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Chapter I

The Picture of Dorian Gray. English-only reading by default; you can also choose two-column reading in English and Chinese.

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Lord Henry admires Basil Hallward's portrait of a beautiful young man. Basil refuses to exhibit it because it reveals his private artistic devotion to Dorian Gray. After recounting their meeting, Basil begs Henry not to influence Dorian—just as Dorian arrives at the studio.

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The studio was filled with the rich odour of roses, and when the light summer wind stirred amidst the trees of the garden, there came through the open door the heavy scent of the lilac, or the more delicate perfume of the pink-flowering thorn.

From the corner of the divan of Persian saddle-bags on which he was lying, smoking, as was his custom, innumerable cigarettes, Lord Henry Wotton could just catch the gleam of the honey-sweet and honey-coloured blossoms of a laburnum, whose tremulous branches seemed hardly able to bear the burden of a beauty so flamelike as theirs; and now and then the fantastic shadows of birds in flight flitted across the long tussore-silk curtains that were stretched in front of the huge window, producing a kind of momentary Japanese effect, and making him think of those pallid, jade-faced painters of Tokyo who, through the medium of an art that is necessarily immobile, seek to convey the sense of swiftness and motion. The sullen murmur of the bees shouldering their way through the long unmown grass, or circling with monotonous insistence round the dusty gilt horns of the straggling woodbine, seemed to make the stillness more oppressive. The dim roar of London was like the bourdon note of a distant organ.

In the centre of the room, clamped to an upright easel, stood the full-length portrait of a young man of extraordinary personal beauty, and in front of it, some little distance away, was sitting the artist himself, Basil Hallward, whose sudden disappearance some years ago caused, at the time, such public excitement and gave rise to so many strange conjectures.

As the painter looked at the gracious and comely form he had so skilfully mirrored in his art, a smile of pleasure passed across his face, and seemed about to linger there. But he suddenly started up, and closing his eyes, placed his fingers upon the lids, as though he sought to imprison within his brain some curious dream from which he feared he might awake.

“It is your best work, Basil, the best thing you have ever done,” said Lord Henry languidly. “You must certainly send it next year to the Grosvenor. The Academy is too large and too vulgar. Whenever I have gone there, there have been either so many people that I have not been able to see the pictures, which was dreadful, or so many pictures that I have not been able to see the people, which was worse. The Grosvenor is really the only place.”

“I don’t think I shall send it anywhere,” he answered, tossing his head back in that odd way that used to make his friends laugh at him at Oxford. “No, I won’t send it anywhere.”

Lord Henry elevated his eyebrows and looked at him in amazement through the thin blue wreaths of smoke that curled up in such fanciful whorls from his heavy, opium-tainted cigarette. “Not send it anywhere? My dear fellow, why? Have you any reason? What odd chaps you painters are! You do anything in the world to gain a reputation. As soon as you have one, you seem to want to throw it away. It is silly of you, for there is only one thing in the world worse than being talked about, and that is not being talked about. A portrait like this would set you far above all the young men in England, and make the old men quite jealous, if old men are ever capable of any emotion.”

“I know you will laugh at me,” he replied, “but I really can’t exhibit it. I have put too much of myself into it.”

Lord Henry stretched himself out on the divan and laughed.

“Yes, I knew you would; but it is quite true, all the same.”

“Too much of yourself in it! Upon my word, Basil, I didn’t know you were so vain; and I really can’t see any resemblance between you, with your rugged strong face and your coal-black hair, and this young Adonis, who looks as if he was made out of ivory and rose-leaves. Why, my dear Basil, he is a Narcissus, and you—well, of course you have an intellectual expression and all that. But beauty, real beauty, ends where an intellectual expression begins. Intellect is in itself a mode of exaggeration, and destroys the harmony of any face. The moment one sits down to think, one becomes all nose, or all forehead, or something horrid. Look at the successful men in any of the learned professions. How perfectly hideous they are! Except, of course, in the Church. But then in the Church they don’t think. A bishop keeps on saying at the age of eighty what he was told to say when he was a boy of eighteen, and as a natural consequence he always looks absolutely delightful. Your mysterious young friend, whose name you have never told me, but whose picture really fascinates me, never thinks. I feel quite sure of that. He is some brainless beautiful creature who should be always here in winter when we have no flowers to look at, and always here in summer when we want something to chill our intelligence. Don’t flatter yourself, Basil: you are not in the least like him.”

“You don’t understand me, Harry,” answered the artist. “Of course I am not like him. I know that perfectly well. Indeed, I should be sorry to look like him. You shrug your shoulders? I am telling you the truth. There is a fatality about all physical and intellectual distinction, the sort of fatality that seems to dog through history the faltering steps of kings. It is better not to be different from one’s fellows. The ugly and the stupid have the best of it in this world. They can sit at their ease and gape at the play. If they know nothing of victory, they are at least spared the knowledge of defeat. They live as we all should live—undisturbed, indifferent, and without disquiet. They neither bring ruin upon others, nor ever receive it from alien hands. Your rank and wealth, Harry; my brains, such as they are—my art, whatever it may be worth; Dorian Gray’s good looks—we shall all suffer for what the gods have given us, suffer terribly.”

“Dorian Gray? Is that his name?” asked Lord Henry, walking across the studio towards Basil Hallward.

“Yes, that is his name. I didn’t intend to tell it to you.”

“But why not?”

“Oh, I can’t explain. When I like people immensely, I never tell their names to any one. It is like surrendering a part of them. I have grown to love secrecy. It seems to be the one thing that can make modern life mysterious or marvellous to us. The commonest thing is delightful if one only hides it. When I leave town now I never tell my people where I am going. If I did, I would lose all my pleasure. It is a silly habit, I dare say, but somehow it seems to bring a great deal of romance into one’s life. I suppose you think me awfully foolish about it?”

“Not at all,” answered Lord Henry, “not at all, my dear Basil. You seem to forget that I am married, and the one charm of marriage is that it makes a life of deception absolutely necessary for both parties. I never know where my wife is, and my wife never knows what I am doing. When we meet—we do meet occasionally, when we dine out together, or go down to the Duke’s—we tell each other the most absurd stories with the most serious faces. My wife is very good at it—much better, in fact, than I am. She never gets confused over her dates, and I always do. But when she does find me out, she makes no row at all. I sometimes wish she would; but she merely laughs at me.”

“I hate the way you talk about your married life, Harry,” said Basil Hallward, strolling towards the door that led into the garden. “I believe that you are really a very good husband, but that you are thoroughly ashamed of your own virtues. You are an extraordinary fellow. You never say a moral thing, and you never do a wrong thing. Your cynicism is simply a pose.”

“Being natural is simply a pose, and the most irritating pose I know,” cried Lord Henry, laughing; and the two young men went out into the garden together and ensconced themselves on a long bamboo seat that stood in the shade of a tall laurel bush. The sunlight slipped over the polished leaves. In the grass, white daisies were tremulous.

After a pause, Lord Henry pulled out his watch. “I am afraid I must be going, Basil,” he murmured, “and before I go, I insist on your answering a question I put to you some time ago.”

“What is that?” said the painter, keeping his eyes fixed on the ground.

“You know quite well.”

“I do not, Harry.”

“Well, I will tell you what it is. I want you to explain to me why you won’t exhibit Dorian Gray’s picture. I want the real reason.”

“I told you the real reason.”

“No, you did not. You said it was because there was too much of yourself in it. Now, that is childish.”

“Harry,” said Basil Hallward, looking him straight in the face, “every portrait that is painted with feeling is a portrait of the artist, not of the sitter. The sitter is merely the accident, the occasion. It is not he who is revealed by the painter; it is rather the painter who, on the coloured canvas, reveals himself. The reason I will not exhibit this picture is that I am afraid that I have shown in it the secret of my own soul.”

Lord Henry laughed. “And what is that?” he asked.

“I will tell you,” said Hallward; but an expression of perplexity came over his face.

“I am all expectation, Basil,” continued his companion, glancing at him.

“Oh, there is really very little to tell, Harry,” answered the painter; “and I am afraid you will hardly understand it. Perhaps you will hardly believe it.”

Lord Henry smiled, and leaning down, plucked a pink-petalled daisy from the grass and examined it. “I am quite sure I shall understand it,” he replied, gazing intently at the little golden, white-feathered disk, “and as for believing things, I can believe anything, provided that it is quite incredible.”

The wind shook some blossoms from the trees, and the heavy lilac-blooms, with their clustering stars, moved to and fro in the languid air. A grasshopper began to chirrup by the wall, and like a blue thread a long thin dragon-fly floated past on its brown gauze wings. Lord Henry felt as if he could hear Basil Hallward’s heart beating, and wondered what was coming.

“The story is simply this,” said the painter after some time. “Two months ago I went to a crush at Lady Brandon’s. You know we poor artists have to show ourselves in society from time to time, just to remind the public that we are not savages. With an evening coat and a white tie, as you told me once, anybody, even a stock-broker, can gain a reputation for being civilized. Well, after I had been in the room about ten minutes, talking to huge overdressed dowagers and tedious academicians, I suddenly became conscious that some one was looking at me. I turned half-way round and saw Dorian Gray for the first time. When our eyes met, I felt that I was growing pale. A curious sensation of terror came over me. I knew that I had come face to face with some one whose mere personality was so fascinating that, if I allowed it to do so, it would absorb my whole nature, my whole soul, my very art itself. I did not want any external influence in my life. You know yourself, Harry, how independent I am by nature. I have always been my own master; had at least always been so, till I met Dorian Gray. Then—but I don’t know how to explain it to you. Something seemed to tell me that I was on the verge of a terrible crisis in my life. I had a strange feeling that fate had in store for me exquisite joys and exquisite sorrows. I grew afraid and turned to quit the room. It was not conscience that made me do so: it was a sort of cowardice. I take no credit to myself for trying to escape.”

“Conscience and cowardice are really the same things, Basil. Conscience is the trade-name of the firm. That is all.”

“I don’t believe that, Harry, and I don’t believe you do either. However, whatever was my motive—and it may have been pride, for I used to be very proud—I certainly struggled to the door. There, of course, I stumbled against Lady Brandon. ‘You are not going to run away so soon, Mr. Hallward?’ she screamed out. You know her curiously shrill voice?”

“Yes; she is a peacock in everything but beauty,” said Lord Henry, pulling the daisy to bits with his long nervous fingers.

“I could not get rid of her. She brought me up to royalties, and people with stars and garters, and elderly ladies with gigantic tiaras and parrot noses. She spoke of me as her dearest friend. I had only met her once before, but she took it into her head to lionize me. I believe some picture of mine had made a great success at the time, at least had been chattered about in the penny newspapers, which is the nineteenth-century standard of immortality. Suddenly I found myself face to face with the young man whose personality had so strangely stirred me. We were quite close, almost touching. Our eyes met again. It was reckless of me, but I asked Lady Brandon to introduce me to him. Perhaps it was not so reckless, after all. It was simply inevitable. We would have spoken to each other without any introduction. I am sure of that. Dorian told me so afterwards. He, too, felt that we were destined to know each other.”

“And how did Lady Brandon describe this wonderful young man?” asked his companion. “I know she goes in for giving a rapid précis of all her guests. I remember her bringing me up to a truculent and red-faced old gentleman covered all over with orders and ribbons, and hissing into my ear, in a tragic whisper which must have been perfectly audible to everybody in the room, the most astounding details. I simply fled. I like to find out people for myself. But Lady Brandon treats her guests exactly as an auctioneer treats his goods. She either explains them entirely away, or tells one everything about them except what one wants to know.”

“Poor Lady Brandon! You are hard on her, Harry!” said Hallward listlessly.

“My dear fellow, she tried to found a salon, and only succeeded in opening a restaurant. How could I admire her? But tell me, what did she say about Mr. Dorian Gray?”

“Oh, something like, ‘Charming boy—poor dear mother and I absolutely inseparable. Quite forget what he does—afraid he—doesn’t do anything—oh, yes, plays the piano—or is it the violin, dear Mr. Gray?’ Neither of us could help laughing, and we became friends at once.”

“Laughter is not at all a bad beginning for a friendship, and it is far the best ending for one,” said the young lord, plucking another daisy.

Hallward shook his head. “You don’t understand what friendship is, Harry,” he murmured—“or what enmity is, for that matter. You like every one; that is to say, you are indifferent to every one.”

“How horribly unjust of you!” cried Lord Henry, tilting his hat back and looking up at the little clouds that, like ravelled skeins of glossy white silk, were drifting across the hollowed turquoise of the summer sky. “Yes; horribly unjust of you. I make a great difference between people. I choose my friends for their good looks, my acquaintances for their good characters, and my enemies for their good intellects. A man cannot be too careful in the choice of his enemies. I have not got one who is a fool. They are all men of some intellectual power, and consequently they all appreciate me. Is that very vain of me? I think it is rather vain.”

“I should think it was, Harry. But according to your category I must be merely an acquaintance.”

“My dear old Basil, you are much more than an acquaintance.”

“And much less than a friend. A sort of brother, I suppose?”

“Oh, brothers! I don’t care for brothers. My elder brother won’t die, and my younger brothers seem never to do anything else.”

“Harry!” exclaimed Hallward, frowning.

“My dear fellow, I am not quite serious. But I can’t help detesting my relations. I suppose it comes from the fact that none of us can stand other people having the same faults as ourselves. I quite sympathize with the rage of the English democracy against what they call the vices of the upper orders. The masses feel that drunkenness, stupidity, and immorality should be their own special property, and that if any one of us makes an ass of himself, he is poaching on their preserves. When poor Southwark got into the divorce court, their indignation was quite magnificent. And yet I don’t suppose that ten per cent of the proletariat live correctly.”

“I don’t agree with a single word that you have said, and, what is more, Harry, I feel sure you don’t either.”

Lord Henry stroked his pointed brown beard and tapped the toe of his patent-leather boot with a tasselled ebony cane. “How English you are Basil! That is the second time you have made that observation. If one puts forward an idea to a true Englishman—always a rash thing to do—he never dreams of considering whether the idea is right or wrong. The only thing he considers of any importance is whether one believes it oneself. Now, the value of an idea has nothing whatsoever to do with the sincerity of the man who expresses it. Indeed, the probabilities are that the more insincere the man is, the more purely intellectual will the idea be, as in that case it will not be coloured by either his wants, his desires, or his prejudices. However, I don’t propose to discuss politics, sociology, or metaphysics with you. I like persons better than principles, and I like persons with no principles better than anything else in the world. Tell me more about Mr. Dorian Gray. How often do you see him?”

“Every day. I couldn’t be happy if I didn’t see him every day. He is absolutely necessary to me.”

“How extraordinary! I thought you would never care for anything but your art.”

“He is all my art to me now,” said the painter gravely. “I sometimes think, Harry, that there are only two eras of any importance in the world’s history. The first is the appearance of a new medium for art, and the second is the appearance of a new personality for art also. What the invention of oil-painting was to the Venetians, the face of Antinous was to late Greek sculpture, and the face of Dorian Gray will some day be to me. It is not merely that I paint from him, draw from him, sketch from him. Of course, I have done all that. But he is much more to me than a model or a sitter. I won’t tell you that I am dissatisfied with what I have done of him, or that his beauty is such that art cannot express it. There is nothing that art cannot express, and I know that the work I have done, since I met Dorian Gray, is good work, is the best work of my life. But in some curious way—I wonder will you understand me?—his personality has suggested to me an entirely new manner in art, an entirely new mode of style. I see things differently, I think of them differently. I can now recreate life in a way that was hidden from me before. ‘A dream of form in days of thought’—who is it who says that? I forget; but it is what Dorian Gray has been to me. The merely visible presence of this lad—for he seems to me little more than a lad, though he is really over twenty—his merely visible presence—ah! I wonder can you realize all that that means? Unconsciously he defines for me the lines of a fresh school, a school that is to have in it all the passion of the romantic spirit, all the perfection of the spirit that is Greek. The harmony of soul and body—how much that is! We in our madness have separated the two, and have invented a realism that is vulgar, an ideality that is void. Harry! if you only knew what Dorian Gray is to me! You remember that landscape of mine, for which Agnew offered me such a huge price but which I would not part with? It is one of the best things I have ever done. And why is it so? Because, while I was painting it, Dorian Gray sat beside me. Some subtle influence passed from him to me, and for the first time in my life I saw in the plain woodland the wonder I had always looked for and always missed.”

“Basil, this is extraordinary! I must see Dorian Gray.”

Hallward got up from the seat and walked up and down the garden. After some time he came back. “Harry,” he said, “Dorian Gray is to me simply a motive in art. You might see nothing in him. I see everything in him. He is never more present in my work than when no image of him is there. He is a suggestion, as I have said, of a new manner. I find him in the curves of certain lines, in the loveliness and subtleties of certain colours. That is all.”

“Then why won’t you exhibit his portrait?” asked Lord Henry.

“Because, without intending it, I have put into it some expression of all this curious artistic idolatry, of which, of course, I have never cared to speak to him. He knows nothing about it. He shall never know anything about it. But the world might guess it, and I will not bare my soul to their shallow prying eyes. My heart shall never be put under their microscope. There is too much of myself in the thing, Harry—too much of myself!”

“Poets are not so scrupulous as you are. They know how useful passion is for publication. Nowadays a broken heart will run to many editions.”

“I hate them for it,” cried Hallward. “An artist should create beautiful things, but should put nothing of his own life into them. We live in an age when men treat art as if it were meant to be a form of autobiography. We have lost the abstract sense of beauty. Some day I will show the world what it is; and for that reason the world shall never see my portrait of Dorian Gray.”

“I think you are wrong, Basil, but I won’t argue with you. It is only the intellectually lost who ever argue. Tell me, is Dorian Gray very fond of you?”

The painter considered for a few moments. “He likes me,” he answered after a pause; “I know he likes me. Of course I flatter him dreadfully. I find a strange pleasure in saying things to him that I know I shall be sorry for having said. As a rule, he is charming to me, and we sit in the studio and talk of a thousand things. Now and then, however, he is horribly thoughtless, and seems to take a real delight in giving me pain. Then I feel, Harry, that I have given away my whole soul to some one who treats it as if it were a flower to put in his coat, a bit of decoration to charm his vanity, an ornament for a summer’s day.”

“Days in summer, Basil, are apt to linger,” murmured Lord Henry. “Perhaps you will tire sooner than he will. It is a sad thing to think of, but there is no doubt that genius lasts longer than beauty. That accounts for the fact that we all take such pains to over-educate ourselves. In the wild struggle for existence, we want to have something that endures, and so we fill our minds with rubbish and facts, in the silly hope of keeping our place. The thoroughly well-informed man—that is the modern ideal. And the mind of the thoroughly well-informed man is a dreadful thing. It is like a bric-à-brac shop, all monsters and dust, with everything priced above its proper value. I think you will tire first, all the same. Some day you will look at your friend, and he will seem to you to be a little out of drawing, or you won’t like his tone of colour, or something. You will bitterly reproach him in your own heart, and seriously think that he has behaved very badly to you. The next time he calls, you will be perfectly cold and indifferent. It will be a great pity, for it will alter you. What you have told me is quite a romance, a romance of art one might call it, and the worst of having a romance of any kind is that it leaves one so unromantic.”

“Harry, don’t talk like that. As long as I live, the personality of Dorian Gray will dominate me. You can’t feel what I feel. You change too often.”

“Ah, my dear Basil, that is exactly why I can feel it. Those who are faithful know only the trivial side of love: it is the faithless who know love’s tragedies.” And Lord Henry struck a light on a dainty silver case and began to smoke a cigarette with a self-conscious and satisfied air, as if he had summed up the world in a phrase. There was a rustle of chirruping sparrows in the green lacquer leaves of the ivy, and the blue cloud-shadows chased themselves across the grass like swallows. How pleasant it was in the garden! And how delightful other people’s emotions were!—much more delightful than their ideas, it seemed to him. One’s own soul, and the passions of one’s friends—those were the fascinating things in life. He pictured to himself with silent amusement the tedious luncheon that he had missed by staying so long with Basil Hallward. Had he gone to his aunt’s, he would have been sure to have met Lord Goodbody there, and the whole conversation would have been about the feeding of the poor and the necessity for model lodging-houses. Each class would have preached the importance of those virtues, for whose exercise there was no necessity in their own lives. The rich would have spoken on the value of thrift, and the idle grown eloquent over the dignity of labour. It was charming to have escaped all that! As he thought of his aunt, an idea seemed to strike him. He turned to Hallward and said, “My dear fellow, I have just remembered.”

“Remembered what, Harry?”

“Where I heard the name of Dorian Gray.”

“Where was it?” asked Hallward, with a slight frown.

“Don’t look so angry, Basil. It was at my aunt, Lady Agatha’s. She told me she had discovered a wonderful young man who was going to help her in the East End, and that his name was Dorian Gray. I am bound to state that she never told me he was good-looking. Women have no appreciation of good looks; at least, good women have not. She said that he was very earnest and had a beautiful nature. I at once pictured to myself a creature with spectacles and lank hair, horribly freckled, and tramping about on huge feet. I wish I had known it was your friend.”

“I am very glad you didn’t, Harry.”

“Why?”

“I don’t want you to meet him.”

“You don’t want me to meet him?”

“No.”

“Mr. Dorian Gray is in the studio, sir,” said the butler, coming into the garden.

“You must introduce me now,” cried Lord Henry, laughing.

The painter turned to his servant, who stood blinking in the sunlight. “Ask Mr. Gray to wait, Parker: I shall be in in a few moments.” The man bowed and went up the walk.

Then he looked at Lord Henry. “Dorian Gray is my dearest friend,” he said. “He has a simple and a beautiful nature. Your aunt was quite right in what she said of him. Don’t spoil him. Don’t try to influence him. Your influence would be bad. The world is wide, and has many marvellous people in it. Don’t take away from me the one person who gives to my art whatever charm it possesses: my life as an artist depends on him. Mind, Harry, I trust you.” He spoke very slowly, and the words seemed wrung out of him almost against his will.

“What nonsense you talk!” said Lord Henry, smiling, and taking Hallward by the arm, he almost led him into the house.

中文

画室里弥漫着玫瑰浓郁的芬芳。轻柔的夏风拂动花园里的树木时,敞开的门外便送来紫丁香厚重的香气,或粉花山楂更为清雅的幽香。

亨利·沃顿勋爵照例一支接一支地抽着烟,斜卧在铺有波斯鞍袋的长沙发一角。从那里,他刚好能望见一株金链花蜜一般甜美、蜜一般金黄的花朵闪闪发亮;颤动的枝条仿佛几乎承受不住那火焰般灿烂的美。飞鸟奇异的影子不时掠过巨大窗前垂挂的柞蚕丝长帘,造成一瞬间的日本画效果,使他想起东京那些面色苍白如玉的画家:他们借助必然静止的艺术,力图传达迅疾与运动的感觉。蜜蜂在长而未经修剪的草丛里挤行,或固执而单调地绕着蔓生忍冬布满尘埃的金色花冠盘旋;那阴郁的嗡鸣,似乎令寂静更加沉重。伦敦隐约的轰响,仿佛远处风琴低沉的持续音。

房间中央,一幅真人大小的青年肖像固定在直立画架上。画中人容貌出奇俊美;画家巴兹尔·霍尔沃德本人坐在画前稍远处。数年后,他突然失踪,一度震动公众,也引起许多离奇猜测。

画家望着自己以高超技艺映现在作品中的优雅俊美容貌,脸上掠过愉悦的微笑,仿佛还要停留片刻。可他忽然站起身,闭上眼睛,把手指按在眼睑上,像是想把某个奇异的梦囚禁在脑海里,唯恐自己从中醒来。

“这是你最好的作品,巴兹尔,是你有生以来画得最好的一幅。”亨利勋爵懒洋洋地说,“明年你一定得把它送到格罗夫纳画廊。皇家美术学院太大,也太俗气。每回我去,若不是人多得让我看不见画——这已经很可怕;就是画多得让我看不见人——那更糟。格罗夫纳才是唯一合适的地方。”

“我不打算送到任何地方。”他答道,并以一种古怪的方式向后甩了甩头;在牛津时,这动作总惹得朋友们发笑。“不,我哪里也不送。”

亨利勋爵扬起眉毛,透过浓重、带着鸦片气味的香烟所升起的淡蓝烟圈,惊讶地望着他。“哪里也不送?亲爱的,为什么?有什么理由?你们画家真是怪人!为了成名,你们什么都肯做;可一旦有了名声,又好像恨不得把它扔掉。你这样太蠢了,因为世上只有一件事比受人议论更糟,那就是无人议论。这样的肖像会让你远远超过英国所有年轻画家,还会令那些老家伙嫉妒——假如老人还会有任何感情的话。”

“我知道你会笑我,”他回答,“但我确实不能展出这幅画。我把太多的自己放进去了。”

亨利勋爵在长沙发上伸展身体,大笑起来。

“是啊,我早知道你会笑;可这仍然是实话。”

“放进了太多的你自己!说真的,巴兹尔,我还不知道你这么自恋。我实在看不出,你那张轮廓粗犷有力、配着乌黑头发的脸,与这个仿佛用象牙和玫瑰花瓣塑成的年轻阿多尼斯有半点相似。亲爱的巴兹尔,他是个纳西索斯;而你——当然,你有知识分子的神情之类。可是美,真正的美,到知识分子的表情出现之处就结束了。智性本身是一种夸张,会破坏任何面孔的和谐。人一坐下来思考,脸就只剩鼻子,或只剩额头,或变成某种可怕的东西。看看学术行业里那些成功人士吧,他们长得多么彻底地丑!教会人士当然除外,因为教会里的人不思考。一位主教到了八十岁,还不断重复十八岁时别人教他讲的话,于是自然总是显得无比可爱。你那位神秘的年轻朋友——你从没告诉过我他的名字,可他的画像真让我着迷——他从不思考。我完全肯定。他是个美丽却没有头脑的生物;冬天没有鲜花可看时,他应当永远待在这里;夏天我们想给智性降降温时,他也应当永远待在这里。别自我陶醉了,巴兹尔:你一点也不像他。”

“你不明白我的意思,哈里。”画家回答,“我当然不像他,这一点我很清楚。说真的,我也不愿长得像他。你耸肩做什么?我说的是实话。凡是肉体或智性上出众的人,都带着某种宿命;那宿命仿佛一路追随着历史上君王蹒跚的脚步。最好不要与同类不同。丑人和蠢人在这世上占尽便宜。他们可以安稳地坐着,张口观看人生这出戏。即使不知道胜利,至少也免于认识失败。他们活得正像我们所有人都该活的那样——不受打扰、漠不关心、毫无忧虑。他们既不毁掉别人,也不会遭外人毁掉。哈里,你的地位和财富;我的头脑——不管值多少——以及我的艺术;还有道林·格雷的美貌:我们都将因诸神赐予之物而受苦,而且苦不堪言。”

“道林·格雷?他叫这个名字?”亨利勋爵问着,穿过画室走向巴兹尔·霍尔沃德。

“是的,他就叫这个名字。我本不打算告诉你。”

“可为什么不说?”

“唉,我解释不清。我非常喜欢一个人时,绝不会把他的名字告诉任何人。那就像交出了他的一部分。我已经爱上了保守秘密。现代生活中,似乎只有秘密还能使生活显得神秘或奇妙。哪怕最平常的事情,只要藏起来,也会变得可爱。如今我离开伦敦,从不告诉家里人我要去哪里。要是说了,我的乐趣便会荡然无存。这习惯或许很傻,可它不知怎么给人生带来许多浪漫。你大概觉得我傻得厉害吧?”

“一点也不,”亨利勋爵回答,“一点也不,亲爱的巴兹尔。你似乎忘了我已经结婚,而婚姻唯一迷人之处,就是它使欺骗成为夫妻双方绝对的必需。我从不知道妻子在哪里,她也从不知道我在做什么。我们碰面时——偶尔还是会碰面的,比如一同出席晚宴,或去公爵府——便一本正经地给对方讲最荒唐的故事。我的妻子很擅长这一套,事实上比我强得多。她从不会把日期弄混,我却总会。不过她拆穿我时,从不吵闹。有时我倒希望她闹一场,可她只是笑我。”

“我讨厌你谈论婚姻生活的方式,哈里。”巴兹尔·霍尔沃德边说边走向通往花园的门,“我相信你其实是个很好的丈夫,只是对自己的美德感到十分羞耻。你真是个奇人:从不说一句道德的话,也从不做一件坏事。你的玩世不恭不过是一种姿态。”

“所谓自然,也不过是一种姿态,而且是我所知道最惹人恼火的姿态。”亨利勋爵笑着喊道。两位年轻人一同走进花园,在高大月桂树荫下的一张长竹椅上坐定。阳光滑过光亮的叶片,草地上的白雏菊轻轻颤动。

沉默片刻后,亨利勋爵掏出怀表。“恐怕我得走了,巴兹尔,”他低声说,“不过走之前,我坚持要你回答我刚才问过的一个问题。”

“什么问题?”画家说,目光仍落在地上。

“你明明知道。”

“我不知道,哈里。”

“好吧,我来告诉你。我要你解释为什么不肯展出道林·格雷的画像。我要听真正的理由。”

“我已经告诉你真正的理由了。”

“不,你没有。你说是因为画里有太多的你自己。这话太孩子气。”

“哈里,”巴兹尔·霍尔沃德直视着他说,“每一幅带着感情画成的肖像,都是画家的肖像,而不是模特的肖像。模特仅仅是一个偶然,一个契机。画家揭示的不是模特;恰恰相反,是画家在有色的画布上揭示了自己。我不肯展出这幅画,是因为我害怕自己在画中显露了灵魂的秘密。”

亨利勋爵笑了。“那秘密是什么?”他问。

“我会告诉你。”霍尔沃德说,可脸上浮现出困惑的神情。

“我洗耳恭听,巴兹尔。”同伴看着他继续说道。

“唉,其实没什么可讲的,哈里,”画家回答,“而且我怕你很难理解。也许你根本不会相信。”

亨利勋爵微微一笑,俯身从草地摘下一朵粉瓣雏菊,细细端详。“我确信自己会明白,”他说,凝视着那金黄、白羽般的小花盘,“至于相信,我什么都能相信,只要它足够不可思议。”

风摇落树上的一些花朵,簇簇星形花瓣的浓密紫丁香在慵懒的空气中来回摆动。墙边一只蚱蜢开始鸣叫,一只细长的蜻蜓像一缕蓝线,张着褐色薄纱般的翅膀飘然而过。亨利勋爵仿佛能听见巴兹尔·霍尔沃德的心跳,不禁猜想他将说出什么。

“事情其实很简单。”过了一会儿,画家说,“两个月前,我参加了布兰登夫人的一场盛大聚会。你知道,我们这些可怜的艺术家不时得在社交场合露面,好提醒公众我们不是野蛮人。你有一次对我说,只要穿上晚礼服,系上白领结,任何人——哪怕股票经纪人——都能博得文明人的名声。好吧,我进场大约十分钟,正和身材庞大、衣饰过分华丽的贵妇以及乏味的学院派人士交谈,忽然意识到有人在看我。我半转过身,第一次看见了道林·格雷。四目相接时,我感到自己脸色发白。一种奇异的恐惧袭来。我知道自己面对的是一个仅凭人格魅力就能深深迷住我的人;若我容许,这魅力会吞没我的全部天性、整个灵魂,甚至我的艺术。我不希望生命中出现任何外来的影响。哈里,你知道我天性多么独立。我一直是自己的主人——至少在遇见道林·格雷以前一直如此。后来——可我不知道该怎么向你解释。我仿佛听见某种声音告诉我,人生正处在一场可怕危机的边缘。我有种奇怪的感觉,命运已为我准备了极致的欢乐与极致的悲哀。我害怕起来,转身想离开房间。促使我逃开的不是良心,而是一种怯懦。我并不因企图逃走而自夸。”

“良心和怯懦其实是同一种东西,巴兹尔。良心不过是这家商号使用的商业名称。仅此而已。”

“我不相信,哈里,而且我相信你自己也不信。不过,无论我的动机是什么——也许是骄傲,因为我从前确实很骄傲——我还是奋力朝门口走去。当然,我在那里撞上了布兰登夫人。‘霍尔沃德先生,您不会这么早就逃走吧?’她尖声叫道。你知道她那古怪而刺耳的声音吧?”

“知道;除了美貌以外,她处处都像孔雀。”亨利勋爵说,一面用修长而神经质的手指把雏菊扯成碎片。

“我摆脱不了她。她把我领到王室成员、佩戴勋章和绶带的人,以及戴着巨大冠冕、长着鹦鹉鼻子的老妇人面前。她把我说成她最亲爱的朋友。此前我只见过她一次,可她偏偏起意要把我捧成名人。我想是我当时的一幅画大获成功——至少在一便士报纸上被人议论过,而那正是十九世纪衡量不朽的标准。突然间,我发现自己与那个如此奇异地搅动我心灵的年轻人面对面站着。我们靠得很近,几乎碰在一起,目光再次相遇。我冒失地请布兰登夫人介绍我们认识。也许那终究不算冒失,而只是不可避免。即使没人介绍,我们也会开口交谈,我确信如此。道林后来也这样告诉我。他也觉得我们注定会相识。”

“那么,布兰登夫人是怎样介绍这位了不起的年轻人的?”他的同伴问,“我知道她喜欢迅速给每位客人作一番人物摘要。我记得她曾把我领到一位满脸通红、凶悍粗暴、浑身挂满勋章与绶带的老先生面前,然后凑在我耳边,以一种全屋人都肯定听得见的悲剧式耳语,嘶嘶地讲出最骇人的细节。我只好逃走。我喜欢自己去了解一个人。可布兰登夫人对待客人,恰似拍卖师对待货物:她不是把人彻底解释得一文不剩,就是把你根本不想知道的一切全告诉你,唯独漏掉你真正想知道的事。”

“可怜的布兰登夫人!哈里,你对她太苛刻了。”霍尔沃德无精打采地说。

“亲爱的,她想创办一个沙龙,结果只开成了一家餐馆。我怎么可能欣赏她?不过告诉我,她怎么介绍道林·格雷先生?”

“哦,大概是这样:‘迷人的孩子——他可怜的母亲和我简直形影不离。完全忘了他做什么——恐怕他——什么也不做——哦,对了,会弹钢琴——还是拉小提琴,亲爱的格雷先生?’我们俩都忍不住笑起来,于是立刻成了朋友。”

“以笑声开始一段友谊,一点也不坏;而以笑声结束一段友谊,则是再好不过。”年轻勋爵说着,又摘下一朵雏菊。

霍尔沃德摇摇头。“你不懂什么是友谊,哈里,”他低声说,“说到敌意,你也同样不懂。你喜欢每一个人;换句话说,你对每一个人都漠不关心。”

“你这话多么可怕地不公正!”亨利勋爵叫道,把帽子向后推了推,仰望几缕小云;它们像散开的光亮白丝线团,飘过夏日天空凹陷的绿松石色。“是的,太不公正了。我对人分得很清楚。我以容貌挑选朋友,以品格挑选熟人,以才智挑选敌人。一个人选择敌人时,再谨慎也不过分。我的敌人中没有一个傻瓜,他们全都有某种智力,因此也都懂得欣赏我。这是否太虚荣?我想确实有一点。”

“我看是的,哈里。不过照你的分类,我至多只是个熟人。”

“亲爱的老巴兹尔,你远不止是熟人。”

“却又远不及朋友。我猜,算某种兄弟?”

“哦,兄弟!我不在乎兄弟。我的哥哥迟迟不死,弟弟们却仿佛除了死以外从不做别的事。”

“哈里!”霍尔沃德皱眉叫道。

“亲爱的,我并不完全当真。可我忍不住讨厌亲戚。我想这是因为,我们谁也受不了别人拥有与自己相同的缺点。我十分同情英国民主大众对所谓上层阶级恶习的愤怒。群众觉得,酗酒、愚蠢与不道德应当是他们自己的专属财产;我们中若有人出丑,就是到他们的保留地偷猎。可怜的索瑟克闹上离婚法庭时,他们的义愤真是壮观。然而我猜,无产者中恐怕连百分之十都不能规矩生活。”

“你说的话,我一个字也不同意;而且哈里,我敢肯定你自己也不信。”

亨利勋爵抚摸尖尖的棕色胡须,用带流苏的乌木手杖轻敲漆皮靴尖。“巴兹尔,你真是英国人!这已经是你第二次这样说了。若向一个真正的英国人提出一种观点——这样做总是很冒险——他从不会考虑观点本身是对是错。他唯一认为重要的,是说话的人是否真心相信它。可一种观点的价值,与表达者是否真诚毫无关系。事实上,一个人越不真诚,他的观点就越可能保持纯粹的智性,因为那时观点不会染上他的需求、欲望或偏见。不过,我不准备同你讨论政治、社会学或形而上学。我喜欢人胜过原则,而我最喜欢的是毫无原则的人。再多讲些道林·格雷先生吧。你多久见他一次?”

“每天。若不能每天见到他,我就不会快乐。他对我绝对不可缺少。”

“真不可思议!我以为除了艺术,你永远不会在乎任何东西。”

“如今他就是我的全部艺术。”画家严肃地说,“哈里,我有时觉得,世界历史上只有两个时代真正重要:一个是新的艺术媒介出现的时代,另一个则是新的艺术人格出现的时代。油画的发明对于威尼斯人意味着什么,安提诺乌斯的面容对于晚期希腊雕塑意味着什么,道林·格雷的面容有朝一日对我也会意味着什么。我并不只是以他为对象作油画、素描和速写。当然,这些我都做过。可对我而言,他远不止模特或肖像对象。我不会告诉你,我对自己画他的作品不满,也不会说他的美到了艺术无法表现的地步。没有什么是艺术不能表现的;我知道,自从遇到道林·格雷以后,我所创作的是好作品,是我一生最好的作品。可是以某种奇异的方式——不知道你能否理解——他的人格向我启示了一种全新的艺术手法,一种全新的风格。我看事物的方式不同了,思考事物的方式也不同了。我现在能以从前隐而不见的方式重新创造生命。‘在思想的时代,一场形式之梦’——这是谁说的?我忘了;可道林·格雷对我正是如此。仅仅是这个年轻人在场——在我看来他不过还是个少年,虽然实际上已经二十多岁——仅仅是他看得见的存在——啊!你能否明白这一切意味着什么?在无意识中,他替我划定了一个新流派的线条:这个流派将兼有浪漫精神的全部激情和希腊精神的全部完美。灵魂与肉体的和谐——这是何等重要!我们疯狂地把二者分开,创造了一种粗俗的现实主义和一种空洞的理想主义。哈里!你要是知道道林·格雷对我意味着什么就好了!你记得我那幅风景画吧?阿格纽曾出高价购买,我却不肯割爱。那是我最好的作品之一。为什么?因为作画时,道林·格雷就坐在我身旁。某种微妙的影响从他传到我身上;我一生中第一次在平凡的林地里看见了自己一直寻找、却总是错过的奇迹。”

“巴兹尔,这太非同寻常了!我一定得见见道林·格雷。”

霍尔沃德从椅子上站起,在花园里来回踱步。过了一会儿,他走回来。“哈里,”他说,“对我而言,道林·格雷只是一个艺术母题。你也许在他身上什么也看不见,我却看见一切。我的作品里越没有他的形象,他反而越真实地存在其中。正如我说过的,他启示了一种新手法。我在某些线条的曲线里,在某些色彩的美与微妙中发现他。仅此而已。”

“那你为什么不展出他的肖像?”亨利勋爵问。

“因为我无意间把这种奇异的艺术崇拜表现了出来;当然,我从未想过对他提起。他对此一无所知,也永远不该知道。可世人也许会猜出来,而我不愿在他们浅薄窥探的目光下袒露灵魂。我的心绝不能被放到他们的显微镜下。这幅画里有太多的我自己,哈里——太多的我自己!”

“诗人可不像你这样谨慎。他们知道激情对出版多么有用。如今一颗破碎的心,足以印上许多版。”

“我正因此而厌恶他们。”霍尔沃德叫道,“艺术家应当创造美好事物,却不该把自己的生活放进去。我们活在这样一个时代:人们把艺术看成自传的一种形式。我们已经失去了对抽象美的感受。总有一天,我会让世人看见抽象美是什么;也正因如此,世人绝不能看见我画的道林·格雷肖像。”

“我觉得你错了,巴兹尔,不过我不跟你争。只有在智性上迷失的人才会争辩。告诉我,道林·格雷很喜欢你吗?”

画家思索片刻。“他喜欢我,”停顿后他回答,“我知道他喜欢我。当然,我把他奉承得厉害。明知有些话说出口后会后悔,我仍从中得到一种奇异的快感。通常他待我很迷人,我们坐在画室里,无所不谈。但他偶尔也会无情地粗心,仿佛真以使我痛苦为乐。那时我觉得,哈里,我已经把整个灵魂交给了一个人,而他却把它当成插在衣襟上的一朵花,一件取悦虚荣的装饰,一件夏日的饰物。”

“夏日的白昼往往拖得很长,巴兹尔。”亨利勋爵低声说,“也许你会比他更早厌倦。想来令人伤感,但毫无疑问,天才比美貌持久。正因如此,我们才如此费力地让自己受过度教育。在残酷的生存竞争中,我们想拥有某种长久之物,于是把垃圾和事实塞满头脑,愚蠢地希望借此保住自己的位置。知识极其渊博的人——这就是现代人的理想。而一个知识极其渊博者的头脑,是件可怕的东西,像一间摆满零碎古玩的店铺,尽是怪物与尘埃,每件东西的标价都高过实际价值。不过我仍觉得,你会先厌倦。有一天你看着朋友,会觉得他某处走了形,或不喜欢他的色调,或诸如此类。你会在心里痛苦地责备他,认真认为他对你很不好。下次他来时,你将冷淡而漠然。那真可惜,因为这会改变你。你刚才告诉我的完全是一段浪漫史,不妨称为艺术的浪漫史;而任何浪漫史最糟糕之处,就在于它最终会让人变得如此不浪漫。”

“哈里,别这样说。只要我活着,道林·格雷的人格就会支配我。你感受不到我的感受,因为你变得太频繁。”

“啊,亲爱的巴兹尔,正因为如此,我才感受得到。忠贞的人只知道爱情平凡的一面;只有不忠的人才知道爱情的悲剧。”亨利勋爵在一只精致的银烟盒上擦亮火柴,开始抽烟,神情自觉而满足,仿佛一句话便总结了全世界。麻雀啁啾着,常春藤绿色漆面般的叶子沙沙作响;蓝色云影像燕子一样追逐着掠过草地。花园里多么惬意!而别人的情感又多么迷人——在他看来,比别人的思想迷人得多。自己的灵魂,以及朋友们的激情——这才是人生中令人着迷的事。他暗自好笑地想象,自己因在巴兹尔·霍尔沃德这里久留而错过的那顿乏味午餐。若去了姨母家,他一定会在那里碰见古德博迪勋爵,整场谈话都会围绕如何救济穷人,以及建立模范住宅的必要。每个阶级都会宣讲某些美德的重要性,而他们自己的生活根本无须实践那些美德。富人会谈节俭的价值,游手好闲者会滔滔不绝地赞美劳动的尊严。逃过这一切,真令人愉快!想到姨母时,他仿佛忽然有了个念头。他转向霍尔沃德说:“亲爱的,我刚想起来。”

“想起什么,哈里?”

“我在哪里听过道林·格雷这个名字。”

“在哪里?”霍尔沃德微微皱眉问。

“别这么生气,巴兹尔。是在我姨母阿加莎夫人那里。她告诉我,她发现了一个了不起的年轻人,要去东区帮她做慈善;他的名字就是道林·格雷。我必须说明,她从没告诉我他长得英俊。女人不懂得欣赏英俊,至少好女人不懂。她说他非常认真,天性美好。我立刻想象出一个戴眼镜、头发细长、满脸雀斑、迈着一双大脚四处奔走的人。真希望我早知道他是你的朋友。”

“我很高兴你不知道,哈里。”

“为什么?”

“我不想让你见他。”

“你不想让我见他?”

“不想。”

“先生,道林·格雷先生在画室里。”管家走进花园说道。

“现在你非介绍我们认识不可了。”亨利勋爵笑着叫道。

画家转向站在阳光下眨眼的仆人。“请格雷先生稍候,帕克。我过一会儿就进去。”那人鞠了一躬,沿小径离开。

随后他望向亨利勋爵。“道林·格雷是我最亲爱的朋友,”他说,“他天性单纯而美好。你姨母对他的评价完全正确。别把他带坏。别试图影响他。你的影响会是坏的。世界很大,有许多了不起的人。不要从我身边夺走唯一一个赋予我的艺术以全部魅力的人:我的艺术生命依赖着他。记住,哈里,我信任你。”他说得很慢,那些话仿佛违背意愿,硬从心里拧了出来。

“你说的都是什么傻话!”亨利勋爵微笑着说。他挽住霍尔沃德的手臂,几乎是把他带进了屋里。

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The studio was filled with the rich odour of roses, and when the light summer wind stirred amidst the trees of the garden, there came through the open door the heavy scent of the lilac, or the more delicate perfume of the pink-flowering thorn.

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From the corner of the divan of Persian saddle-bags on which he was lying, smoking, as was his custom, innumerable cigarettes, Lord Henry Wotton could just catch the gleam of the honey-sweet and honey-coloured blossoms of a laburnum, whose tremulous branches seemed hardly able to bear the burden of a beauty so flamelike as theirs; and now and then the fantastic shadows of birds in flight flitted across the long tussore-silk curtains that were stretched in front of the huge window, producing a kind of momentary Japanese effect, and making him think of those pallid, jade-faced painters of Tokyo who, through the medium of an art that is necessarily immobile, seek to convey the sense of swiftness and motion. The sullen murmur of the bees shouldering their way through the long unmown grass, or circling with monotonous insistence round the dusty gilt horns of the straggling woodbine, seemed to make the stillness more oppressive. The dim roar of London was like the bourdon note of a distant organ.

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In the centre of the room, clamped to an upright easel, stood the full-length portrait of a young man of extraordinary personal beauty, and in front of it, some little distance away, was sitting the artist himself, Basil Hallward, whose sudden disappearance some years ago caused, at the time, such public excitement and gave rise to so many strange conjectures.

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As the painter looked at the gracious and comely form he had so skilfully mirrored in his art, a smile of pleasure passed across his face, and seemed about to linger there. But he suddenly started up, and closing his eyes, placed his fingers upon the lids, as though he sought to imprison within his brain some curious dream from which he feared he might awake.

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“It is your best work, Basil, the best thing you have ever done,” said Lord Henry languidly. “You must certainly send it next year to the Grosvenor. The Academy is too large and too vulgar. Whenever I have gone there, there have been either so many people that I have not been able to see the pictures, which was dreadful, or so many pictures that I have not been able to see the people, which was worse. The Grosvenor is really the only place.”

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“I don’t think I shall send it anywhere,” he answered, tossing his head back in that odd way that used to make his friends laugh at him at Oxford. “No, I won’t send it anywhere.”

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Lord Henry elevated his eyebrows and looked at him in amazement through the thin blue wreaths of smoke that curled up in such fanciful whorls from his heavy, opium-tainted cigarette. “Not send it anywhere? My dear fellow, why? Have you any reason? What odd chaps you painters are! You do anything in the world to gain a reputation. As soon as you have one, you seem to want to throw it away. It is silly of you, for there is only one thing in the world worse than being talked about, and that is not being talked about. A portrait like this would set you far above all the young men in England, and make the old men quite jealous, if old men are ever capable of any emotion.”

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“I know you will laugh at me,” he replied, “but I really can’t exhibit it. I have put too much of myself into it.”

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Lord Henry stretched himself out on the divan and laughed.

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“Yes, I knew you would; but it is quite true, all the same.”

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“Too much of yourself in it! Upon my word, Basil, I didn’t know you were so vain; and I really can’t see any resemblance between you, with your rugged strong face and your coal-black hair, and this young Adonis, who looks as if he was made out of ivory and rose-leaves. Why, my dear Basil, he is a Narcissus, and you—well, of course you have an intellectual expression and all that. But beauty, real beauty, ends where an intellectual expression begins. Intellect is in itself a mode of exaggeration, and destroys the harmony of any face. The moment one sits down to think, one becomes all nose, or all forehead, or something horrid. Look at the successful men in any of the learned professions. How perfectly hideous they are! Except, of course, in the Church. But then in the Church they don’t think. A bishop keeps on saying at the age of eighty what he was told to say when he was a boy of eighteen, and as a natural consequence he always looks absolutely delightful. Your mysterious young friend, whose name you have never told me, but whose picture really fascinates me, never thinks. I feel quite sure of that. He is some brainless beautiful creature who should be always here in winter when we have no flowers to look at, and always here in summer when we want something to chill our intelligence. Don’t flatter yourself, Basil: you are not in the least like him.”

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“You don’t understand me, Harry,” answered the artist. “Of course I am not like him. I know that perfectly well. Indeed, I should be sorry to look like him. You shrug your shoulders? I am telling you the truth. There is a fatality about all physical and intellectual distinction, the sort of fatality that seems to dog through history the faltering steps of kings. It is better not to be different from one’s fellows. The ugly and the stupid have the best of it in this world. They can sit at their ease and gape at the play. If they know nothing of victory, they are at least spared the knowledge of defeat. They live as we all should live—undisturbed, indifferent, and without disquiet. They neither bring ruin upon others, nor ever receive it from alien hands. Your rank and wealth, Harry; my brains, such as they are—my art, whatever it may be worth; Dorian Gray’s good looks—we shall all suffer for what the gods have given us, suffer terribly.”

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“Dorian Gray? Is that his name?” asked Lord Henry, walking across the studio towards Basil Hallward.

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“Yes, that is his name. I didn’t intend to tell it to you.”

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“But why not?”

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“Oh, I can’t explain. When I like people immensely, I never tell their names to any one. It is like surrendering a part of them. I have grown to love secrecy. It seems to be the one thing that can make modern life mysterious or marvellous to us. The commonest thing is delightful if one only hides it. When I leave town now I never tell my people where I am going. If I did, I would lose all my pleasure. It is a silly habit, I dare say, but somehow it seems to bring a great deal of romance into one’s life. I suppose you think me awfully foolish about it?”

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“Not at all,” answered Lord Henry, “not at all, my dear Basil. You seem to forget that I am married, and the one charm of marriage is that it makes a life of deception absolutely necessary for both parties. I never know where my wife is, and my wife never knows what I am doing. When we meet—we do meet occasionally, when we dine out together, or go down to the Duke’s—we tell each other the most absurd stories with the most serious faces. My wife is very good at it—much better, in fact, than I am. She never gets confused over her dates, and I always do. But when she does find me out, she makes no row at all. I sometimes wish she would; but she merely laughs at me.”

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“I hate the way you talk about your married life, Harry,” said Basil Hallward, strolling towards the door that led into the garden. “I believe that you are really a very good husband, but that you are thoroughly ashamed of your own virtues. You are an extraordinary fellow. You never say a moral thing, and you never do a wrong thing. Your cynicism is simply a pose.”

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“Being natural is simply a pose, and the most irritating pose I know,” cried Lord Henry, laughing; and the two young men went out into the garden together and ensconced themselves on a long bamboo seat that stood in the shade of a tall laurel bush. The sunlight slipped over the polished leaves. In the grass, white daisies were tremulous.

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After a pause, Lord Henry pulled out his watch. “I am afraid I must be going, Basil,” he murmured, “and before I go, I insist on your answering a question I put to you some time ago.”

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“What is that?” said the painter, keeping his eyes fixed on the ground.

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“You know quite well.”

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“I do not, Harry.”

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“Well, I will tell you what it is. I want you to explain to me why you won’t exhibit Dorian Gray’s picture. I want the real reason.”

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“I told you the real reason.”

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“No, you did not. You said it was because there was too much of yourself in it. Now, that is childish.”

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“Harry,” said Basil Hallward, looking him straight in the face, “every portrait that is painted with feeling is a portrait of the artist, not of the sitter. The sitter is merely the accident, the occasion. It is not he who is revealed by the painter; it is rather the painter who, on the coloured canvas, reveals himself. The reason I will not exhibit this picture is that I am afraid that I have shown in it the secret of my own soul.”

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Lord Henry laughed. “And what is that?” he asked.

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“I will tell you,” said Hallward; but an expression of perplexity came over his face.

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“I am all expectation, Basil,” continued his companion, glancing at him.

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“Oh, there is really very little to tell, Harry,” answered the painter; “and I am afraid you will hardly understand it. Perhaps you will hardly believe it.”

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Lord Henry smiled, and leaning down, plucked a pink-petalled daisy from the grass and examined it. “I am quite sure I shall understand it,” he replied, gazing intently at the little golden, white-feathered disk, “and as for believing things, I can believe anything, provided that it is quite incredible.”

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The wind shook some blossoms from the trees, and the heavy lilac-blooms, with their clustering stars, moved to and fro in the languid air. A grasshopper began to chirrup by the wall, and like a blue thread a long thin dragon-fly floated past on its brown gauze wings. Lord Henry felt as if he could hear Basil Hallward’s heart beating, and wondered what was coming.

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“The story is simply this,” said the painter after some time. “Two months ago I went to a crush at Lady Brandon’s. You know we poor artists have to show ourselves in society from time to time, just to remind the public that we are not savages. With an evening coat and a white tie, as you told me once, anybody, even a stock-broker, can gain a reputation for being civilized. Well, after I had been in the room about ten minutes, talking to huge overdressed dowagers and tedious academicians, I suddenly became conscious that some one was looking at me. I turned half-way round and saw Dorian Gray for the first time. When our eyes met, I felt that I was growing pale. A curious sensation of terror came over me. I knew that I had come face to face with some one whose mere personality was so fascinating that, if I allowed it to do so, it would absorb my whole nature, my whole soul, my very art itself. I did not want any external influence in my life. You know yourself, Harry, how independent I am by nature. I have always been my own master; had at least always been so, till I met Dorian Gray. Then—but I don’t know how to explain it to you. Something seemed to tell me that I was on the verge of a terrible crisis in my life. I had a strange feeling that fate had in store for me exquisite joys and exquisite sorrows. I grew afraid and turned to quit the room. It was not conscience that made me do so: it was a sort of cowardice. I take no credit to myself for trying to escape.”

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“Conscience and cowardice are really the same things, Basil. Conscience is the trade-name of the firm. That is all.”

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“I don’t believe that, Harry, and I don’t believe you do either. However, whatever was my motive—and it may have been pride, for I used to be very proud—I certainly struggled to the door. There, of course, I stumbled against Lady Brandon. ‘You are not going to run away so soon, Mr. Hallward?’ she screamed out. You know her curiously shrill voice?”

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“Yes; she is a peacock in everything but beauty,” said Lord Henry, pulling the daisy to bits with his long nervous fingers.

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“I could not get rid of her. She brought me up to royalties, and people with stars and garters, and elderly ladies with gigantic tiaras and parrot noses. She spoke of me as her dearest friend. I had only met her once before, but she took it into her head to lionize me. I believe some picture of mine had made a great success at the time, at least had been chattered about in the penny newspapers, which is the nineteenth-century standard of immortality. Suddenly I found myself face to face with the young man whose personality had so strangely stirred me. We were quite close, almost touching. Our eyes met again. It was reckless of me, but I asked Lady Brandon to introduce me to him. Perhaps it was not so reckless, after all. It was simply inevitable. We would have spoken to each other without any introduction. I am sure of that. Dorian told me so afterwards. He, too, felt that we were destined to know each other.”

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“And how did Lady Brandon describe this wonderful young man?” asked his companion. “I know she goes in for giving a rapid précis of all her guests. I remember her bringing me up to a truculent and red-faced old gentleman covered all over with orders and ribbons, and hissing into my ear, in a tragic whisper which must have been perfectly audible to everybody in the room, the most astounding details. I simply fled. I like to find out people for myself. But Lady Brandon treats her guests exactly as an auctioneer treats his goods. She either explains them entirely away, or tells one everything about them except what one wants to know.”

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“Poor Lady Brandon! You are hard on her, Harry!” said Hallward listlessly.

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“My dear fellow, she tried to found a salon, and only succeeded in opening a restaurant. How could I admire her? But tell me, what did she say about Mr. Dorian Gray?”

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“Oh, something like, ‘Charming boy—poor dear mother and I absolutely inseparable. Quite forget what he does—afraid he—doesn’t do anything—oh, yes, plays the piano—or is it the violin, dear Mr. Gray?’ Neither of us could help laughing, and we became friends at once.”

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“Laughter is not at all a bad beginning for a friendship, and it is far the best ending for one,” said the young lord, plucking another daisy.

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Hallward shook his head. “You don’t understand what friendship is, Harry,” he murmured—“or what enmity is, for that matter. You like every one; that is to say, you are indifferent to every one.”

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“How horribly unjust of you!” cried Lord Henry, tilting his hat back and looking up at the little clouds that, like ravelled skeins of glossy white silk, were drifting across the hollowed turquoise of the summer sky. “Yes; horribly unjust of you. I make a great difference between people. I choose my friends for their good looks, my acquaintances for their good characters, and my enemies for their good intellects. A man cannot be too careful in the choice of his enemies. I have not got one who is a fool. They are all men of some intellectual power, and consequently they all appreciate me. Is that very vain of me? I think it is rather vain.”

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“I should think it was, Harry. But according to your category I must be merely an acquaintance.”

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“My dear old Basil, you are much more than an acquaintance.”

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“And much less than a friend. A sort of brother, I suppose?”

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“Oh, brothers! I don’t care for brothers. My elder brother won’t die, and my younger brothers seem never to do anything else.”

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“Harry!” exclaimed Hallward, frowning.

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“My dear fellow, I am not quite serious. But I can’t help detesting my relations. I suppose it comes from the fact that none of us can stand other people having the same faults as ourselves. I quite sympathize with the rage of the English democracy against what they call the vices of the upper orders. The masses feel that drunkenness, stupidity, and immorality should be their own special property, and that if any one of us makes an ass of himself, he is poaching on their preserves. When poor Southwark got into the divorce court, their indignation was quite magnificent. And yet I don’t suppose that ten per cent of the proletariat live correctly.”

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“I don’t agree with a single word that you have said, and, what is more, Harry, I feel sure you don’t either.”

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Lord Henry stroked his pointed brown beard and tapped the toe of his patent-leather boot with a tasselled ebony cane. “How English you are Basil! That is the second time you have made that observation. If one puts forward an idea to a true Englishman—always a rash thing to do—he never dreams of considering whether the idea is right or wrong. The only thing he considers of any importance is whether one believes it oneself. Now, the value of an idea has nothing whatsoever to do with the sincerity of the man who expresses it. Indeed, the probabilities are that the more insincere the man is, the more purely intellectual will the idea be, as in that case it will not be coloured by either his wants, his desires, or his prejudices. However, I don’t propose to discuss politics, sociology, or metaphysics with you. I like persons better than principles, and I like persons with no principles better than anything else in the world. Tell me more about Mr. Dorian Gray. How often do you see him?”

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“Every day. I couldn’t be happy if I didn’t see him every day. He is absolutely necessary to me.”

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“How extraordinary! I thought you would never care for anything but your art.”

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“He is all my art to me now,” said the painter gravely. “I sometimes think, Harry, that there are only two eras of any importance in the world’s history. The first is the appearance of a new medium for art, and the second is the appearance of a new personality for art also. What the invention of oil-painting was to the Venetians, the face of Antinous was to late Greek sculpture, and the face of Dorian Gray will some day be to me. It is not merely that I paint from him, draw from him, sketch from him. Of course, I have done all that. But he is much more to me than a model or a sitter. I won’t tell you that I am dissatisfied with what I have done of him, or that his beauty is such that art cannot express it. There is nothing that art cannot express, and I know that the work I have done, since I met Dorian Gray, is good work, is the best work of my life. But in some curious way—I wonder will you understand me?—his personality has suggested to me an entirely new manner in art, an entirely new mode of style. I see things differently, I think of them differently. I can now recreate life in a way that was hidden from me before. ‘A dream of form in days of thought’—who is it who says that? I forget; but it is what Dorian Gray has been to me. The merely visible presence of this lad—for he seems to me little more than a lad, though he is really over twenty—his merely visible presence—ah! I wonder can you realize all that that means? Unconsciously he defines for me the lines of a fresh school, a school that is to have in it all the passion of the romantic spirit, all the perfection of the spirit that is Greek. The harmony of soul and body—how much that is! We in our madness have separated the two, and have invented a realism that is vulgar, an ideality that is void. Harry! if you only knew what Dorian Gray is to me! You remember that landscape of mine, for which Agnew offered me such a huge price but which I would not part with? It is one of the best things I have ever done. And why is it so? Because, while I was painting it, Dorian Gray sat beside me. Some subtle influence passed from him to me, and for the first time in my life I saw in the plain woodland the wonder I had always looked for and always missed.”

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“Basil, this is extraordinary! I must see Dorian Gray.”

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Hallward got up from the seat and walked up and down the garden. After some time he came back. “Harry,” he said, “Dorian Gray is to me simply a motive in art. You might see nothing in him. I see everything in him. He is never more present in my work than when no image of him is there. He is a suggestion, as I have said, of a new manner. I find him in the curves of certain lines, in the loveliness and subtleties of certain colours. That is all.”

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“Then why won’t you exhibit his portrait?” asked Lord Henry.

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“Because, without intending it, I have put into it some expression of all this curious artistic idolatry, of which, of course, I have never cared to speak to him. He knows nothing about it. He shall never know anything about it. But the world might guess it, and I will not bare my soul to their shallow prying eyes. My heart shall never be put under their microscope. There is too much of myself in the thing, Harry—too much of myself!”

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“Poets are not so scrupulous as you are. They know how useful passion is for publication. Nowadays a broken heart will run to many editions.”

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“I hate them for it,” cried Hallward. “An artist should create beautiful things, but should put nothing of his own life into them. We live in an age when men treat art as if it were meant to be a form of autobiography. We have lost the abstract sense of beauty. Some day I will show the world what it is; and for that reason the world shall never see my portrait of Dorian Gray.”

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“I think you are wrong, Basil, but I won’t argue with you. It is only the intellectually lost who ever argue. Tell me, is Dorian Gray very fond of you?”

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The painter considered for a few moments. “He likes me,” he answered after a pause; “I know he likes me. Of course I flatter him dreadfully. I find a strange pleasure in saying things to him that I know I shall be sorry for having said. As a rule, he is charming to me, and we sit in the studio and talk of a thousand things. Now and then, however, he is horribly thoughtless, and seems to take a real delight in giving me pain. Then I feel, Harry, that I have given away my whole soul to some one who treats it as if it were a flower to put in his coat, a bit of decoration to charm his vanity, an ornament for a summer’s day.”

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“Days in summer, Basil, are apt to linger,” murmured Lord Henry. “Perhaps you will tire sooner than he will. It is a sad thing to think of, but there is no doubt that genius lasts longer than beauty. That accounts for the fact that we all take such pains to over-educate ourselves. In the wild struggle for existence, we want to have something that endures, and so we fill our minds with rubbish and facts, in the silly hope of keeping our place. The thoroughly well-informed man—that is the modern ideal. And the mind of the thoroughly well-informed man is a dreadful thing. It is like a bric-à-brac shop, all monsters and dust, with everything priced above its proper value. I think you will tire first, all the same. Some day you will look at your friend, and he will seem to you to be a little out of drawing, or you won’t like his tone of colour, or something. You will bitterly reproach him in your own heart, and seriously think that he has behaved very badly to you. The next time he calls, you will be perfectly cold and indifferent. It will be a great pity, for it will alter you. What you have told me is quite a romance, a romance of art one might call it, and the worst of having a romance of any kind is that it leaves one so unromantic.”

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“Harry, don’t talk like that. As long as I live, the personality of Dorian Gray will dominate me. You can’t feel what I feel. You change too often.”

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“Ah, my dear Basil, that is exactly why I can feel it. Those who are faithful know only the trivial side of love: it is the faithless who know love’s tragedies.” And Lord Henry struck a light on a dainty silver case and began to smoke a cigarette with a self-conscious and satisfied air, as if he had summed up the world in a phrase. There was a rustle of chirruping sparrows in the green lacquer leaves of the ivy, and the blue cloud-shadows chased themselves across the grass like swallows. How pleasant it was in the garden! And how delightful other people’s emotions were!—much more delightful than their ideas, it seemed to him. One’s own soul, and the passions of one’s friends—those were the fascinating things in life. He pictured to himself with silent amusement the tedious luncheon that he had missed by staying so long with Basil Hallward. Had he gone to his aunt’s, he would have been sure to have met Lord Goodbody there, and the whole conversation would have been about the feeding of the poor and the necessity for model lodging-houses. Each class would have preached the importance of those virtues, for whose exercise there was no necessity in their own lives. The rich would have spoken on the value of thrift, and the idle grown eloquent over the dignity of labour. It was charming to have escaped all that! As he thought of his aunt, an idea seemed to strike him. He turned to Hallward and said, “My dear fellow, I have just remembered.”

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“Remembered what, Harry?”

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“Where I heard the name of Dorian Gray.”

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“Where was it?” asked Hallward, with a slight frown.

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“Don’t look so angry, Basil. It was at my aunt, Lady Agatha’s. She told me she had discovered a wonderful young man who was going to help her in the East End, and that his name was Dorian Gray. I am bound to state that she never told me he was good-looking. Women have no appreciation of good looks; at least, good women have not. She said that he was very earnest and had a beautiful nature. I at once pictured to myself a creature with spectacles and lank hair, horribly freckled, and tramping about on huge feet. I wish I had known it was your friend.”

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“I am very glad you didn’t, Harry.”

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“Why?”

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“I don’t want you to meet him.”

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“You don’t want me to meet him?”

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“No.”

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“Mr. Dorian Gray is in the studio, sir,” said the butler, coming into the garden.

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“You must introduce me now,” cried Lord Henry, laughing.

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The painter turned to his servant, who stood blinking in the sunlight. “Ask Mr. Gray to wait, Parker: I shall be in in a few moments.” The man bowed and went up the walk.

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Then he looked at Lord Henry. “Dorian Gray is my dearest friend,” he said. “He has a simple and a beautiful nature. Your aunt was quite right in what she said of him. Don’t spoil him. Don’t try to influence him. Your influence would be bad. The world is wide, and has many marvellous people in it. Don’t take away from me the one person who gives to my art whatever charm it possesses: my life as an artist depends on him. Mind, Harry, I trust you.” He spoke very slowly, and the words seemed wrung out of him almost against his will.

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“What nonsense you talk!” said Lord Henry, smiling, and taking Hallward by the arm, he almost led him into the house.