached the point of believing everything and nothing about him. So I take advantage of this short halt, while Gatsby, so to speak, caught his breath, to clear this set of misconceptions away.
中文
他是在很久以后才告诉我这些事的;不过我把它们放在这里,是为了戳破最初那些关于他出身的疯狂传言,那些传言连一点真实影子都没有。再说,他告诉我这些时,正处在一段混乱时期;那时我已经到了关于他什么都相信、又什么都不信的阶段。因此我利用这段短暂停顿——仿佛盖茨比正在喘息——把这组误解清理掉。
English
He told me all this very much later, but I’ve put it down here with the idea of exploding those first wild rumours about his antecedents, which weren’t even faintly true. Moreover he told it to me at a time of confusion, when I had reached the point of believing everything and nothing about him. So I take advantage of this short halt, while Gatsby, so to speak, caught his breath, to clear this set of misconceptions away.
中文
他是在很久以后才告诉我这些事的;不过我把它们放在这里,是为了戳破最初那些关于他出身的疯狂传言,那些传言连一点真实影子都没有。再说,他告诉我这些时,正处在一段混乱时期;那时我已经到了关于他什么都相信、又什么都不信的阶段。因此我利用这段短暂停顿——仿佛盖茨比正在喘息——把这组误解清理掉。
English
It was a halt, too, in my association with his affairs. For several weeks I didn’t see him or hear his voice on the phone—mostly I was in New York, trotting around with Jordan and trying to ingratiate myself with her senile aunt—but finally I went over to his house one Sunday afternoon. I hadn’t been there two minutes when somebody brought Tom Buchanan in for a drink. I was startled, naturally, but the really surprising thing was that it hadn’t happened before.
中文
这也成了我参与他那些事情的一段停顿。好几个星期,我没有见到他,也没有在电话里听见他的声音——大部分时间我待在纽约,和乔丹四处奔走,努力讨好她年迈的姨妈。最后,一个星期日下午,我去了他家。我到那里还不到两分钟,就有人领汤姆·布坎南进来喝一杯。我当然吃惊;不过真正令人惊讶的是,这种事以前竟然从未发生。
English
It was a halt, too, in my association with his affairs. For several weeks I didn’t see him or hear his voice on the phone—mostly I was in New York, trotting around with Jordan and trying to ingratiate myself with her senile aunt—but finally I went over to his house one Sunday afternoon. I hadn’t been there two minutes when somebody brought Tom Buchanan in for a drink. I was startled, naturally, but the really surprising thing was that it hadn’t happened before.
中文
这也成了我参与他那些事情的一段停顿。好几个星期,我没有见到他,也没有在电话里听见他的声音——大部分时间我待在纽约,和乔丹四处奔走,努力讨好她年迈的姨妈。最后,一个星期日下午,我去了他家。我到那里还不到两分钟,就有人领汤姆·布坎南进来喝一杯。我当然吃惊;不过真正令人惊讶的是,这种事以前竟然从未发生。
English
They were a party of three on horseback—Tom and a man named Sloane and a pretty woman in a brown riding-habit, who had been there previously.
中文
他们是三人骑马同行——汤姆、一个叫斯隆的男人,还有一个穿棕色骑马服的漂亮女人;她以前来过这里。
English
They were a party of three on horseback—Tom and a man named Sloane and a pretty woman in a brown riding-habit, who had been there previously.
中文
他们是三人骑马同行——汤姆、一个叫斯隆的男人,还有一个穿棕色骑马服的漂亮女人;她以前来过这里。
English
“I’m delighted to see you,” said Gatsby, standing on his porch. “I’m delighted that you dropped in.”
中文
“见到你们真高兴。”盖茨比站在前廊说,“真高兴你们顺路进来。”
English
“I’m delighted to see you,” said Gatsby, standing on his porch. “I’m delighted that you dropped in.”
中文
“见到你们真高兴。”盖茨比站在前廊说,“真高兴你们顺路进来。”
English
As though they cared!
中文
仿佛他们真的在意!
English
As though they cared!
中文
仿佛他们真的在意!
English
“Sit right down. Have a cigarette or a cigar.” He walked around the room quickly, ringing bells. “I’ll have something to drink for you in just a minute.”
中文
“请坐。抽烟还是雪茄?”他飞快地在房间里走来走去,不断按铃,“我马上给你们拿喝的。”
English
“Sit right down. Have a cigarette or a cigar.” He walked around the room quickly, ringing bells. “I’ll have something to drink for you in just a minute.”
中文
“请坐。抽烟还是雪茄?”他飞快地在房间里走来走去,不断按铃,“我马上给你们拿喝的。”
English
He was profoundly affected by the fact that Tom was there. But he would be uneasy anyhow until he had given them something, realizing in a vague way that that was all they came for. Mr. Sloane wanted nothing. A lemonade? No, thanks. A little champagne? Nothing at all, thanks … I’m sorry—
中文
汤姆在这里这件事深深影响了他。不过不管是谁来,他在端出东西前都会坐立不安,因为他模糊地认为,人们来这里就是为了得到这些。斯隆先生什么也不要。柠檬水?不用,谢谢。来一点香槟?什么都不要,谢谢……抱歉——
English
He was profoundly affected by the fact that Tom was there. But he would be uneasy anyhow until he had given them something, realizing in a vague way that that was all they came for. Mr. Sloane wanted nothing. A lemonade? No, thanks. A little champagne? Nothing at all, thanks … I’m sorry—
中文
汤姆在这里这件事深深影响了他。不过不管是谁来,他在端出东西前都会坐立不安,因为他模糊地认为,人们来这里就是为了得到这些。斯隆先生什么也不要。柠檬水?不用,谢谢。来一点香槟?什么都不要,谢谢……抱歉——
English
“Did you have a nice ride?”
中文
“骑得愉快吗?”
English
“Did you have a nice ride?”
中文
“骑得愉快吗?”
English
“Very good roads around here.”
中文
“附近道路非常好。”
English
“Very good roads around here.”
中文
“附近道路非常好。”
English
“I suppose the automobiles—”
中文
“我想那些汽车——”
English
“I suppose the automobiles—”
中文
“我想那些汽车——”
English
“Yeah.”
中文
“是啊。”
English
“Yeah.”
中文
“是啊。”
English
Moved by an irresistible impulse, Gatsby turned to Tom, who had accepted the introduction as a stranger.
中文
盖茨比被一种无法抗拒的冲动推动,转向汤姆;汤姆接受介绍时,把他当成了陌生人。
English
Moved by an irresistible impulse, Gatsby turned to Tom, who had accepted the introduction as a stranger.
中文
盖茨比被一种无法抗拒的冲动推动,转向汤姆;汤姆接受介绍时,把他当成了陌生人。
English
“I believe we’ve met somewhere before, Mr. Buchanan.”
中文
“布坎南先生,我想我们以前在什么地方见过。”
English
“I believe we’ve met somewhere before, Mr. Buchanan.”
中文
“布坎南先生,我想我们以前在什么地方见过。”
English
“Oh, yes,” said Tom, gruffly polite, but obviously not remembering. “So we did. I remember very well.”
中文
“哦,是的。”汤姆带着粗鲁的礼貌说道,显然完全不记得,“确实见过。我记得很清楚。”
English
“Oh, yes,” said Tom, gruffly polite, but obviously not remembering. “So we did. I remember very well.”
中文
“哦,是的。”汤姆带着粗鲁的礼貌说道,显然完全不记得,“确实见过。我记得很清楚。”
English
“About two weeks ago.”
中文
“大约两个星期前。”
English
“About two weeks ago.”
中文
“大约两个星期前。”
English
“That’s right. You were with Nick here.”
中文
“对。你当时和尼克在一起。”
English
“That’s right. You were with Nick here.”
中文
“对。你当时和尼克在一起。”
English
“I know your wife,” continued Gatsby, almost aggressively.
中文
“我认识你太太。”盖茨比继续说道,语气几乎带着挑衅。
English
“I know your wife,” continued Gatsby, almost aggressively.
中文
“我认识你太太。”盖茨比继续说道,语气几乎带着挑衅。
English
“That so?”
中文
“是吗?”
English
“That so?”
中文
“是吗?”
English
Tom turned to me.
中文
汤姆转向我。
English
Tom turned to me.
中文
汤姆转向我。
English
“You live near here, Nick?”
中文
“尼克,你住在附近?”
English
“You live near here, Nick?”
中文
“尼克,你住在附近?”
English
“Next door.”
中文
“就在隔壁。”
English
“Next door.”
中文
“就在隔壁。”
English
“That so?”
中文
“是吗?”
English
“That so?”
中文
“是吗?”
English
Mr. Sloane didn’t enter into the conversation, but lounged back haughtily in his chair; the woman said nothing either—until unexpectedly, after two highballs, she became cordial.
中文
斯隆先生没有加入谈话,只傲慢地向后靠在椅子上;那个女人起初也不说话——直到两杯高杯酒下肚,她忽然变得亲切起来。
English
Mr. Sloane didn’t enter into the conversation, but lounged back haughtily in his chair; the woman said nothing either—until unexpectedly, after two highballs, she became cordial.
中文
斯隆先生没有加入谈话,只傲慢地向后靠在椅子上;那个女人起初也不说话——直到两杯高杯酒下肚,她忽然变得亲切起来。
English
“We’ll all come over to your next party, Mr. Gatsby,” she suggested. “What do you say?”
中文
“我们下次都会来参加你的宴会,盖茨比先生。”她提议,“你觉得怎么样?”
English
“We’ll all come over to your next party, Mr. Gatsby,” she suggested. “What do you say?”
中文
“我们下次都会来参加你的宴会,盖茨比先生。”她提议,“你觉得怎么样?”
English
“Certainly; I’d be delighted to have you.”
中文
“当然;你们能来我会非常高兴。”
English
“Certainly; I’d be delighted to have you.”
中文
“当然;你们能来我会非常高兴。”
English
“Be ver’ nice,” said Mr. Sloane, without gratitude. “Well—think ought to be starting home.”
中文
“会很不错。”斯隆先生毫无感激地说,“嗯——我想我们该回家了。”
English
“Be ver’ nice,” said Mr. Sloane, without gratitude. “Well—think ought to be starting home.”
中文
“会很不错。”斯隆先生毫无感激地说,“嗯——我想我们该回家了。”
English
“Please don’t hurry,” Gatsby urged them. He had control of himself now, and he wanted to see more of Tom. “Why don’t you—why don’t you stay for supper? I wouldn’t be surprised if some other people dropped in from New York.”
中文
“别急着走。”盖茨比劝道。他现在已经控制住自己,而且想多观察汤姆一会儿。“你们为什么不——为什么不留下来吃晚饭?说不定还有其他人从纽约顺路过来。”
English
“Please don’t hurry,” Gatsby urged them. He had control of himself now, and he wanted to see more of Tom. “Why don’t you—why don’t you stay for supper? I wouldn’t be surprised if some other people dropped in from New York.”
中文
“别急着走。”盖茨比劝道。他现在已经控制住自己,而且想多观察汤姆一会儿。“你们为什么不——为什么不留下来吃晚饭?说不定还有其他人从纽约顺路过来。”
English
“You come to supper with me,” said the lady enthusiastically. “Both of you.”
中文
“你们和我一起去吃晚饭吧。”那个女人热情地说,“你们两个都来。”
English
“You come to supper with me,” said the lady enthusiastically. “Both of you.”
中文
“你们和我一起去吃晚饭吧。”那个女人热情地说,“你们两个都来。”
English
This included me. Mr. Sloane got to his feet.
中文
她也包括了我。斯隆先生站起身来。
English
This included me. Mr. Sloane got to his feet.
中文
她也包括了我。斯隆先生站起身来。
English
“Come along,” he said—but to her only.
中文
“走吧。”他说——但只对她一个人。
English
“Come along,” he said—but to her only.
中文
“走吧。”他说——但只对她一个人。
English
“I mean it,” she insisted. “I’d love to have you. Lots of room.”
中文
“我是认真的。”她坚持说,“我真希望你们来。地方多得很。”
English
“I mean it,” she insisted. “I’d love to have you. Lots of room.”
中文
“我是认真的。”她坚持说,“我真希望你们来。地方多得很。”
English
Gatsby looked at me questioningly. He wanted to go and he didn’t see that Mr. Sloane had determined he shouldn’t.
中文
盖茨比疑惑地看着我。他想去,而且没看出斯隆先生已经决定不让他去。
English
Gatsby looked at me questioningly. He wanted to go and he didn’t see that Mr. Sloane had determined he shouldn’t.
中文
盖茨比疑惑地看着我。他想去,而且没看出斯隆先生已经决定不让他去。
English
“I’m afraid I won’t be able to,” I said.
中文
“恐怕我去不了。”我说。
English
“I’m afraid I won’t be able to,” I said.
中文
“恐怕我去不了。”我说。
English
“Well, you come,” she urged, concentrating on Gatsby.
中文
“那你来吧。”她把注意力集中在盖茨比身上,再次劝道。
English
“Well, you come,” she urged, concentrating on Gatsby.
中文
“那你来吧。”她把注意力集中在盖茨比身上,再次劝道。
English
Mr. Sloane murmured something close to her ear.
中文
斯隆先生贴近她耳边低声说了什么。
English
Mr. Sloane murmured something close to her ear.
中文
斯隆先生贴近她耳边低声说了什么。
English
“We won’t be late if we start now,” she insisted aloud.
中文
“我们现在出发就不会迟。”她大声坚持。
English
“We won’t be late if we start now,” she insisted aloud.
中文
“我们现在出发就不会迟。”她大声坚持。
English
“I haven’t got a horse,” said Gatsby. “I used to ride in the army, but I’ve never bought a horse. I’ll have to follow you in my car. Excuse me for just a minute.”
中文
“我没有马。”盖茨比说,“我在军队里骑过马,可一直没买过。我得开车跟着你们。请稍等一下。”
English
“I haven’t got a horse,” said Gatsby. “I used to ride in the army, but I’ve never bought a horse. I’ll have to follow you in my car. Excuse me for just a minute.”
中文
“我没有马。”盖茨比说,“我在军队里骑过马,可一直没买过。我得开车跟着你们。请稍等一下。”
English
The rest of us walked out on the porch, where Sloane and the lady began an impassioned conversation aside.
中文
我们其余人走到前廊,斯隆先生和那个女人站到一旁,开始一场激烈的私下谈话。
English
The rest of us walked out on the porch, where Sloane and the lady began an impassioned conversation aside.
中文
我们其余人走到前廊,斯隆先生和那个女人站到一旁,开始一场激烈的私下谈话。
English
“My God, I believe the man’s coming,” said Tom. “Doesn’t he know she doesn’t want him?”
中文
“我的上帝,我看这家伙真要去。”汤姆说,“他难道看不出她根本不希望他去?”
English
“My God, I believe the man’s coming,” said Tom. “Doesn’t he know she doesn’t want him?”
中文
“我的上帝,我看这家伙真要去。”汤姆说,“他难道看不出她根本不希望他去?”
English
“She says she does want him.”
中文
“她明明说希望他去。”
English
“She says she does want him.”
中文
“她明明说希望他去。”
English
“She has a big dinner party and he won’t know a soul there.” He frowned. “I wonder where in the devil he met Daisy. By God, I may be old-fashioned in my ideas, but women run around too much these days to suit me. They meet all kinds of crazy fish.”
中文
“她家有一场大型晚宴,他在那里一个人也不认识。”汤姆皱起眉,“真不知道他到底从哪儿认识黛西。上帝作证,我也许观念老派,可现在的女人到处乱跑得太厉害了。她们什么疯子怪人都能认识。”
English
“She has a big dinner party and he won’t know a soul there.” He frowned. “I wonder where in the devil he met Daisy. By God, I may be old-fashioned in my ideas, but women run around too much these days to suit me. They meet all kinds of crazy fish.”
中文
“她家有一场大型晚宴,他在那里一个人也不认识。”汤姆皱起眉,“真不知道他到底从哪儿认识黛西。上帝作证,我也许观念老派,可现在的女人到处乱跑得太厉害了。她们什么疯子怪人都能认识。”
English
Suddenly Mr. Sloane and the lady walked down the steps and mounted their horses.
中文
斯隆先生和那个女人突然走下台阶,翻身上马。
English
Suddenly Mr. Sloane and the lady walked down the steps and mounted their horses.
中文
斯隆先生和那个女人突然走下台阶,翻身上马。
English
“Come on,” said Mr. Sloane to Tom, “we’re late. We’ve got to go.” And then to me: “Tell him we couldn’t wait, will you?”
中文
“走吧。”斯隆先生对汤姆说,“我们迟到了,必须走。”随后又对我说,“麻烦告诉他,我们等不了,好吗?”
English
“Come on,” said Mr. Sloane to Tom, “we’re late. We’ve got to go.” And then to me: “Tell him we couldn’t wait, will you?”
中文
“走吧。”斯隆先生对汤姆说,“我们迟到了,必须走。”随后又对我说,“麻烦告诉他,我们等不了,好吗?”
English
Tom and I shook hands, the rest of us exchanged a cool nod, and they trotted quickly down the drive, disappearing under the August foliage just as Gatsby, with hat and light overcoat in hand, came out the front door.
中文
汤姆和我握了手,其他人冷淡地点头告别;他们迅速沿车道小跑离开,刚消失在八月树叶下,盖茨比便拿着帽子和浅色外套从前门出来。
English
Tom and I shook hands, the rest of us exchanged a cool nod, and they trotted quickly down the drive, disappearing under the August foliage just as Gatsby, with hat and light overcoat in hand, came out the front door.
中文
汤姆和我握了手,其他人冷淡地点头告别;他们迅速沿车道小跑离开,刚消失在八月树叶下,盖茨比便拿着帽子和浅色外套从前门出来。
English
Tom was evidently perturbed at Daisy’s running around alone, for on the following Saturday night he came with her to Gatsby’s party. Perhaps his presence gave the evening its peculiar quality of oppressiveness—it stands out in my memory from Gatsby’s other parties that summer. There were the same people, or at least the same sort of people, the same profusion of champagne, the same many-coloured, many-keyed commotion, but I felt an unpleasantness in the air, a pervading harshness that hadn’t been there before. Or perhaps I had merely grown used to it, grown to accept West Egg as a world complete in itself, with its own standards and its own great figures, second to nothing because it had no consciousness of being so, and now I was looking at it again, through Daisy’s eyes. It is invariably saddening to look through new eyes at things upon which you have expended your own powers of adjustment.
中文
汤姆显然因为黛西独自四处活动而感到不安,所以下一个星期六晚上,他陪她一起来参加盖茨比的宴会。也许正是他的出现,使那一夜带上一种特别压抑的气质——在我对那个夏天其他宴会的记忆中,它格外突出。来的是同样的人,或者至少是同一类人;香槟依旧泛滥,各种颜色、各种音调的喧闹也依旧存在,可空气里有一种不快,一种以前没有的、无处不在的粗粝。也许只是我已经习惯了西卵,把它当作一个自成体系、有自己标准和伟大人物的世界;因为它根本不知道自己低人一等,所以也不承认低人一等。如今我却透过黛西的眼睛重新看它。人一旦用新的眼睛去看自己费力适应过的东西,总会感到悲伤。
English
Tom was evidently perturbed at Daisy’s running around alone, for on the following Saturday night he came with her to Gatsby’s party. Perhaps his presence gave the evening its peculiar quality of oppressiveness—it stands out in my memory from Gatsby’s other parties that summer. There were the same people, or at least the same sort of people, the same profusion of champagne, the same many-coloured, many-keyed commotion, but I felt an unpleasantness in the air, a pervading harshness that hadn’t been there before. Or perhaps I had merely grown used to it, grown to accept West Egg as a world complete in itself, with its own standards and its own great figures, second to nothing because it had no consciousness of being so, and now I was looking at it again, through Daisy’s eyes. It is invariably saddening to look through new eyes at things upon which you have expended your own powers of adjustment.
中文
汤姆显然因为黛西独自四处活动而感到不安,所以下一个星期六晚上,他陪她一起来参加盖茨比的宴会。也许正是他的出现,使那一夜带上一种特别压抑的气质——在我对那个夏天其他宴会的记忆中,它格外突出。来的是同样的人,或者至少是同一类人;香槟依旧泛滥,各种颜色、各种音调的喧闹也依旧存在,可空气里有一种不快,一种以前没有的、无处不在的粗粝。也许只是我已经习惯了西卵,把它当作一个自成体系、有自己标准和伟大人物的世界;因为它根本不知道自己低人一等,所以也不承认低人一等。如今我却透过黛西的眼睛重新看它。人一旦用新的眼睛去看自己费力适应过的东西,总会感到悲伤。
English
They arrived at twilight, and, as we strolled out among the sparkling hundreds, Daisy’s voice was playing murmurous tricks in her throat.
中文
他们在黄昏时到达;我们走进那几百张闪耀面孔之间时,黛西的声音在喉咙里低低玩弄着各种花样。
English
They arrived at twilight, and, as we strolled out among the sparkling hundreds, Daisy’s voice was playing murmurous tricks in her throat.
中文
他们在黄昏时到达;我们走进那几百张闪耀面孔之间时,黛西的声音在喉咙里低低玩弄着各种花样。
English
“These things excite me so,” she whispered. “If you want to kiss me any time during the evening, Nick, just let me know and I’ll be glad to arrange it for you. Just mention my name. Or present a green card. I’m giving out green—”
中文
“这些事情让我太兴奋了。”她低声说,“今晚你什么时候想吻我,尼克,只要告诉我,我很乐意替你安排。只要报我的名字,或者出示一张绿卡。我正在发绿——”
English
“These things excite me so,” she whispered. “If you want to kiss me any time during the evening, Nick, just let me know and I’ll be glad to arrange it for you. Just mention my name. Or present a green card. I’m giving out green—”
中文
“这些事情让我太兴奋了。”她低声说,“今晚你什么时候想吻我,尼克,只要告诉我,我很乐意替你安排。只要报我的名字,或者出示一张绿卡。我正在发绿——”
English
“Look around,” suggested Gatsby.
中文
“看看四周。”盖茨比建议。
English
“Look around,” suggested Gatsby.
中文
“看看四周。”盖茨比建议。
English
“I’m looking around. I’m having a marvellous—”
中文
“我正在看。我玩得太美——”
English
“I’m looking around. I’m having a marvellous—”
中文
“我正在看。我玩得太美——”
English
“You must see the faces of many people you’ve heard about.”
中文
“你一定会看见许多只听说过的名人面孔。”
English
“You must see the faces of many people you’ve heard about.”
中文
“你一定会看见许多只听说过的名人面孔。”
English
Tom’s arrogant eyes roamed the crowd.
中文
汤姆傲慢的目光扫过人群。
English
Tom’s arrogant eyes roamed the crowd.
中文
汤姆傲慢的目光扫过人群。
English
“We don’t go around very much,” he said; “in fact, I was just thinking I don’t know a soul here.”
中文
“我们不太出来应酬。”他说,“事实上,我刚才还在想,这里一个人也不认识。”
English
“We don’t go around very much,” he said; “in fact, I was just thinking I don’t know a soul here.”
中文
“我们不太出来应酬。”他说,“事实上,我刚才还在想,这里一个人也不认识。”
English
“Perhaps you know that lady.” Gatsby indicated a gorgeous, scarcely human orchid of a woman who sat in state under a white-plum tree. Tom and Daisy stared, with that peculiarly unreal feeling that accompanies the recognition of a hitherto ghostly celebrity of the movies.
中文
“也许你认识那位女士。”盖茨比指向一位华丽得几乎不像真人的兰花般女人;她庄严地坐在一棵白李树下。汤姆和黛西盯着她看,带着一种认出过去只在电影幽灵中存在的名人时才会产生的奇异不真实感。
English
“Perhaps you know that lady.” Gatsby indicated a gorgeous, scarcely human orchid of a woman who sat in state under a white-plum tree. Tom and Daisy stared, with that peculiarly unreal feeling that accompanies the recognition of a hitherto ghostly celebrity of the movies.
中文
“也许你认识那位女士。”盖茨比指向一位华丽得几乎不像真人的兰花般女人;她庄严地坐在一棵白李树下。汤姆和黛西盯着她看,带着一种认出过去只在电影幽灵中存在的名人时才会产生的奇异不真实感。
English
“She’s lovely,” said Daisy.
中文
“她真漂亮。”黛西说。
English
“She’s lovely,” said Daisy.
中文
“她真漂亮。”黛西说。
English
“The man bending over her is her director.”
中文
“俯身和她说话的男人是她的导演。”
English
“The man bending over her is her director.”
中文
“俯身和她说话的男人是她的导演。”
English
He took them ceremoniously from group to group:
中文
盖茨比郑重地领着他们从一群人走到另一群人:
English
He took them ceremoniously from group to group:
中文
盖茨比郑重地领着他们从一群人走到另一群人:
English
“Mrs. Buchanan … and Mr. Buchanan—” After an instant’s hesitation he added: “the polo player.”
中文
“布坎南太太……还有布坎南先生——”他短暂迟疑后补充,“那位马球选手。”
English
“Mrs. Buchanan … and Mr. Buchanan—” After an instant’s hesitation he added: “the polo player.”
中文
“布坎南太太……还有布坎南先生——”他短暂迟疑后补充,“那位马球选手。”
English
“Oh no,” objected Tom quickly, “not me.”
中文
“哦,不。”汤姆立刻反对,“别这样叫我。”
English
“Oh no,” objected Tom quickly, “not me.”
中文
“哦,不。”汤姆立刻反对,“别这样叫我。”
English
But evidently the sound of it pleased Gatsby for Tom remained “the polo player” for the rest of the evening.
中文
可显然这个称呼让盖茨比感到满意,因此那天晚上剩下的时间里,汤姆一直是“那位马球选手”。
English
But evidently the sound of it pleased Gatsby for Tom remained “the polo player” for the rest of the evening.
中文
可显然这个称呼让盖茨比感到满意,因此那天晚上剩下的时间里,汤姆一直是“那位马球选手”。
English
“I’ve never met so many celebrities,” Daisy exclaimed. “I liked that man—what was his name?—with the sort of blue nose.”
中文
“我从来没见过这么多名人。”黛西惊叹,“我喜欢刚才那个男人——他叫什么来着?——鼻子有点蓝的那个。”
English
“I’ve never met so many celebrities,” Daisy exclaimed. “I liked that man—what was his name?—with the sort of blue nose.”
中文
“我从来没见过这么多名人。”黛西惊叹,“我喜欢刚才那个男人——他叫什么来着?——鼻子有点蓝的那个。”
English
Gatsby identified him, adding that he was a small producer.
中文
盖茨比说出他的名字,又补充说,他是一位小制片人。
English
Gatsby identified him, adding that he was a small producer.
中文
盖茨比说出他的名字,又补充说,他是一位小制片人。
English
“Well, I liked him anyhow.”
中文
“反正我喜欢他。”
English
“Well, I liked him anyhow.”
中文
“反正我喜欢他。”
English
“I’d a little rather not be the polo player,” said Tom pleasantly, “I’d rather look at all these famous people in—in oblivion.”
中文
“我宁愿不当那个马球选手。”汤姆愉快地说,“我更愿意默默地看这些名人,不让人注意。”
English
“I’d a little rather not be the polo player,” said Tom pleasantly, “I’d rather look at all these famous people in—in oblivion.”
中文
“我宁愿不当那个马球选手。”汤姆愉快地说,“我更愿意默默地看这些名人,不让人注意。”
English
Daisy and Gatsby danced. I remember being surprised by his graceful, conservative foxtrot—I had never seen him dance before. Then they sauntered over to my house and sat on the steps for half an hour, while at her request I remained watchfully in the garden. “In case there’s a fire or a flood,” she explained, “or any act of God.”
中文
黛西和盖茨比跳了舞。我记得自己很惊讶,他跳狐步舞时竟如此优雅而保守——我以前从未见过他跳舞。随后,他们慢慢走到我家,在台阶上坐了半小时;按黛西要求,我一直警觉地留在花园里。“以防发生火灾、洪水,”她解释,“或者任何天灾。”
English
Daisy and Gatsby danced. I remember being surprised by his graceful, conservative foxtrot—I had never seen him dance before. Then they sauntered over to my house and sat on the steps for half an hour, while at her request I remained watchfully in the garden. “In case there’s a fire or a flood,” she explained, “or any act of God.”
中文
黛西和盖茨比跳了舞。我记得自己很惊讶,他跳狐步舞时竟如此优雅而保守——我以前从未见过他跳舞。随后,他们慢慢走到我家,在台阶上坐了半小时;按黛西要求,我一直警觉地留在花园里。“以防发生火灾、洪水,”她解释,“或者任何天灾。”
English
Tom appeared from his oblivion as we were sitting down to supper together. “Do you mind if I eat with some people over here?” he said. “A fellow’s getting off some funny stuff.”
中文
我们正一起坐下吃晚饭时,汤姆从他的“默默无闻”中出现。“我到那边和几个人一起吃,你介意吗?”他说,“有个人正在讲些挺有趣的东西。”
English
Tom appeared from his oblivion as we were sitting down to supper together. “Do you mind if I eat with some people over here?” he said. “A fellow’s getting off some funny stuff.”
中文
我们正一起坐下吃晚饭时,汤姆从他的“默默无闻”中出现。“我到那边和几个人一起吃,你介意吗?”他说,“有个人正在讲些挺有趣的东西。”
English
“Go ahead,” answered Daisy genially, “and if you want to take down any addresses here’s my little gold pencil.” … She looked around after a moment and told me the girl was “common but pretty,” and I knew that except for the half-hour she’d been alone with Gatsby she wasn’t having a good time.
中文
“去吧。”黛西和善地回答,“要是你想记下任何地址,这里有我的小金铅笔。”……过了一会儿,她环顾四周,对我说那个姑娘“俗气但漂亮”;我知道,除了和盖茨比单独相处的那半小时,她一点也没有玩得开心。
English
“Go ahead,” answered Daisy genially, “and if you want to take down any addresses here’s my little gold pencil.” … She looked around after a moment and told me the girl was “common but pretty,” and I knew that except for the half-hour she’d been alone with Gatsby she wasn’t having a good time.
中文
“去吧。”黛西和善地回答,“要是你想记下任何地址,这里有我的小金铅笔。”……过了一会儿,她环顾四周,对我说那个姑娘“俗气但漂亮”;我知道,除了和盖茨比单独相处的那半小时,她一点也没有玩得开心。
English
We were at a particularly tipsy table. That was my fault—Gatsby had been called to the phone, and I’d enjoyed these same people only two weeks before. But what had amused me then turned septic on the air now.
中文
我们坐在一张醉意特别浓的桌边。这是我的错——盖茨比被叫去接电话,而两星期前,我还很喜欢这群人。可当时让我觉得有趣的东西,现在却在空气里发酵腐败。
English
We were at a particularly tipsy table. That was my fault—Gatsby had been called to the phone, and I’d enjoyed these same people only two weeks before. But what had amused me then turned septic on the air now.
中文
我们坐在一张醉意特别浓的桌边。这是我的错——盖茨比被叫去接电话,而两星期前,我还很喜欢这群人。可当时让我觉得有趣的东西,现在却在空气里发酵腐败。
English
“How do you feel, Miss Baedeker?”
中文
“贝德克尔小姐,你感觉怎么样?”
English
“How do you feel, Miss Baedeker?”
中文
“贝德克尔小姐,你感觉怎么样?”
English
The girl addressed was trying, unsuccessfully, to slump against my shoulder. At this inquiry she sat up and opened her eyes.
中文
被问的姑娘正徒劳地想瘫倒在我肩上。听见这句话,她坐直身体,睁开眼睛。
English
The girl addressed was trying, unsuccessfully, to slump against my shoulder. At this inquiry she sat up and opened her eyes.
中文
被问的姑娘正徒劳地想瘫倒在我肩上。听见这句话,她坐直身体,睁开眼睛。
English
“Wha’?”
中文
“什——么?”
English
“Wha’?”
中文
“什——么?”
English
A massive and lethargic woman, who had been urging Daisy to play golf with her at the local club tomorrow, spoke in Miss Baedeker’s defence:
中文
一个身材高大、动作迟缓的女人一直劝黛西第二天和她去当地俱乐部打高尔夫;此时她替贝德克尔小姐辩护:
English
A massive and lethargic woman, who had been urging Daisy to play golf with her at the local club tomorrow, spoke in Miss Baedeker’s defence:
中文
一个身材高大、动作迟缓的女人一直劝黛西第二天和她去当地俱乐部打高尔夫;此时她替贝德克尔小姐辩护:
English
“Oh, she’s all right now. When she’s had five or six cocktails she always starts screaming like that. I tell her she ought to leave it alone.”
中文
“哦,她现在没事了。每次喝到五六杯鸡尾酒,她都会这样开始尖叫。我总告诉她应该别喝。”
English
“Oh, she’s all right now. When she’s had five or six cocktails she always starts screaming like that. I tell her she ought to leave it alone.”
中文
“哦,她现在没事了。每次喝到五六杯鸡尾酒,她都会这样开始尖叫。我总告诉她应该别喝。”
English
“I do leave it alone,” affirmed the accused hollowly.
中文
“我确实不喝了。”被告空洞地保证。
English
“I do leave it alone,” affirmed the accused hollowly.
中文
“我确实不喝了。”被告空洞地保证。
English
“We heard you yelling, so I said to Doc Civet here: ‘There’s somebody that needs your help, Doc.’ ”
中文
“我们听见你大喊,所以我对这里的西维特医生说:‘医生,那边有人需要你帮忙。’”
English
“We heard you yelling, so I said to Doc Civet here: ‘There’s somebody that needs your help, Doc.’ ”
中文
“我们听见你大喊,所以我对这里的西维特医生说:‘医生,那边有人需要你帮忙。’”
English
“She’s much obliged, I’m sure,” said another friend, without gratitude, “but you got her dress all wet when you stuck her head in the pool.”
中文
“我相信她会非常感激。”另一个朋友毫无感激地说,“不过你把她头按进游泳池时,把她裙子全弄湿了。”
English
“She’s much obliged, I’m sure,” said another friend, without gratitude, “but you got her dress all wet when you stuck her head in the pool.”
中文
“我相信她会非常感激。”另一个朋友毫无感激地说,“不过你把她头按进游泳池时,把她裙子全弄湿了。”
English
“Anything I hate is to get my head stuck in a pool,” mumbled Miss Baedeker. “They almost drowned me once over in New Jersey.”
中文
“我最讨厌的就是别人把我的头按进游泳池。”贝德克尔小姐含糊地说,“有一次在新泽西,他们差点把我淹死。”
English
“Anything I hate is to get my head stuck in a pool,” mumbled Miss Baedeker. “They almost drowned me once over in New Jersey.”
中文
“我最讨厌的就是别人把我的头按进游泳池。”贝德克尔小姐含糊地说,“有一次在新泽西,他们差点把我淹死。”
English
“Then you ought to leave it alone,” countered Doctor Civet.
中文
“那你就该别喝。”西维特医生反驳。
English
“Then you ought to leave it alone,” countered Doctor Civet.
中文
“那你就该别喝。”西维特医生反驳。
English
“Speak for yourself!” cried Miss Baedeker violently. “Your hand shakes. I wouldn’t let you operate on me!”
中文
“你还是先管好自己吧!”贝德克尔小姐猛烈地喊,“你的手会发抖。我才不会让你给我做手术!”
English
“Speak for yourself!” cried Miss Baedeker violently. “Your hand shakes. I wouldn’t let you operate on me!”
中文
“你还是先管好自己吧!”贝德克尔小姐猛烈地喊,“你的手会发抖。我才不会让你给我做手术!”
English
It was like that. Almost the last thing I remember was standing with Daisy and watching the moving-picture director and his Star. They were still under the white-plum tree and their faces were touching except for a pale, thin ray of moonlight between. It occurred to me that he had been very slowly bending toward her all evening to attain this proximity, and even while I watched I saw him stoop one ultimate degree and kiss at her cheek.
中文
事情就是这样。我最后几乎只记得,自己和黛西站在一起,看着那位电影导演和他的明星。两人仍在白李树下,脸贴得很近,只隔着一线苍白而细薄的月光。我忽然想到,他整个晚上都在非常缓慢地向她靠近,只为了达到这样的距离;就在我注视时,我看见他最后又俯低一点,吻了她的脸颊。
English
It was like that. Almost the last thing I remember was standing with Daisy and watching the moving-picture director and his Star. They were still under the white-plum tree and their faces were touching except for a pale, thin ray of moonlight between. It occurred to me that he had been very slowly bending toward her all evening to attain this proximity, and even while I watched I saw him stoop one ultimate degree and kiss at her cheek.
中文
事情就是这样。我最后几乎只记得,自己和黛西站在一起,看着那位电影导演和他的明星。两人仍在白李树下,脸贴得很近,只隔着一线苍白而细薄的月光。我忽然想到,他整个晚上都在非常缓慢地向她靠近,只为了达到这样的距离;就在我注视时,我看见他最后又俯低一点,吻了她的脸颊。
English
“I like her,” said Daisy, “I think she’s lovely.”
中文
“我喜欢她。”黛西说,“我觉得她很可爱。”
English
“I like her,” said Daisy, “I think she’s lovely.”
中文
“我喜欢她。”黛西说,“我觉得她很可爱。”
English
But the rest offended her—and inarguably because it wasn’t a gesture but an emotion. She was appalled by West Egg, this unprecedented “place” that Broadway had begotten upon a Long Island fishing village—appalled by its raw vigour that chafed under the old euphemisms and by the too obtrusive fate that herded its inhabitants along a shortcut from nothing to nothing. She saw something awful in the very simplicity she failed to understand.
中文
可其余一切都冒犯了她——无可争辩,因为那不是姿态,而是情绪。她被西卵吓到了:这个前所未有的“地方”,是百老汇在一座长岛渔村上生出来的产物。她被那种在老式委婉说法下摩擦作响的原始活力吓到,也被那种过分显眼的命运吓到——它把这里的居民赶上一条从虚无到虚无的捷径。她在自己无法理解的简单之中看见了某种可怕东西。
English
But the rest offended her—and inarguably because it wasn’t a gesture but an emotion. She was appalled by West Egg, this unprecedented “place” that Broadway had begotten upon a Long Island fishing village—appalled by its raw vigour that chafed under the old euphemisms and by the too obtrusive fate that herded its inhabitants along a shortcut from nothing to nothing. She saw something awful in the very simplicity she failed to understand.
中文
可其余一切都冒犯了她——无可争辩,因为那不是姿态,而是情绪。她被西卵吓到了:这个前所未有的“地方”,是百老汇在一座长岛渔村上生出来的产物。她被那种在老式委婉说法下摩擦作响的原始活力吓到,也被那种过分显眼的命运吓到——它把这里的居民赶上一条从虚无到虚无的捷径。她在自己无法理解的简单之中看见了某种可怕东西。
English
I sat on the front steps with them while they waited for their car. It was dark here in front; only the bright door sent ten square feet of light volleying out into the soft black morning. Sometimes a shadow moved against a dressing-room blind above, gave way to another shadow, an indefinite procession of shadows, who rouged and powdered in an invisible glass.
中文
他们等车时,我和他们坐在前门台阶上。这里前方很黑,只有明亮门口把十平方英尺的光射进柔软的黑色清晨。偶尔,楼上更衣室百叶窗后会移动一道影子,随后又被另一道影子替代;那是一列轮廓不清的影子,在看不见的镜子前涂胭脂、扑粉。
English
I sat on the front steps with them while they waited for their car. It was dark here in front; only the bright door sent ten square feet of light volleying out into the soft black morning. Sometimes a shadow moved against a dressing-room blind above, gave way to another shadow, an indefinite procession of shadows, who rouged and powdered in an invisible glass.
中文
他们等车时,我和他们坐在前门台阶上。这里前方很黑,只有明亮门口把十平方英尺的光射进柔软的黑色清晨。偶尔,楼上更衣室百叶窗后会移动一道影子,随后又被另一道影子替代;那是一列轮廓不清的影子,在看不见的镜子前涂胭脂、扑粉。
English
“Who is this Gatsby anyhow?” demanded Tom suddenly. “Some big bootlegger?”
中文
“这个盖茨比到底是什么人?”汤姆突然追问,“一个大私酒贩子?”
English
“Who is this Gatsby anyhow?” demanded Tom suddenly. “Some big bootlegger?”
中文
“这个盖茨比到底是什么人?”汤姆突然追问,“一个大私酒贩子?”
English
“Where’d you hear that?” I inquired.
中文
“你从哪儿听来的?”我问。
English
“Where’d you hear that?” I inquired.
中文
“你从哪儿听来的?”我问。
English
“I didn’t hear it. I imagined it. A lot of these newly rich people are just big bootleggers, you know.”
中文
“不是听来的,是我猜的。你知道,很多这种暴发户都是大私酒贩子。”
English
“I didn’t hear it. I imagined it. A lot of these newly rich people are just big bootleggers, you know.”
中文
“不是听来的,是我猜的。你知道,很多这种暴发户都是大私酒贩子。”
English
“Not Gatsby,” I said shortly.
中文
“盖茨比不是。”我简短地说。
English
“Not Gatsby,” I said shortly.
中文
“盖茨比不是。”我简短地说。
English
He was silent for a moment. The pebbles of the drive crunched under his feet.
中文
他沉默片刻,脚下石子发出咯吱声。
English
He was silent for a moment. The pebbles of the drive crunched under his feet.
中文
他沉默片刻,脚下石子发出咯吱声。
English
“Well, he certainly must have strained himself to get this menagerie together.”
中文
“嗯,他为了把这群动物园一样的人凑到一起,肯定费了不少劲。”
English
“Well, he certainly must have strained himself to get this menagerie together.”
中文
“嗯,他为了把这群动物园一样的人凑到一起,肯定费了不少劲。”
English
A breeze stirred the grey haze of Daisy’s fur collar.
中文
一阵风吹动黛西毛领周围灰色雾气般的绒毛。
English
A breeze stirred the grey haze of Daisy’s fur collar.
中文
一阵风吹动黛西毛领周围灰色雾气般的绒毛。
English
“At least they are more interesting than the people we know,” she said with an effort.
中文
“至少他们比我们认识的人有趣。”她勉强说道。
English
“At least they are more interesting than the people we know,” she said with an effort.
中文
“至少他们比我们认识的人有趣。”她勉强说道。
English
“You didn’t look so interested.”
中文
“你看起来可没那么有兴趣。”
English
“You didn’t look so interested.”
中文
“你看起来可没那么有兴趣。”
English
“Well, I was.”
中文
“有,我有兴趣。”
English
“Well, I was.”
中文
“有,我有兴趣。”
English
Tom laughed and turned to me.
中文
汤姆笑了,转向我。
English
Tom laughed and turned to me.
中文
汤姆笑了,转向我。
English
“Did you notice Daisy’s face when that girl asked her to put her under a cold shower?”
中文
“那个姑娘叫人把她放进冷水淋浴时,你注意到黛西的脸了吗?”
English
“Did you notice Daisy’s face when that girl asked her to put her under a cold shower?”
中文
“那个姑娘叫人把她放进冷水淋浴时,你注意到黛西的脸了吗?”
English
Daisy began to sing with the music in a husky, rhythmic whisper, bringing out a meaning in each word that it had never had before and would never have again. When the melody rose her voice broke up sweetly, following it, in a way contralto voices have, and each change tipped out a little of her warm human magic upon the air.
中文
黛西随着音乐开始唱歌,声音低哑,带着节奏般低语;每个词从她嘴里出来时,都获得过去从未有过、以后也不会再有的意义。旋律升高时,她的声音甜美地破开,像女低音通常会有的方式跟随音乐;每一次变化,都往空气里倾出一点她温暖的人类魔力。
English
Daisy began to sing with the music in a husky, rhythmic whisper, bringing out a meaning in each word that it had never had before and would never have again. When the melody rose her voice broke up sweetly, following it, in a way contralto voices have, and each change tipped out a little of her warm human magic upon the air.
中文
黛西随着音乐开始唱歌,声音低哑,带着节奏般低语;每个词从她嘴里出来时,都获得过去从未有过、以后也不会再有的意义。旋律升高时,她的声音甜美地破开,像女低音通常会有的方式跟随音乐;每一次变化,都往空气里倾出一点她温暖的人类魔力。
English
“Lots of people come who haven’t been invited,” she said suddenly. “That girl hadn’t been invited. They simply force their way in and he’s too polite to object.”
中文
“很多人根本没有受到邀请。”她突然说,“那个姑娘也没被邀请。他们就是硬闯进来,而他又太有礼貌,不好反对。”
English
“Lots of people come who haven’t been invited,” she said suddenly. “That girl hadn’t been invited. They simply force their way in and he’s too polite to object.”
中文
“很多人根本没有受到邀请。”她突然说,“那个姑娘也没被邀请。他们就是硬闯进来,而他又太有礼貌,不好反对。”
English
“I’d like to know who he is and what he does,” insisted Tom. “And I think I’ll make a point of finding out.”
中文
“我很想知道他到底是谁,做什么的。”汤姆坚持说,“我想我会专门去查清楚。”
English
“I’d like to know who he is and what he does,” insisted Tom. “And I think I’ll make a point of finding out.”
中文
“我很想知道他到底是谁,做什么的。”汤姆坚持说,“我想我会专门去查清楚。”
English
“I can tell you right now,” she answered. “He owned some drugstores, a lot of drugstores. He built them up himself.”
中文
“我现在就能告诉你。”她回答,“他以前开药店,很多很多药店。都是他自己经营起来的。”
English
“I can tell you right now,” she answered. “He owned some drugstores, a lot of drugstores. He built them up himself.”
中文
“我现在就能告诉你。”她回答,“他以前开药店,很多很多药店。都是他自己经营起来的。”
English
The dilatory limousine came rolling up the drive.
中文
那辆姗姗来迟的豪华轿车滚上车道。
English
The dilatory limousine came rolling up the drive.
中文
那辆姗姗来迟的豪华轿车滚上车道。
English
“Good night, Nick,” said Daisy.
中文
“晚安,尼克。”黛西说。
English
“Good night, Nick,” said Daisy.
中文
“晚安,尼克。”黛西说。
English
Her glance left me and sought the lighted top of the steps, where “Three O’Clock in the Morning,” a neat, sad little waltz of that year, was drifting out the open door. After all, in the very casualness of Gatsby’s party there were romantic possibilities totally absent from her world. What was it up there in the song that seemed to be calling her back inside? What would happen now in the dim, incalculable hours? Perhaps some unbelievable guest would arrive, a person infinitely rare and to be marvelled at, some authentically radiant young girl who with one fresh glance at Gatsby, one moment of magical encounter, would blot out those five years of unwavering devotion.
中文
她的目光离开我,转向台阶顶端灯火明亮的地方。那一年一首整洁而忧伤的小圆舞曲《凌晨三点》正从敞开的门里飘出来。毕竟,在盖茨比宴会本身的随意之中,存在她那个世界里完全没有的浪漫可能。那首歌里究竟有什么,仿佛正在呼唤她回到屋里?在接下来昏暗而无法估量的几个小时里,又会发生什么?也许会来一个难以置信的客人,一个无限罕见、值得惊叹的人;也许会来一个真正光彩照人的年轻姑娘,她只要新鲜地看盖茨比一眼,只要同他有一瞬间魔法般相遇,就能抹去那五年从未动摇的忠诚。
English
Her glance left me and sought the lighted top of the steps, where “Three O’Clock in the Morning,” a neat, sad little waltz of that year, was drifting out the open door. After all, in the very casualness of Gatsby’s party there were romantic possibilities totally absent from her world. What was it up there in the song that seemed to be calling her back inside? What would happen now in the dim, incalculable hours? Perhaps some unbelievable guest would arrive, a person infinitely rare and to be marvelled at, some authentically radiant young girl who with one fresh glance at Gatsby, one moment of magical encounter, would blot out those five years of unwavering devotion.
中文
她的目光离开我,转向台阶顶端灯火明亮的地方。那一年一首整洁而忧伤的小圆舞曲《凌晨三点》正从敞开的门里飘出来。毕竟,在盖茨比宴会本身的随意之中,存在她那个世界里完全没有的浪漫可能。那首歌里究竟有什么,仿佛正在呼唤她回到屋里?在接下来昏暗而无法估量的几个小时里,又会发生什么?也许会来一个难以置信的客人,一个无限罕见、值得惊叹的人;也许会来一个真正光彩照人的年轻姑娘,她只要新鲜地看盖茨比一眼,只要同他有一瞬间魔法般相遇,就能抹去那五年从未动摇的忠诚。
English
I stayed late that night. Gatsby asked me to wait until he was free, and I lingered in the garden until the inevitable swimming party had run up, chilled and exalted, from the black beach, until the lights were extinguished in the guestrooms overhead. When he came down the steps at last the tanned skin was drawn unusually tight on his face, and his eyes were bright and tired.
中文
那天夜里我留得很晚。盖茨比请我等到他有空,我便一直在花园里徘徊,直到那场必然发生的游泳聚会从黑色海滩上跑回来,浑身冰冷却情绪高昂;直到楼上客房灯光全部熄灭。最后,他走下台阶时,晒黑的皮肤异常紧绷地贴在脸上,眼睛明亮而疲惫。
English
I stayed late that night. Gatsby asked me to wait until he was free, and I lingered in the garden until the inevitable swimming party had run up, chilled and exalted, from the black beach, until the lights were extinguished in the guestrooms overhead. When he came down the steps at last the tanned skin was drawn unusually tight on his face, and his eyes were bright and tired.
中文
那天夜里我留得很晚。盖茨比请我等到他有空,我便一直在花园里徘徊,直到那场必然发生的游泳聚会从黑色海滩上跑回来,浑身冰冷却情绪高昂;直到楼上客房灯光全部熄灭。最后,他走下台阶时,晒黑的皮肤异常紧绷地贴在脸上,眼睛明亮而疲惫。
English
“She didn’t like it,” he said immediately.
中文
“她不喜欢。”他立刻说。
English
“She didn’t like it,” he said immediately.
中文
“她不喜欢。”他立刻说。
English
“Of course she did.”
中文
“她当然喜欢。”
English
“Of course she did.”
中文
“她当然喜欢。”
English
“She didn’t like it,” he insisted. “She didn’t have a good time.”
中文
“她不喜欢。”他坚持,“她没有玩得开心。”
English
“She didn’t like it,” he insisted. “She didn’t have a good time.”
中文
“她不喜欢。”他坚持,“她没有玩得开心。”
English
He was silent, and I guessed at his unutterable depression.
中文
他沉默下来,我猜得到那种无法说出口的沮丧。
English
He was silent, and I guessed at his unutterable depression.
中文
他沉默下来,我猜得到那种无法说出口的沮丧。
English
“I feel far away from her,” he said. “It’s hard to make her understand.”
中文
“我觉得离她很远。”他说,“很难让她明白。”
English
“I feel far away from her,” he said. “It’s hard to make her understand.”
中文
“我觉得离她很远。”他说,“很难让她明白。”
English
“You mean about the dance?”
中文
“你是说宴会吗?”
English
“You mean about the dance?”
中文
“你是说宴会吗?”
English
“The dance?” He dismissed all the dances he had given with a snap of his fingers. “Old sport, the dance is unimportant.”
中文
“宴会?”他打了个响指,把自己办过的所有宴会全都撇开,“老兄,宴会不重要。”
English
“The dance?” He dismissed all the dances he had given with a snap of his fingers. “Old sport, the dance is unimportant.”
中文
“宴会?”他打了个响指,把自己办过的所有宴会全都撇开,“老兄,宴会不重要。”
English
He wanted nothing less of Daisy than that she should go to Tom and say: “I never loved you.” After she had obliterated four years with that sentence they could decide upon the more practical measures to be taken. One of them was that, after she was free, they were to go back to Louisville and be married from her house—just as if it were five years ago.
中文
他对黛西的要求绝不只是普通选择。他要她走到汤姆面前说:“我从来没有爱过你。”等这句话抹掉四年以后,他们才能决定更实际的安排。其中之一,就是她恢复自由后,两人回到路易斯维尔,从她家里举行婚礼——就像五年前一样。
English
He wanted nothing less of Daisy than that she should go to Tom and say: “I never loved you.” After she had obliterated four years with that sentence they could decide upon the more practical measures to be taken. One of them was that, after she was free, they were to go back to Louisville and be married from her house—just as if it were five years ago.
中文
他对黛西的要求绝不只是普通选择。他要她走到汤姆面前说:“我从来没有爱过你。”等这句话抹掉四年以后,他们才能决定更实际的安排。其中之一,就是她恢复自由后,两人回到路易斯维尔,从她家里举行婚礼——就像五年前一样。
English
“And she doesn’t understand,” he said. “She used to be able to understand. We’d sit for hours—”
中文
“而她不明白。”他说,“她以前明白的。我们会一坐好几个小时——”
English
“And she doesn’t understand,” he said. “She used to be able to understand. We’d sit for hours—”
中文
“而她不明白。”他说,“她以前明白的。我们会一坐好几个小时——”
English
He broke off and began to walk up and down a desolate path of fruit rinds and discarded favours and crushed flowers.
中文
他突然停下,开始沿一条荒凉小路来回走;路上满是水果皮、被丢弃的宴会小礼物和被踩烂的花。
English
He broke off and began to walk up and down a desolate path of fruit rinds and discarded favours and crushed flowers.
中文
他突然停下,开始沿一条荒凉小路来回走;路上满是水果皮、被丢弃的宴会小礼物和被踩烂的花。
English
“I wouldn’t ask too much of her,” I ventured. “You can’t repeat the past.”
中文
“我觉得你不该对她要求太多。”我试探地说,“过去不可能重演。”
English
“I wouldn’t ask too much of her,” I ventured. “You can’t repeat the past.”
中文
“我觉得你不该对她要求太多。”我试探地说,“过去不可能重演。”
English
“Can’t repeat the past?” he cried incredulously. “Why of course you can!”
中文
“过去不能重演?”他难以置信地喊,“当然可以!”
English
“Can’t repeat the past?” he cried incredulously. “Why of course you can!”
中文
“过去不能重演?”他难以置信地喊,“当然可以!”
English
He looked around him wildly, as if the past were lurking here in the shadow of his house, just out of reach of his hand.
中文
他狂乱地环顾四周,仿佛过去正潜伏在房屋阴影里,只差一点便能被他的手抓住。
English
He looked around him wildly, as if the past were lurking here in the shadow of his house, just out of reach of his hand.
中文
他狂乱地环顾四周,仿佛过去正潜伏在房屋阴影里,只差一点便能被他的手抓住。
English
“I’m going to fix everything just the way it was before,” he said, nodding determinedly. “She’ll see.”
中文
“我要把一切都恢复成从前的样子。”他坚定地点头,“她会明白的。”
English
“I’m going to fix everything just the way it was before,” he said, nodding determinedly. “She’ll see.”
中文
“我要把一切都恢复成从前的样子。”他坚定地点头,“她会明白的。”
English
He talked a lot about the past, and I gathered that he wanted to recover something, some idea of himself perhaps, that had gone into loving Daisy. His life had been confused and disordered since then, but if he could once return to a certain starting place and go over it all slowly, he could find out what that thing was …
中文
他谈了很多过去的事情;我逐渐明白,他想找回某样东西,也许是那个在爱上黛西时投入进去的自我观念。从那以后,他的生活一直混乱失序;可如果能回到某个起点,再慢慢重新走过一遍,他也许就能弄清楚那究竟是什么……
English
He talked a lot about the past, and I gathered that he wanted to recover something, some idea of himself perhaps, that had gone into loving Daisy. His life had been confused and disordered since then, but if he could once return to a certain starting place and go over it all slowly, he could find out what that thing was …
中文
他谈了很多过去的事情;我逐渐明白,他想找回某样东西,也许是那个在爱上黛西时投入进去的自我观念。从那以后,他的生活一直混乱失序;可如果能回到某个起点,再慢慢重新走过一遍,他也许就能弄清楚那究竟是什么……
English
… One autumn night, five years before, they had been walking down the street when the leaves were falling, and they came to a place where there were no trees and the sidewalk was white with moonlight. They stopped here and turned toward each other. Now it was a cool night with that mysterious excitement in it which comes at the two changes of the year. The quiet lights in the houses were humming out into the darkness and there was a stir and bustle among the stars. Out of the corner of his eye Gatsby saw that the blocks of the sidewalks really formed a ladder and mounted to a secret place above the trees—he could climb to it, if he climbed alone, and once there he could suck on the pap of life, gulp down the incomparable milk of wonder.
中文
……五年前一个秋夜,他们走在落叶街道上,来到一个没有树木、被月光照得雪白的人行道拐角。他们停下,转身面对彼此。那是个凉爽夜晚,带着一年两次季节交替时才有的神秘兴奋。房屋里安静灯光嗡嗡流入黑暗,星星之间有一种骚动和忙乱。盖茨比从眼角看见,人行道石块真的组成一架梯子,通向树梢上方一个秘密地方——只要他独自攀登,就能到达那里;到了那里,他便可以吮吸生命乳房,吞饮那无可比拟的惊奇之乳。
English
… One autumn night, five years before, they had been walking down the street when the leaves were falling, and they came to a place where there were no trees and the sidewalk was white with moonlight. They stopped here and turned toward each other. Now it was a cool night with that mysterious excitement in it which comes at the two changes of the year. The quiet lights in the houses were humming out into the darkness and there was a stir and bustle among the stars. Out of the corner of his eye Gatsby saw that the blocks of the sidewalks really formed a ladder and mounted to a secret place above the trees—he could climb to it, if he climbed alone, and once there he could suck on the pap of life, gulp down the incomparable milk of wonder.
中文
……五年前一个秋夜,他们走在落叶街道上,来到一个没有树木、被月光照得雪白的人行道拐角。他们停下,转身面对彼此。那是个凉爽夜晚,带着一年两次季节交替时才有的神秘兴奋。房屋里安静灯光嗡嗡流入黑暗,星星之间有一种骚动和忙乱。盖茨比从眼角看见,人行道石块真的组成一架梯子,通向树梢上方一个秘密地方——只要他独自攀登,就能到达那里;到了那里,他便可以吮吸生命乳房,吞饮那无可比拟的惊奇之乳。
English
His heart beat faster as Daisy’s white face came up to his own. He knew that when he kissed this girl, and forever wed his unutterable visions to her perishable breath, his mind would never romp again like the mind of God. So he waited, listening for a moment longer to the tuning-fork that had been struck upon a star. Then he kissed her. At his lips’ touch she blossomed for him like a flower and the incarnation was complete.
中文
黛西白色脸庞靠近他时,他心跳加快。他知道,一旦吻这个姑娘,把自己无法言说的幻象永远同她短暂易逝的呼吸结合,自己的思想便再也不能像上帝的思想那样自由嬉游。因此他等待着,又听了一会儿那根在星星上敲响的音叉。随后他吻了她。他嘴唇一触,她便像花一样为他开放,道成肉身也就完成了。
English
His heart beat faster as Daisy’s white face came up to his own. He knew that when he kissed this girl, and forever wed his unutterable visions to her perishable breath, his mind would never romp again like the mind of God. So he waited, listening for a moment longer to the tuning-fork that had been struck upon a star. Then he kissed her. At his lips’ touch she blossomed for him like a flower and the incarnation was complete.
中文
黛西白色脸庞靠近他时,他心跳加快。他知道,一旦吻这个姑娘,把自己无法言说的幻象永远同她短暂易逝的呼吸结合,自己的思想便再也不能像上帝的思想那样自由嬉游。因此他等待着,又听了一会儿那根在星星上敲响的音叉。随后他吻了她。他嘴唇一触,她便像花一样为他开放,道成肉身也就完成了。
English
Through all he said, even through his appalling sentimentality, I was reminded of something—an elusive rhythm, a fragment of lost words, that I had heard somewhere a long time ago. For a moment a phrase tried to take shape in my mouth and my lips parted like a dumb man’s, as though there was more struggling upon them than a wisp of startled air. But they made no sound, and what I had almost remembered was uncommunicable forever.
中文
他说这一切时,甚至越过他那种令人惊骇的多愁善感,我仿佛想起了什么——一种难以捉摸的节奏,一段失去的词语,很久以前曾在某处听过。有一瞬间,一句话试图在我嘴里形成;嘴唇像哑巴一样张开,仿佛在上面挣扎的不只是一丝受惊空气。可它们没有发出声音,而我几乎想起的东西,也永远无法传达出来。
English
Through all he said, even through his appalling sentimentality, I was reminded of something—an elusive rhythm, a fragment of lost words, that I had heard somewhere a long time ago. For a moment a phrase tried to take shape in my mouth and my lips parted like a dumb man’s, as though there was more struggling upon them than a wisp of startled air. But they made no sound, and what I had almost remembered was uncommunicable forever.
中文
他说这一切时,甚至越过他那种令人惊骇的多愁善感,我仿佛想起了什么——一种难以捉摸的节奏,一段失去的词语,很久以前曾在某处听过。有一瞬间,一句话试图在我嘴里形成;嘴唇像哑巴一样张开,仿佛在上面挣扎的不只是一丝受惊空气。可它们没有发出声音,而我几乎想起的东西,也永远无法传达出来。